Every ship I have, I can't tell if I want to be with one of the characters or be one of the characters. It's always both characters, and I want to be them in entirety. Their gender, their role in the story, their background, their looks, all of it. I wanna be with and be the characters simultaneously.
I be projecting myself and exploring my sexuality and gender through these mofos.
Two girlies pining in the canon and smooching in the fanon? Yup, I am changing my entire view of myself to think about only them.
Two bois having a close friendship/rivalry in the canon and exploring worlds together while holding hands in the fanon? Yup, I'm thinkin' about them all of the time.
But I always wonder why I never project myself onto straight ships. It's always wlw or mlm ships.
What does this say about me.
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