Here I am a year later. Lately, I've been down in the dumps. I feel as though I should've been farther in my healthy journey. But in reality I'm not. I'm not as excited as I once was. Idk if it's from the lack of energy I've had, depression, eating the same foods, or what. Today is rough..I know I need to go to the gym but I've been sitting at home all day. I want to say this started when I started my second job. But even still I had that drive. I want to say it started when I started working from home on my main job. But when I started I was motivated. How can I inspire others to keep pushing through when I just don't feel like it? I don't eat bad. I eat pretty healthy. I snack a lot(healthy foods). I just don't want to work out. So today is the day, I change it around. I've tried every method there is. The calendar coding, doesn't work anymore. The money in the jar everytime I workout trick, doesn't work anymore. Tomorrow is my day 1. I will make myself go to the gym. I move out of state in a few days. So I figure if I stay on my normal work schedule and get up, head to the gym and then come back and clean up and prepare for that move then it may help. It's not easy! I see some people who have that push and keep going. I wish I had that. I wish I had that drive that I had in the beginning. Idk what happened along the way. It might be the results I'm just not seeing. Idk... I'm trying to not beat myself up about it and tell myself it's okay. Go to the gym tonight. Work yourself back up.... Maybe it's the working out alone that's getting to me. But then again I'm a loner. I just can't seem to put my finger on it. I will be restarting everything. I'm down 6lbs this month so far. But tomorrow is my day 1 to start my mind in the right direction. Tomorrow is the day that I wake up and regardless if I want to go the gym I will go to start the week off right. This is the real truth of my weight loss. I got down to 36 pounds and then gained 10 back. It's been really rough for me since I hit the plateau and I'm starting to realize that I possibly just gave up what it boils down too. And I don't like that.
