there might be some grammar errors. wanna try 1st pov and write something dark. written w no specific character in mind. just angst ig.
word count: 0.8k
tw: suicide attempt...
summary: he left you and the pain became too much
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The moment I heard him calling my name without meeting my eyes, I knew something was wrong, or maybe I knew it for a while already. Then came the words. Simple and sharp.
"I'm in love with someone else... sorry, it just happened and I—"
His words sliced through me. My ears ringing, as his words repeats itself in my head. It felt like my heart stopped. Countless question swirling inside my head, demanding answers that I knew would tore my heart to pieces. I thought that he would be different. He should be different. He should prioritize me, choosing me over anyone else.
But it's not me anymore. I should've known this. It's always been like this. I've always been the second choice, always the second. Never the one.
I sat there silent. He muttered a quiet apology over and over again. He looked guilty while doing so, like he knew it would hurt me. But he said it anyway.
He kept talking but his voice grew further and further away as his words blurring. I heard something like "I didn't want to hurt you." "I still care" "can we stay as friends?"
I didn't cry, not now. Not in front of him. I just nodded and left without a word.
It hurts. It really really hurts. my heart feels like it's on fire. burning me alive... turning me to ash. I tried to move on. But the silence kept tugging at me, serving as a reminder that he left. I erased every trace of him in our house, hoping the void he left would disappear. But it just made it worse.
I told myself that I'm healing or I tried to. Until... I saw them. the sight of them laughing happily together. It pains me to see them together but what can I possibly do?
I wish I could forget this feeling. The unbearable feeling that dragged me down whenever I caught a glimpse of them. The pain became unbearable and too painful that I've thought of ending it. Then, this crushing weight would disappear alongside me.
so I made up my mind to finally end this. I bought the pills, rope, and anything that could help me end it all, preparing for the possibility that it might fail and if it does, I can try again. I bought it all under the guise of preparing to climb a mountain. They all looked at me with doubt, so I ran to avoid their questions.
The night is quiet. Too quiet. I sit there, pen in hand. I don't know why I'm writing this. Maybe it's because I felt guilty for leaving them behind, or maybe it's my selfish desire to be understood. But how can they understand—when I can't even understand it myself. As the ink dries, I fold the notes carefully setting it aside. They'll read the notes and maybe they'll laugh at me for being weak or maybe they would grieve my loss. But I couldn't care less, because I no longer care and I'm not looking for their sympathy, nor do I look for their pity.
The room is silent. I sat on the edge of the bed, staring at the bottle that I'm holding in my hand. My hands shaking as I opened the bottle. I swallow the pills one by one, as I recalled the memories that now feels distant to me. I think of the faces that might care, hoping they'd appear. but it's just some silly wish of mine that will never come true.
The bottle now, left empty on the grounds filled my thought with euphoria. Thinking that finally everything will end, finally free from the pain that shatters me everyday bit by bit. That is until—a notification came from my phone, disturbing the silence in my room.
"hey, you there?"
"wanna hang out tmrw?"
I stared at the message blankly. Tears dripped onto my phone. It came slowly but then, it turned uncontrollable as the sobs became more frequent. A ray of hope flickered in my heart, becoming brighter by the seconds. I called the emergency number, eager to survive. my voice was shaky as I explained the situation to them.
I struggled to stay awake as the pills kicked in. My phone dropped to the floor as my hand lost its grip on my phone. My sight was blurry as my phone buzzed with calls. I want to pick it up but fell when I tried to reach for my phone.
My consciousness slowly fading as I reached for my phone. Like a miracle unfolding before me, the door opened with a loud thump and a figure running towards me as I closed my eyes, unable to fight the urge to sleep. The last thing I could recall is my burning desire to live on. Maybe I'll survive and see the morning sun. And maybe I can reply to that message tomorrow.
Double Shot of Abyssos
Vday Collab Oneshot Fic @dream-effect
18+
Warnings/Tags: Threesome, Deepthroat, Biting, Rough Sex, Knotting, Monsterfucking, Smut with Fluff Ending, Ribbons used for restraints, Gender Neutral MC, MC POV(1st POV)
words: 1.8K
Right now, I never knew this could be me. In Hell, pressed against a building in a dark alley with two pairs of eyes that bore into my soul. Normally, a situation like this would require a fight or flight response. But all I felt was one thing...desire.
I cursed myself though, because this shouldn't be normal. However, it wasn't as if I were in danger. I knew the two devils who hovered above me, the hunger in their eyes and how they traced my body with their claws. Though, it wouldn't hurt to ask.
"Wait, what's going on? Naberius, Amon?" I question the two nobles who stop in confusion before exchanging glances. Amon looks at me with a smirk, reaching out to stroke my cheeks lovingly as he pulls me in for a kiss.
"MC, your innocence never fails to charm me. Listen to how cute you are." He says after he gives me a moment to breath. "Do you not know what you've accepted?"
An arm shoves Amon out of the way, Naberius growling and tracing kisses against my neck. "They accepted both of our chocolates, so share."
I realized something in that moment as I allow the other to continue devouring my neck in affection. The chocolates I was given earlier, was not just a simple snack or a gift for Valentine's Day.
"So this means...we're going to sit here and make out?" I test my suspicions but Amon just laughs at me while tracing my lips, leaning in to kiss me again while Naberius growls softly in my ear.
"So cute." The two devils murmur, though completely enamored by my "innocence" of the situation. I was only trying to get them to say what they were doing, to affirm any further accusations. More importantly, some form of consent before my hand reaches out to grope them where I wanted.
"Do it, MC..." Amon teases, moving my hand for me to stroke his chest. I reach up to yank on his spiked collar out of impulse and he moans, which has Naberius pull me back into his muscular, pitch black arms that were mid-transformation into...his other self.
"Stop." I command just for a moment, fidgeting in my pocket for something. Surprisingly I pull out a couple of red ribbons, noticing they were what wrapped the boxes of chocolate given to me. I turn to Naberius, waving my finger as he tilts his head like a curious puppy.
"Good boy," I praise, all while feeling something furry sweep across my leg. Naberius was truly about to go full hellhound on me, his tail wagging at my words. I bind his wrists behind his back, and as I did, the ribbon extended in length allowing me to bind him all the way to his shoulders leaving him squirming, his clothing ripping as his chest is exposed to me. I test my rig, flicking a finger against his erect nipple as a whimpering moan echoes throughout the alleyway. Naberius tries to move his arms but he can't, the yellow of his eyes gleaming at me with a pout.
"I see...then the ribbons.." Thoughts roam in my head when I turn to Amon, who seems to get exactly what's happening when he holds out his arms to me. I bend down instead, binding his ankles, all the way up to his knees and little up his thighs with the second ribbon, with a finishing touch I kiss the edge as it tightens. Amon moans in delight, immediately buckling to the ground bracing himself with his arms.
I stand for a moment, trying to map together what I had in mind for the two devils. I knew we were pressed for time, Naberius had complained about this earlier. But with how I felt his erection press against my backside at this moment I realize that maybe he didn't give a damn about the rules or the time.
We have to make it to Asmo's castle though...I have to figure out how to pleasure everyone at one time.
It hits me, and I bend down on all fours, crawling to Amon's twitching body watching me in anticipation. Without slowing down I reach his pants, pulling them down slowly as his thick and hot member springs up to nearly slap me in the face. I knew from glancing at his dick print now and then he was...loaded but the naïve part of me figured maybe it was one the many guns he had packed away. The color was milky, smooth, fading into a light rosy tip that leaked of pre. Bulging veins also greet me as I touch his shaft in awe. My concentration was only interrupted by a whimper from behind me.
"Nabe...I didn't forget about you..." My voice coos to calm him, a scratch behind his ears as his muscular arms struggle against the ribbon that bond him. Parts of his stretchy pants had ripped already, making it easier to free him so I could also examine the goods. A happy trail of fur made it's way to a sizable cock, the majority of it's color matching his fur and skin, a midnight onyx fading into a bright red tip, and something else at the base of his shaft, round, firm yet fleshy.
A knot.
I shouldn't be surprised, and yet I am. I was aware of Naberius' other form but I never imagined his dick would reflect that. There would be a first time for everything for me, an experience I'd never have back on Earth.
My clothes drop to the ground, causing excitement for the two devils who squirm in my direction. I meet Amon, my hand gripping at the base of his cock to get him to stop scooting over toward me. I hike my ass in the air, showcasing my entrance to Naberius. I look back at him with half-lidded eyes giving my waist a quick shimmy to entice him to come closer, and he does. Once I feel the tip of him kiss against my hole I turn my attention back to Amon, wrapping my lips around him in an instant. They knew what I wanted them to do without having to say anything further.
Naberius, however gets bold, finding a way to his knees so his face buries against my ass, his tongue reaching out to lap in fervor against me. I could feel him explore me deep, nosily slurping and tasting as much as he could and it makes my toes curl. I focus next on swallowing down the cock in front of me, Amon helping me by thrusting his hips a bit. In no time he hits the back of my throat and I gag, I steady myself, sucking and rolling my tongue while making eye contact with Amon. He's seeing stars, hearts, whatever shapes he desires as his cheeks flush red and he moans and pants loudly. Nabe continues making a meal out of me, his salvia running down my thighs. I can't hold back my building orgasm, and I let go, clenching around his tongue and moaning with Amon's cock deep in my throat.
But this wasn't over, yet. Naberius didn't have to stand back up, only using his knees to position himself at the perfect height. His cock rubs against my sensitive parts before reaching it's intended location, slowly stretching me out. My eyes roll in the back of my head, but it doesn't stop Amon from thrusting into my mouth. I decide to let both devils have their way with me, the one in front face-fucking me while getting railed from the back by the other.
My mind went numb, a sweet and familiar scent filling my senses as a voice echoes in my head; 'you naughty little thing...without me?'. I had no choice to ignore it preoccupied by Nabe's knot smacking against my throbbing hole as he relentlessly fucked me. I wasn't sure how long I could hold out with my throat being stretched either, but I endure. When their pace quickens, everything around me is a blur, I could only see Amon's horn dripping and covered with essence, a look of bliss on his face when he looks at me. He reaches over with one arm, pushing my head down and forcing it to stay there as he huffs.
"I'm...so...fucking...close...ah"
Meanwhile, Naberius was making a mess, drool from his jaws, the mixture of our fluids making each thrust slippery and loud. He doesn't speak, his growl much deeper followed by a whiney moan with one final thrust. My eyes shoot open when I feel it, his knot pushing past my entrance. Once inside it swelled nearly twice it's size, pressing against a spot that made me cum again. As both devils cry out I feel hot fluid enter me, filling both holes and making my head spin. My throat flexes as I swallow while my walls clench around the swollen knot. In a moment everything is quiet, filled with the enervated breaths of Naberius, Amon and my feeble moans while they were still inside me.
Amon pulls my head up first, pleased to see drool and un-swallowed cum drip from my mouth. "Heh, look at you MC...a complete mess."
I do nothing, not even a weak smile, cum drunk and still living in the moment. I try to move but I'm stopped in place. "Eh did the ribbons?" I start to ask still recovering, but Amon stops me and yawns as his gaze pans to his fellow noble.
"Ugh, this is going to take a while..."
I turn my head to look back at Naberius once more, as I spy a guilty look plastered all over his face. He's still naked, waist pressed against my backside and...his cock is still inside me. I try to pull myself away only for him to follow me as we both crash into Amon.
"Eh!? What is this?" I panic, but Amon rubs my head lazily as he explains.
"Nabe knotted you. It will take about half a hour for him to calm down maybe longer if you keep squirming like that."
"But! I can't let any of the Abaddon devil's see us like this, how embarrassing"
"Hehe, you're so cute. I'd kiss you but I'm so sleepy..." Amon dozes off leaning against the building behind him in an instant while Naberius tries to comfort me.
"My apologies MC, please endure a little while longer. I couldn't control myself. Just don't....ah!" He winces as another stream of cum erupts from him when I squirm again, the knot showing no signs of returning to it's prior size any time soon.
Great...this is what I get for thinking about dick again...I hope Asmodeus isn't too upset about us arriving late...
Though, what I wasn't aware of....were another two pairs of eyes watching the scene from afar, taking delight of my situation in full.
Wishing to escape reality? Wishing to lose oneself in another world brought to you by words on a screen? Well step into the library, grab a book, befriend your new system companion and lose yourself into a wild world of fantasy!
With little to no consequences whatsoever!
It's not like any of these guys are gonna remember you after this or anything.... right?
°•Main fixation is fantasy/isekai scenarios, albeit others are mixed in. This is my connected oneshot book where scenarios are connected in this massive web of things. Can be read stand alone, I think, correct me if I'm wrong!•°
𝐍𝐨𝐰 𝐋𝐨𝐚𝐝𝐢𝐧𝐠 ↻◌◌◌◌◌◌
𝐋𝐨𝐚𝐝𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐂𝐨𝐦𝐩𝐥𝐞𝐭𝐞:✔
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“You look new, I haven't seen you before. Allow me to introduce myself!”
( ˶ˆᗜˆ˵ )
A little ball of metal bounces around with spins and whirrs.
“Greetings! I am Neru. Your ‘neeew’ ‘roo’bot’ companion! Get it? Like a kangaroo! It's a play on words. I was so excited when 🄿🄻🄰🅈🄴🅁 #24 gave me this name! Do you like it? I heard humans like tricks.”
「✶⋆.˚」 - 𝓦𝓻𝓲𝓽𝓽𝓮𝓷 𝓪𝓷𝓭 𝓟𝓾𝓫𝓵𝓲𝓼𝓱𝓮𝓭
「 °❀.ೃ࿔*」 - 𝓒𝓸𝓶𝓲𝓷𝓰 𝓼𝓸𝓸𝓷/ 𝕯𝖗𝖆𝖋𝖙𝖊𝖉
「✶⋆.˚」 Little Lamb :Ror x epic: The musical, cotl
「 °❀.ೃ࿔*」 Family Ties :Mha x kny
「 °❀.ೃ࿔*」 Favored by the Primes: The Archon :Tf: one
「 °❀.ೃ࿔*」 Spitfire : Bayverse x system reader
「✶⋆.˚」 Maid to Order : Finding frankie x reader
「✶⋆.˚」 Rules of the library, by Neru!
「✶⋆.˚」 Worlds list *Fandom lists
「𝕃𝕖𝕥'𝕤 𝕥𝕣𝕪 𝕒𝕟𝕕 𝔼𝕩𝕡𝕝𝕠𝕣𝕖 𝕥𝕙𝕚𝕤 𝕒𝕣𝕖𝕒 𝕃𝕒𝕥𝕖𝕣」
𝕮𝖔𝖒𝖎𝖓𝖌 𝖘𝖔𝖔𝖓!
「 °❀.ೃ࿔*」 Neru and You ( oc and reader bonding)
「 °❀.ೃ࿔*」 Abilities and Mechanics (Lore explanations)
>:( Rulebreakers :Blacklist
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‧₊˚✧[Current world selected: ....]✧˚₊
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‧₊˚✧[Loading world! Please have patience….]✧˚₊
Suddenly you aren't in the quaint little library anymore, but a galaxy of faraway stars and light with a screen popping up.
First time working with the new teammates! The two of them remain curious and wary of [ ], try to communicate with them?
So this was my sudden idea, I want to make a series of it out of 10, just to fulfill my wish of tfa rpg games, and also draw many of my favourite con in tfa——Blitzwing!
Free to immerse, i will continue to use first pov;)
I really just want to kiss him. Cause wym he loves back ??? Of course he doesss he is just so cute and I love him.
Also funny thing, I know to 100 % Aaron would absolutely find me adorable, there is no doubt in that. Idc what anyone says (I might be delusional)
Anygay !!! Read this little WIP :D
Waking up to his hand gently caressing my skin was nice, I loved it. I adored how careful he was with me. The way his fingers ran over my curves sent soft tingles up my spine but I didn’t complain. There wasn’t anything to complain about, he was just so kind. Aaron let out a small chuckle, I could hear it behind me because he was laying there, right next to me. If I could describe the feeling of his touch, I’d say it’s like little supernovas exploding on your skin, like universes are being made. Over and over again. there wasn’t anything I’d give this away to.
With a small humming, I buried my face into the pillow. I really wasn’t in the mood to wake up yet but I still turned my face slowly towards the man next to me. “Morning, sunshine.” He grumbled, his nose brushed against my cheek and I chuckled lightly. Sunshine? He always had some nicknames for me, it was really like a game of guessing. He hasn’t used this one yet but here he was, calling me sunshine. “Hello, you.” I mumbled back and quietly wrapped my arms around him, fully turning towards and moving away from my pillow. “Where you going?” The small scoff coming from Aaron made me smile but I just hid my face away against his chest.
There are some sexual mentions, so to be on the safe side - minors, stay out.
I have no idea what i wrote, simply wrote down the words instead of sleeping. I had no idea who it was gonna be about until my eyes fell on Inupi's pic on my wall.
I do have a few other characters I want to try writing for...I'm slowly feeling better, slowly returning to writing.
I hope the piece makes SOME sense.
The old radio player was buzzing with music from a decade ago, someone's request to something I hadn't paid much attention to.
It was catchy, vibrant and made me want to dance.
I was humming the lyrics, far from being correct, simply enjoying myself as I cleaned the kitchen-area. I tried to be quieter, hoping for him to get some extra rest but at some points, I wasn't quite sure if I managed that. I was the type to let the flow of the music guide me, while doing house chores.
Maybe that's why i didn't notice arms circling my waist and pulling me to his sweat-covered naked chest. I let out an involuntary yelp, startled by the sudden contact and a small curse. Before turning around, and giving Inupi a playful glare.
"Couldn't warn a girl beforehand?"
He chuckled, pressing a kiss on my neck. I shivered, even after all these years, Inupi's touch on me - never failed to leave a mark. For some strange reasons, Inui Seishu had a magnetic hold on me.
"I did call your name," he raised an eyebrow, glancing at the radio that's definitely seen better days. "But you were too busy dancing to hear me."
I blushed, "I - uh..." Whatever I was going to say next was silenced by a kiss on my lips, his hand sneaking to the back of my head and other sneaking down to my butt. I moaned. I barely noticed being pushed towards the kitchen counter which I'd just cleaned.
The idea of having Inui Seishu like this was still something that I didn't quite crasp, considering how just last year we'd tried to kill each other and now he was sleeping in my bed. My brother would have his head, if he knew about it.
But in my opinion, once you've left me behind - you've got no more right to have any say.
"You smell good," Seishu's voice snapped me back to the present. I shook my head, chuckling.
"I stink, and am covered in grease."
"Still smell good, butttt it does give us perfect excuse to have a shower together." Seishu peppered a few more kisses on my lips, neck and collarbone.
I could feel the edge of the kitchen counter digging into my tights, letting him trap me there.
My hand messed with his short, messy blond hair. He'd mentioned about wanting to cut it. I'd pouted at it, loving his hair.
Seishu looked up, I pressed my lips on the burn scar on his left side of his face, feeling him shudder. Softly heading down to his lips.
"Not like you need an excuse to see me naked," I said, letting my fingers run on his naked chest. "You're lucky I live alone."
"True, if Waka-kun saw us like this...he'd bury me six feet underground," Seishu said, referring to my brother, who's threatened every other guy off.
A part of me wondered what would my brother say if he saw me with Inupi, the kid whom he knows has a questionable past. The kid whom he knows has tried to kill me and my friends in Toman. Well, former Toman. Because Toman's been disbanded for about two years now.
With Seishu and Draken having followed Shinichiro's dream of opening a bike shop, working on it together. I'd occasionally help them out, ensuring their accounts and orders were done correctly.
Someone had to keep an eye on the two, and I'd taken up on the task.
That was also what led to us spending more time together and eventually starting a strange relationship.
"Oh, he'd so resurrect you only to re-do it, all again." I grinned, remembering how my brother had once threatened Baji with such promise. Back during the happier times.
Before everything went shit.
Before Hanagaki Takemichi entered our lives, with the goal of making everything better.
"Guess I have to use you as a shield then," Seishu bit into my neck, eliciting a moan. He hooked my legs around his waist, pulling me closer to him so that I could feel his hardened groin.
"You wouldn't deprive me of life, would you?"
"It all depends on the situation, sweetie," I replied with a gasp as his fingers pressed past my panties. "I just cleaned here."
"I'll help you clean up?"
That wasn't even an offer, but a suggestion one he knew wouldn't matter because I've never denied him. Somehow, Inui Seishu's my one biggest weakness.
And an enjoyment I wouldn't mind facing my brother for, I thought as I fully emersed into Seishu's touch.
