#cake solves everything

[marshiro-blog]

*Seirin vs Yosen*

Murasakibara: Here we are in the middle of a crisis and there's no cake.

[wonderfullyasexual]

Daily Reminder #7

Look in the mirror, appreciate who you see. This person has come a long way no matter the circumstance, you’re stronger than you can imagine. You really are. Don’t be your worst enemy, you deserve better than that. Accept yourself, love yourself, and do the same for others. We love you, we accept you, you are wonderful.

Oh and have some cake, no we don’t care if you’re not ace, :3

[livingasellie-blog]

Term is overrrrr

I handed in all my work for this term and everything. But then I had a bit of a mini freak out after my final dissertation meeting finished because I realised everything is coming to an end. I know I'm carrying on in education, but I've put my everything in to this degree so it's very strange that all my lectures are done with and that I only have deadlines and exams left. However, I had some cake and I'm feeling fine now :)

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[thearchivalist]

I don't like the saying "I will cut a bitch", so every time anyone anyone says that, I quickly say "a piece of cake" after them. 

[redhoodedhale]

Party time!!!! THE SITE IS DOWN. Anyone bring cake?

[keyboardmush-blog]

Feeling ever so apprehensive...

For quite some time now I've been experiencing what I can only describe as this 'heavy fuzzy head' sort of sensation. It seems to come and go whenever it pleases, which is what worries me because I've had this sort of thing happen before. It is not due to over-exertion, as it may have been back then after having danced, but it is really puzzling me as to the cause of it.

Is it due to lack of sleep? It can't be. I've finally been able to sleep straight through the night for the past couple of days now after having caught up on sleep Sunday past. Is it due to my job which involves sitting infront of a computer screen all day? It can't be. It doesn't happen every day, and since January I've had the brightness of the screen turned down to pretty much 0% and I've even dimmed it further with the contrast when I don't need to distinguish between colours.

It's puzzling me as much as it did back then. I know I have an irregular heart beat and low blood pressure, as they discovered that when they ran tests the first time around when I was about 13. That wasn't even connected to what was happening with my body though and they just said I'd grow out of it at some point. Which is true, I did. Possibly because in the end I was so nervous before actually getting up there infront of the judges I didn't get as far as doing that first dance and having what followed happen to me. This time round though, if it is the same or a similiar sort of thing.. What is causing it?

It's a little difficult to describe as it usually only lasts on and off for about 30-40 minutes then I'm over it. As I'm at work I have to force myself to keep my eyes awake so maybe that prolongs the effect. When I was younger I needed to close my eyes and lie down and it was all over in about 5 or 10 minutes. Forcing my eyes to remain open though is really hard! My vision ends up going all blurry, I can't even focus on the screen let alone my work. It's such a horrible feeling, but there is no pain. My head doesn't throb or ache, neither do my eyes. My head just starts to feel overwhelmingly heavy, as do my eyes. Almost as if my brain needs to shut itself down for a minute or two.

I might bring it up tomorrow when I visit my GP. I thought at the time it was just because of the stress from moving house over the last few months and it would go away afterwards but it hasn't. I can't imagine it being linked to particular weather as it happened in summer when it was fairly hot and it's been happening on and off over winter. I thought it could be to do with the medication but it wasn't effecting me pre-summer.

I feel a little frustrated! I just want to know the cause so I can do something about it. As much as it isn't all that big a deal, it still disrupts my day-to-day life and that is something which I really could do without. Not only that, if it IS related to what started happening to me when I was 13 then why is it happening again and when will it end? Maybe it has nothing to do with anything - not with my medication and not with my work. Medication won't effect all areas of my brain. It just stops my brain from sending messed up signals to my body which is fantastic. Whoever invented such pills has all the gratefulness and adoration that I could possibly give to anyone, or any group of people. The quality of my life has been so much greater than ever before thanks to the omission of anxiety and all that comes with it. I'm not fully free, as the thoughts still pester me every now and then but it's ok. Well, it's bloody brilliant.

Anyway, after what has been a bit of a crumbly (yes - crumbly - not crummy) week thanks to [insert something here which has made the week suck a little] I decided to be a bigger person and just forget it. Problem solved! There is enough negativity in my life without it being added to thank you very much!

Yes, I will whine and I will moan but I am human and that's what humans do. We are always wanting to better ourselves and our lives and that sort of leaves us whinging about this, that and the next thing. I don't think this is a flaw, I don't think people should be criticised for it - as without it they would never know what it feels like to be truly happy. To know misery is to know happiness. It's like how you feel without cake. You really want it and it sucks not having it knowing it's out there somewhere, then when you finally get it and that thought of wanting cake is gone you sit there eating cake and all is well.

Ah cake.