#emotionallynumb

[sweetkokoa]

Not pretending like i don't care... i really don't care

[flickeringflameinyourroomatnight]

who knows what’s happening

if anyone comes across this and can reassure me that i’m not a sociopath or something just message me and lemme know because I’m slightly terrified lmao

so for ages i have been going through long periods of time when I feel emotionally numb like i walk around and i cannot feel anything

when i am hanging out with friends i feel fake because i pretend i’m okay which is definitely not good but i know they won’t understand. but i’m also confused by how easily i cover my numbness up like am i super good actor or is this all in my head and i’m actually fine??

i am super stressed with college work at the moment t and the team i am joining are really good so i am trying to up my fitness before the season starts in september

i was in love with my best friend and girlfriend but i don’t feel the same anymore but she fucking loves me so i cannot bring myself to end things instead i pretend it’s because i need space to work on college work which is true but also just a way to distance myself from her

so yeah i’m a bit fucked and i have no idea what to do and what to say or what to think maybe if i could feel something i would be able to figure out what to do

[sherfluidity]

sleeves

I used to wear my heart on my sleeve... then I wore tank tops.... Now, I'm back to wearing my heart on my sleeve because I will not become emotionally unavailable for anyone.  My warmth is my strength. 

[transwolfnz]

Today we had a rude awakening 4am EMT called about my Poppa having a heart attack, my parents rush over but he was already gone. My family is devastated needless to say, i didnt get any sleep last night and went over at 7am to help with prep and support. My poppa had cancer and had to have blood transfusions, dialysis and sometimes oxygen he didnt suffer it was very quick apparently. Rest In Peace Poppa you are in a better place now. ------------------------------------------------- #restinpeace #rip #sadmorning #broken #emotionallynumb #familytragedy (at Onerahi, New Zealand)

[starshinethecat1]

I'm tired and look like a fucking lima bean with a side swoop #emotionallynumb #kms #lmao

[sherfluidity]

Rice Paper

Breathe beneath me Let me feel the warmth from your hot breath radiate my skin Let me feel you for what you are Let me breathe you in I miss your gaze I miss our emotional scars Colliding We were both so cold, so far But in each other's presence We made up for the distance Talk to me for hours like you used to Let me absorb each word For you are oil And I am your rice paper Soaking up the moisture from a wounded past Trying to heal But alas, I realize I'm no doctor And to you I am nothing but a farce A temporary solution for a permanent disaster That you have created for yourself I know this But I miss you And that somehow defies this pivotal truth ---------- Written 08/30/13. What an interesting time in my life. Constantly trying to validate one of the most unhealthy relationship dynamics I have ever been in. I could not be more grateful that this long phase of my life has long past. It is amazing how much can change and how much emotions can shift. I do not know what the future holds for me but I know for sure that nothing is permanent. Emotions are the most dynamic things about the human race.

[fairydust-takes-you-to-neverland]

Emotionally Numb

Feel like I just irritate everyone, like I'm just here for them to use and get information out of but I have no true value. I feel emotionally numb lately, I don't feel a thing, I've reached a point in my life where when people do or say ugly things I just sort of "oh okay" and move on.