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If anyone wonders what goes on in my brain and Google docs before I start writing. This is it.
Your First Draft Does Not Need To Be Perfect
So I started writing my first draft of a WIP a few days ago, and I have been writing a bit every day since then.
And, let me tell you, I think it really sucks. Like, bad. It just doesn't feel right. It feels boring, I'm missing things, it's not smooth at all. I'm starting to wonder if my plot isn't enough, or if my characters aren't developed enough, or if I should have taken more time to get to know my setting. Probably.
So what am I going to do about it?
I'm going to keep writing, because it's a first draft!
All those things I need to do to make it better? I can be doing those on the side. Fall in love with my setting, characters, and see what more I can do with my plot. I can edit later, I am not editing as I'm going along. I'm just going to write.
And then I can look back at my first draft to see how much I've improved!
We can do this! Let's keep writing.
early sobriety (1.27.20)
insomnia is like walking to a bar with no seats
and not getting the bartender’s attention,
standing a respectful distance from the patrons
seated at the bar, an unwelcome visitor
invisible enough to know only their clothed backs
perfectly ambiguous, your intentions apparently
not clearly announced with your mere presence,
the obviousness of the full seats and your body pointed barward
not enough to stop the walls inching in and
your brave little heart pushing back like an
outstretched palm held firm saying stop right there
you itch and fidget and time warps in on itself
like melted glass and you wonder if while standing silently,
feeling all this, your friends are burning holes through your back
with their eyes, the whole bar a Russian doll world
of blank eyes and cold backs talking
about how incapable you look stranded between
social registers, never telling you for fear of your fragility
until you finally make eye contact
and get your water
the algorithm feeds me inspirational Instagram
posts about risk and I wonder: how
will I ever unlock myself even holding the keys when
crossing a room is an odyssey
you all have your lucid values and convoluted schemes
and all I have is my rogue heart
my inner torturer
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Two words that have just sent shivers down my spine. I never thought I'd see this day. Now to type up the last two chapters and work out how to compile everything from #Scrivener. #writer #writing #firstdrafts #instawrite #instawriter #writerlythings #instawriting #creativewriting
post apocalyptic breakfast (1.27.20) (edit 4.19.20)
The first meal I eat after the apocalypse will be breakfast
eggs would feel symbolic but I'll still be vegan
and I’ll walk the end times with principles intact
I’ll make sourdough toast with hummus, miso spread
under it, an avocado plucked from the yard, halved,
sliced fine and green, Tapatio sprinkled
atop like blood
I pledge to remain essentially millennial—
I'll build a house out of empty coffee cans,
green La Llaves and yellow Bustelos stacked
empty as artillery shells from the revolution
that never came
The morning light will be lilac and orange rind
like steel sink scraps with the broken disposal or
my lover's earnest watercolors
I promise not to yearn to hold
one Platonically perfect breast
in my hand—just one, just for a second,
not daring to ask for two
When I was little I prayed only
to miss this moment, not to be
one of Jesus's forgotten many but here it is:
real life asserting itself again. It occurs
to me that today’s wet laundry
is not so different from yesterday’s,
knotted like guts.
After breakfast I’ll sit quietly, think about lunch
grant myself allowances, miss raw things
like anger and cold
For now I’ll chew my toast, gaze masculinely
at the wastes, pretend to water flowers,
take my coffee in the mist with the ghosts and
talk to saguaros, still not daring to
brush their spines
{{Why are first drafts sometimes like this?