yeah, having delusions/hallucinations is "bad," its not something a healthy brain does, but like... if you're already disordered, you're not making it worse by accepting your disorder and co-existing with it.
im schizotypal and when im stressed, i have a cast of "demons" that i feel the presence of. two are scary, and one is honestly chill. they aren't real to anyone else except me, they cant hurt me or anyone else, and they only exist in my head. but my brain is part of me. it's like most of me, and so these hallucinations do affect me.
my friends kinda play along with me, they will check rooms for me to make sure the demons cant get me, theyll go into rooms first if im scared, theyll walk me to bed if i feel in danger. i collect porcelain dolls, and i believe they protect me from "demons", when i feel afraid my friends will tell my dolls to keep me safe and scare the "demons" away.
the demons dont exist, but theyre a part of my life. i could ignore them and supress that part of my brain, but thats extremely difficult and usually makes it worse, because even though they arent real to the world, they Are real to me.
basically all this is to say, if someone believes they can turn into a wolf or that they have a real tail or sum shit, mind ur own buisness. thats theyre reality and theyre using online spaces to express that reality. the people in their real life will alert the right people if they think the person is a danger to themself or others. you reality checking them is not only totally pointless but could infact reinforce their delusions and make them More likely to be a risk. chances are that they know theyre disordered but they just wanna play into their delusions online because its a coping mechanism.
basically stfu and leave disordered alterhumans alone 🫶
got barked at today which is expected when wearing gear out and about... what i didnt expect was to look up at the culprit and see a fully grown man smoking on his balcony with his friends. like okay dude go gambling or something like a normal man
i think folks who dont understand alterhumanity would get it more if they knew that "species" is a made up class the same way gender it.
in the words of one of my fav youtubers, lindsay nicole, "nature never gives shit to you straight" like the boxes we have made up to organise stuff is all made up. nature doesnt adhere to any standard, it just fucks around and we find out. species and gender are important sure but the nature of those labels makes them very flexible.
if you feel like a dog, call yourself a dog, nature cant doesnt know the difference.
* i saw the 2nd ask clarifying that you were asking why i was and not wasn't, lolol *
pardon if any parts of this sound funky, we've been having an insane splitting migraine for the past day and a half, and its only gotten worse after the whole plural blocklist + harassment bs. anyways. put it beneath a cut since its long.
there's a huge plethora of reasons, some of which i've mentioned here, but a bit more thorough of a breakdown list can be:
- 1) i've recieved a large amount of harassment from (pro)endogenics ever since i encountered the system community, and its only gotten worse when i went through syscovery + when i awakened as an alterhuman. (pro)endos have attempted to shoo me out of communities for years due to me being critical of them, and that harassment has eventually led to resentment. i also went through grooming and outright had my abuse/trauma ignored due to it.
- 2) the origins of 99% of their terms are either ableist, medical terminology "recoined" to be broader, or outright appropriated. some terms include endogenic (used previously to undermine and/or outright deny the existence of CDDs, the psychologist a lot of beings link to proving this exists also was an active medical malpracticioner that abused his patients iirc), natural multiple (derived from natural multiplicity movement, which is an ableist movement aimed to demedicalize and remove did/osdd from the dsm), tulpamancy (which is derived from a closed practice + has nothing to do with systemhood either way), soulbond (once again, nothing to do with systems), alters & system/multiplicity (all medical terminology to describe did/osdd beings) etc. list could go on.
- 3) the grooming that is rampant in the community genuinely irks me. i know multiple people, including people very very close and dear to me, who have been groomed into that community and either forced to discover trauma they were not ready to deal with, were manipulated into believing they didn't experience trauma and/or that it wasn't enough for their disorder, or that their disorders cause systemhood and thus had dissociative episodes far more frequently, when they weren't systems at all. i see this the most when i see (pro)endos target the mentally ill (namely, those with personality disorders such as bpd and those with disorders like schizophrenia). it sickens me.
- 4) the rampant misinformation also bothers me. cdds are traumagenic disorders, period. systems are caused by cdds. this has been scientifically proven like 80 gazillion times at this point. systems and alters are formed through a huge mish-mash of trauma responses the brain does when it doesnt think it can survive. its where the term system comes from -- "system of survival". alter is alternative identity state. many alter roles (like persecutor/malicitor for example) are quite literally describing trauma responses (in this case, negative trauma responses an alter may have/do to the system). "we dont know everything about the brain" / "the brain works in weird ways" just ignores all of the current research done into them. yes, we dont know everything about the brain, but we sure as hell know a LOT more than you'd think. also, the entire concept of "median systems" or "broken singlets" entirely overtakes actual disorders that present that way (osdd1a & pdid), to the point where i have met many beings who will say they have pdid/osdd1a and instantly be responded to with "isnt that just being a median system?" -> edit: furthermore this post explains the ableism behind the term median as well. will always reccomend pluraldeepdive for some info theyve got a good lot of it.
if you truly believe to be a non-traumagenic plural, then it wont be anything like a cdd's multiplicity. you cant experience our trauma responses without trauma to have it happen. you cannot equate your experiences to being the same as someone with trauma's experiences. they are fundamentally different. taking our terms, making fun of our disorder, making terms such as "sysmed" and "traumascum" to degrade others, and overall hosting an anti-recovery environment does not make traumatized individuals think your community is safe. not to mention that just, in general, equating your experiences and life to that of a traumatized being who has a debilitating disorder is ableist. you do not experience the same shit i do, stop saying that you do.
hello! the game is simple, submit an ask describing yourself in a "what am i" format, give as many details as you like! if your username says your answer, you may wanna submit it on anon, but i trust everyone will keep their guesses fair for the fun of the game.
keep it to one identity per ask, but feel free to submit as many as you like! this is not limited to any specific identity, so feel free to submit any of your otherkind identities, be they animal, machine, fae, concept, fictionfolk, or whatever else you may be! and it doesnt have to be a kin, your link and hearttypes are welcome too!
when i post your ask, send another ask with your round number and the answer. if no one guesses within a week of the initial post, ill reveal the answer anyway! when sending the correct answer to me, either do so off anon or tag a preferred blog, that way when your round is over i can tag you in the post! please make sure you dont send the answer before your ask is posted, this helps me keep track of when each round should end! (if you've already done it dont worry)
Rules
always be respectful, dont harass anyone, or be rude in the comments. I'll just block you
this blog is anti T.R.A.S.H (transphobic, racist, abelist, sexist, homophobic), and if you, your blog, or your submission violates that, then i will block you. i am also anti non traumagenic systems, anti transID, and anti harmful paras (not including recovering) so if you are/support any of those things, youre not welcome here.
adding on to the last point, please be aware if you identify as something from a closed practice or certain racial group (e.g wendigos, kitsune) that i may not post your submission to maintain respect for the cultures in question
if you're fictionfolk, please specify in your submission if your source is 18+ as this blog is open to all ages! i may make a blacklist if theres sources im uncomfortable posting.
Trying to use more social apps and joined an alterhuman community. Told them I found out about the community in 2020, but was severely wrong about my identity, but then ended up finding out that my alterhuman identity was so weird to find out due to me having DID and being a system. They thought it was weird- why do people think its weird to be alterhuman due to being a system :(
