#confused ace

[acespaceemzgalaxy]

I think I do feel sexual attraction from time to time but when I do it doesn’t feel like a hundred percent me

like some alter ego shit

[flowersonpebbles]

Sighs

I need to vent. I'll ventit here. Maybe other people's perspectives will be good for me.

Okay. So.

Marriage am I right?

Recently in my life some people I know have gone through bad shit regarding marriage.

One couple is divorcing cuz the guy spends all day on his pc or ps, calls his mom every night for 2 hours. But he can't go sit at the dinner table and eat with his wife. Okay. So she obviously feels emotionally neglected. That's fair. I understand that completely.

Then the other situation is the woman wants to divorce but can't cuz the man won't let her take what she's due. She's worked her whole fucking life for that money and he simply won't let her have some of it. Whatever lease they signed blah blah.

THEN this morning a customer sent some stuff cuz they work with brides for make up and jewellery and such. And I had to go to my Bible and read the verse she's referring to cuz I can't read ONE word out of all that. I could read everything but the one and didn't wanna bother her. She helped me anyway cuz I couldn't find it. But the verse in question just... I don't know.

I'm a horrible Christian... 😂

Listen. Some of my best friends and family...

"What's the point of dating if the end goal isn't marriage?"

Yeah. Okay. I usually agreed. Yup. I did. Cuz ye you want your soul mate for life etc etc

Another friend's dad always says 'if the woman wears the pants there will be chaos' gee thanks.

But that fucking verse. 1 Peter/Petrus 3.

I just... Good grief. I can't. Listen. I can't.

I'll be a fucking horrible wife. I'd have to change myself to be something I'm not to make another person happy. How is that.. Okay to all of us? How is that... Good for all of us?

I have to... HA lol no. I just.

I'm ace. I am sex repulsed. I also don't actually enjoy cuddling and kissing. I'd be obviously a very neglectful woman then. Because I like hand holding and forehead kisses and pecks and I just...

So if I date someone everyone will obviously start asking why we don't marry cuz that's the environment I'm in. I don't want to marry. I'd be awful. In many ways. I wouldn't WANT to marry, I'd just want to date. But if his side will also be like mine we'll be made to marry. I'm so fucking scared. What the fuck man. What's the point if I'll be frowned upon? If I'll break something I love so dearly? Nah. Nah man...

[arostellar]

all this situation got me thinking a lot because, how do you know when you like someone? how long does it take for you to be sure of your feelings? can it be one day, one week, one month, one year? it's so confusing, honestly.

because in my mind, it doesn't make sense that you want to start dating someone when you know the person for barely 4, 5 months. it feels too short!!!

and then after that you have to, make a new routine for that person, to focus in that person a little more....

oh god, all the dating process seems so tiring and i don't understand and i don't think i ever will.

[nocturnalchangeling]

No one has answered this question yet and last night my roommate dared ask me the same thing

[asexualaromanticramblings-blog]

Confused Aro/Ace moment

Two of my friends were talking about hobbies they find sexually and romantically attractive today. 

Like.... A HOBBY MAKES SOMEONE ATTRACTIVE? How? I am so confused. 

[acespaceemzgalaxy]

maybe I'm aceflux

bc my attraction only emerges every four business days when the moon is aligned in the spine of the universe and the UV index is at 3 and it also depends on my latest exposure to real people

like what do you mean earlier this morning I was crying about the pure existence of sex and the thought that people have looked at me in a sexual way and that I did the same and five hours later I flicked my bean to my self written smut twice

[zi-frappadingue]

Me: I'm asexual

Bucky Barnes content pops on my feed

Me : it's a spectrum though

[flowersonpebbles]

question for aces

I have a question for my fellow asexuals in a hetero romantic relationship:

Am I the bad guy for not wanting and enjoying the spicy things?