so these socks once belonged to my very abusive ex. i asked to keep them when i broke up with him. why? ..¯\_(ツ)_/¯
i darned the yellow toe within a few months of ousting him, but they've been sitting determinedly at the top of my mending pile ever since then-- that was...five? six? years ago?
it's kinda funny, because in those 5-6 years i did a lot of Not Healing.
but this year i discovered im asexual (maybe due in part to that relationship), and through that revelation, and some good supportive folks, i found the space to learn how to Be without pressing on old wounds.
in the last two days i've done up both the heels.
i wasn't thinking about the two being correlated before, but now i'm feeling maybe they are.
i am far from fully healed, and so are my socks. the darns are not the best, and there are lots of very thin bits just waiting to wear through.
but finally, for now, they are just whole again.
i plan to keep darning these socks until they are all darn and there's nothing left of that sour freak in them.