One of the most frustrating but eye opening things to learn is that people can only meet you as deeply as they can meet themselves.

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One of the most frustrating but eye opening things to learn is that people can only meet you as deeply as they can meet themselves.
Emergence of personality - this is my attempt to depict 'personality' as a sort of dynamical system, offering emergent properties...
What is a personality?
Personality is the 'form of self' - it is a collection of character attributes, to summarize it simply. Furtherly, the form of self is characterized by patterns in perception, thought and feeling.
The form of self goes hand-in-hand with the 'function of self': behavior.
[I think this perspective is similar to Jung's ideas on Triebe/drive. ]
Starting from here I try to translate these concepts into some sort of algorithms.
[Theoretical stuff: ]
[Practical stuff: ]
dreamscape
a door opens in my mind everytime I get sacred
then I reach my hand
and let it take me to the place
the place I was born in
the head psychiatrist at the trauma ward told me the other day that in situations that are triggering or even put me into a state of emotional flashback, i should think of the child that went through the trauma in question like my little sibling. instead of attempting to ignore them or leaving them to deal with this situation alone, i should picture my inner wounded child, take them by the hand and talk to them: "this is what happened to you, but you are safe right now. you got out of that alive and you're okay." she told me it's often easier to treat your inner child(ren) as their own, separate entity because we are usually cruel and judgemental to ourselves, but not to others, and this way we can extend empathy and care to our wounded and confused parts of ourselves
the doctor is such a litte professor I love it.
sometimes there are 2 of us,
always fighting
always with the utmost care and the greatest violence
one pleads, the other strikes
even when we are on the same side,
you permanently like to fight
even when I know is because you are sad and scared
it's okay
I can take it.
sorry if this is a bother or rude but can u explain the difference between alters and ego states? ik you explained in your post but it still sounds similiar to me. im not saying you have did or anything im just really confused on the differences and google is really helping. you can ignore if its too personal or you dont wanna answer!
ego states are something that everyone has, it's your inner roles. an ego state disorder is when those inner roles are dissociated from one another. if they become so disconnected that they develop their own lives and personalities, that's DID. (this explanation is very simplified!)
but i have trouble understanding the difference between parts and alters myself because some of my parts appear to be their own people. i think they are probably similar, maybe even the same. i'm just unsure about terminology because i'm german and trying to translate the terms that therapists have used with me.
basically the big difference between what i have and DID is that i am very co-conscious which means i don't have dissociative amnesia. so like when i switch between parts/alters, i still remember what happened, even if it feels like i wasn't the person who did it.
i hope that helps! i'm still really new to this myself and have a lot of trouble understand it, let alone putting it in words. if i said anything wrong, i hope my followers will correct me.
best wishes, n
Being a system has been interesting. Emotional shifts that were always there now defined.
Concentrated ideas and feelings given a clearer voice
Our system has been at odds before. Internally exhausting... on top of general stress. efforts exasperated waging away at our restless health battles.
But I think.. We are getting closer to being family. From help of friends it only gets lighter , the sure burden in the heart . Of which is the source.
I like being able to have furthered control to truly protect my head mates. Awareness to be able to fix what I can do wrong too.
We are lucky that we have someone with so much love and patience to tolerate. helping solve our inner conflicts .
Tired of trying , but still making progress.