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[cmon-letmeshowyoupariahdom]

THEY STILL AREN’T RESPONDING AND THEIR LAST MESSAGE TO ME WAS „I LOVE YOU“ AND I REPLIED IMMEDIATELY AFTER AND RAMBLED ABOUT HOW MUCH I LOVE XEM BUT THEY HAVEN’T REPLIED I’M GOING TO MAIM OVER THIS I CAN’T HANDLE IT

I don’t know if they’re mad at me or sad or going to do something to xemseIf I’m so panicked oh my god

[Plain Text: THEY STILL AREN’T RESPONDING AND THEIR LAST MESSAGE TO ME WAS „I LOVE YOU“ AND I REPLIED IMMEDIATELY AFTER AND RAMBLED ABOUT HOW MUCH I LOVE XEM BUT THEY HAVEN’T REPLIED I’M GOING TO MAIM OVER THIS I CAN’T HANDLE IT]

[I don’t know if they’re mad at me or sad or going to do something to xemseIf I’m so panicked oh my god]

[cmon-letmeshowyoupariahdom]

I hate being avoidant and having to figure out what the hell makes my experience with breakups so different from everyone else's; yes, of course I feel stable during the relationship only to disconnect when the other partners demands more than what I can provide and when they overwhelm me, and I do go through some amount of perturbance once the relationship is over before soon getting over it like people say I should—why are you acting like it's somehow different from everyone else's experience? I guess I know that something is off, but it just doesn't make any sense to me...it looks the same on paper.

[Plain Text: I hate being avoidant and having to figure out what the hell makes my experience with breakups so different from everyone else's; yes, of course I feel stable during the relationship only to disconnect when the other partners demands more than what I can provide and when they overwhelm me, and I do go through some amount of perturbance once the relationship is over before soon getting over it like people say I should—why are you acting like it's somehow different from everyone else's experience? I guess I know that something is off, but it just doesn't make any sense to me...it looks the same on paper.]

[cmon-letmeshowyoupariahdom]

I hate not being able to tell my mutuals on my main about my issues...they'll all hate me afterwards or think I'm too unstable and leave me. Fucking brats. I just want their love and attention so that I can know they deserve all of my life, even if it's only because of my histrionic personality disorder; is that too much to ask?

[Plain Text: I hate not being able to tell my mutuals on my main about my issues...they'll all hate me afterwards or think I'm too unstable and leave me. Fucking brats. I just want their love and attention so that I can know they deserve all of my life, even if it's only because of my histrionic personality disorder; is that too much to ask?]

[cmon-letmeshowyoupariahdom]

If the polycule isn't full of weird, spiteful, unstable, genderfucky, morally bereft, hyperintelligent but impulsive enablers who check off almost every box on Tumblr DNI lists and the DSM-5 as well as having every addiction to match eachother, then what's even the point of the polycule? How do you expect to match eachother's freak if there is no freak?

Bonus if one or more of them is plural. Extra bonus if one or more of them is touch-averse and touch-starved all at once.

[Plain Text: If the polycule isn't full of weird, spiteful, unstable, genderfucky, morally bereft, hyperintelligent but impulsive enablers who will check off almost every box in DNI lists and the DSM-5 as well as having every addiction to match eachother, then what's even the point of the polycule? How do you expect to match eachother's freak if there is no freak?]

[Bonus if one or more of them is plural. Extra bonus if one or more of them is touch-averse and touch-starved all at once.]

[cmon-letmeshowyoupariahdom]

I should make an intro post...not sure what to put in it though. Any tips or advice?

[Plain Text: I should make an intro post...not sure what to put in it though. Any tips or advice?]