replies time, sorry I was bad at peopling yesterday but thank you all lots for sending nice messages
elden-12 said: Hope you’ll be alright. Things can get better, just keep holding on and sooner or later they’ll improve. *hugs*
*hugs* Thank you. I hope so, but things keep getting worse again after they get better.
invisible-goats said: *hugs and blankets*
:) *hugs and snuggles blankets*
derangementofepitaphs said: I don’t have the power to make the bad thoughts go away, unfortunately, but if you need friendly human company, I’m around! *Snugs*
*snugs* Sorry I was hiding in bed away from people yesterday and not good at talking, but thank you lots.
natalunasans said: hey an extension is good. and you do deserve the extra time. and you do deserve all the chances. if you want to talk over the essay topics? would that help? if not then nevermind. but just in case. because sometimes that helps.
Thank you. I’m trying to distract myself right now, might want to talk about them in future.
diabolicalfiend said: Considering this is exactly what’s happening to me, it’s not you, it’s your brain. Lots of people go through this and like any illness, you need to give yourself the opportunity for recovery.
I thought I had recovered though, but it got worse again. I hope you are doing okay.
natalunasans said: we may worry but we also believe in you that you can manage. in some way. you can do this.
invisible-goats said: You do not need to reply, just focus on getting through this patch. *hugs*
bystander3 said: When I first joined tumblr, you were one of the first people to follow me, and like and reblog my posts. I’ve never forgotten that. I still read all your posts. People care about you. I don’t know all your situation, but I’m rooting for you. Anxiety & depression make everything seem difficult. Tell people how you feel. Don’t judge yourself harshly. You’re great. Ask for help. Don’t try to go it alone. Things will get easier. Focus on one small task & victory at a time.
Thank you. You were also one of the first people to follow me, too. I’m going to go into Uni and talk about things tomorrow, it will hopefully help. (Also sorry my blog is now mostly Dragon Age instead of Gallifrey.)
invisible-goats said: *hugs* I really care about you, and so do a lot of other people. It’s ok and healthy to take a break if you need one. If you can, let yourself have your feelings, and they will pass quicker.
*hugs* Thank you, I curled up for a bit yesterday and just cried and sorted through feelings, I think it was helpful. I just feel guilty because I seem to take a lot of breaks.
charamei said: *hugs* Please hang on in there, friend. I think you might be spiralling partly because you’re trying to force yourself to stop being anxious? If you’re not managing to work anyway, it might be time to take a Brain Day and just do relaxing things
*hugs* I keep trying to have days off to relax though and it’s still never enough
elden-12 said: Please hold on, things can get better. As for counselling not helping: I went through dozens of useless Doctors before I found an amazing one. Please keep looking, it will be worth it when you find the right person. You are a better person than you think and you deserve happiness. Please don’t give up on finding it. Wish I knew something more useful to say but just know I and loads of other people on here care about you.
I can’t keep looking though, I was told I was only allowed to use the University’s counselling service, which I’ve never found particularly useful. I have an appointment on Wednesday though, I’ll ask if there’s anything else we can do.
