#ex relationships

[diaryofopheliasmind]

here's your reminder to keep moving forward.

do

not

go

back.

[lyricsnwordss]

I'm in your room, it's just us two I feel you getting closer You rest your head upon my chest Deep down I know that this should be the last time I come over you always leave me such a mess oh, you give me a little taste Lure me in then you take it from me

Patience // Shawn Mendes

[outofyourworld-blog1]

im sorry i couldn't think things through im sorry this is how it ends

for you

[dontbeshytoaskforhelp]

Saying 'I hate you' to someone you still love is just you trying to convince yourself that you hate them, even though you know you don't, because loving them hurts so damn bad.

Lil Miss Henny

[high--on-oxytocin]

I'm only posting this cuz I need a place to write this

I mean tumblr is a blog so whatever. So like a month ago I broke up with my gf who, in my opinion, was perfect in every single fucking way, to the point where part of me was like 'you need to buy this girl a promise ring cuz you ain't gonna find a girl like this again and you gotta put a ring on it' EXCEPT for the fact that she turns toxic when she feels attacked, wronged, and/or is angry (obvi didn't know it at the time but I've REALIZED).

The beginning of our relationship was amazing and tbh it was like something out of a cheesy fanfiction or a hallmark movie the way we got together and the first time we purposely said I love you to each other was at Disney on the toy story ride as I was kicking her ass lol. And for the first half of our relationship we didn't have any arguments, we just discussed our issues like adults, and considering I had just came from a relationship that was filled with arguments and fights it was like heaven to me.

And then something changed and idk what, maybe her own insecurities and baggage started popping up and she started thinking when ever I was saying something to her (talking about our communication issues and her not really wanting to spend time with me, in hindsight she was probably pulling away from the relationship) that I was attacking her and that she needed to attack me first? And it kept happening, whatever I did, she just got nasty and mean and then even blatantly ignored me (which was honestly the last straw and was when I started pulling away).

And im not trying to paint myself as perfect, I did some things that in hindsight I shouldn't have done out of hurt but I've never gone out of my way to purposely hurt someone like she did during the end, and aftermath, of our relationship.

And the sad thing is, it's that I still love her, she still has a part of my heart and probably always will. Like I still want to be with her or at least be friends with her and part of me still holds out hope that we could try again in the future but like honestly, I don't need to be around a person who, when blatantly told that their actions was hurting me, ignored it, didn't acknowledge it, and never apologized.

Idk what was the point of writing all of this, especially since im already in, or close to the acceptance phase, but yeah.

[frukinghell]

Sometimes, I don't even know if I want you to say you missed me.

[outofyourworld-blog1]

if I could take it all back I would, everything I said and did id take it all back and do it over again. im so fucking sorry sososososoosso fucking sorry I wish I could apologize for ever and ever but nothing will ever make it right. I wish I was kinder and more patient, way way way more patient, I wish I didn't force you to do so much u didn't want to do I wish I could've gotten my mental health in check I wish I didn't threaten myself or the relationship so much I wish I cared more about how you were doing and not just me. I wish I could go back and be more careful so I wouldn't mourn nov 22 every year by myself. im sorry and im sorry for everything I did and said and didn't do and didn't say and I just hhh I don't know what else to do I want to apologize forever

[dontbeshytoaskforhelp]

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