Gah! (Venting ahead!) I wanted to relax and enjoy today, and every darn thing has made it rough.
Stupid things and small things, adding up.
My computer failed to upload photos after trying all damn night, and I’m struggling to sort it all out. My air conditioner had a problem I had to fix or things would soon be hot (over 90F before heat index…basically normal summer here). I hit my head HARD getting something out of the fridge, and staggered around a bit. There were ants all over the stove, despite all the cleaning I did after making the pie last night. (Not a shock to have ants, generally. With the collapsed floor indoors snd outdoors get a bit fuzzy, so I keep all food sealed away and the stove super clean. ) Trying to listen to NPR some religious nutjob station kept bouncing in (it’s always religious and/or right wing stations).The big, giant thug of a cat has showed up recently (and who hisses at me!)and was sitting at the back door, terrorizing the farm cats as he waited for me to feed them (and yes, he hissed at me, as usual). The dragon pin I made to wear today (the 4th of July…will post pic later) turned out not to work well because the pinback I used (and have already attached to two of my potential comic con pins) turns out to be awful. I found I had spilled paint all over my chair the night before…..
TBH, what bugged me most this morning involved my damn feet. As I grumble the time, I have to wear ankle braces to walk, and locally I can only find one kind of boot that will fit them and support my ankle. I also have to wear several layers of thick socks and tape on padding at the pressure points. Today all of that got to be a problem.
My old boots had finally gotten to be a major problem. They wear out where the arch of my foot should be, if I had one. The sole breaks down and starts to peel away there, but because the boots are so expensive I have to wear them as long as I can stand it. I can only afford two pair at any one time, one for everyday, and one for good. Yesterday the old ones got too broken down to wear, the line being it gets too painful to walk without every thought being “PAINNNNNN!”
So, today my “good” boots had to become my “everyday” boots. This means I need to buy new “good” boots. They cost about $80 now (they were only $60 a couple years ago!) and I am super broke.
Pulling on my socks one of them tore. Then I pulled another one and it tore! I finally will have to buy new thick socks. Not only are they hard to find, they are expensive.
Taping on the padding at the pressure points I had some new, cheaper tape. UGH! It’s no good! And I’m going to need some new padding stuff. They are meant for one use, but I’ve made them last months and finally they are breaking down.
Putting on one of the ankle braces the lacing tore right through the plastic! I know they (and the boots) are increasingly poorly made, BUT come on! I had only worn that one a month!
At least I had a spare. I’ve been putting off buying more because of cost, but I figured as long as I had one I could put off buying more. .Unfortunately it turns out the spare was the wrong size! I had no choice but squeeze my ankle into a too small brace. And now I have to buy two spare…
Except it turns out the place I get them is listing them as unavailable! So now I have to hunt around and try to find some new kind somewhere else that will both do the job AND that I can afford. The “afford” part is going to be dang tricky.
And so instead of doing any of the fun things I planned to do in the morning on the 4th, I spent a couple hours trying to get my computer working well enough so I could shop around for ankle braces I don’t really have the money for but HAVE to buy.
And then my internet went out. Oh, it’s back now, obviously. I can vent here via ipad while my computer is doing a thing before I can go spending money again….
I may go hang with the beasties and then head to the woods a bit. Might as well use the new boots for my first pain free walk in weeks.
It gets me though. I probably spend $2000 a year on keeping my feet going. If I were rich it would be nothing. Instead I make myself spend so much time in agony because I can’t afford new stuff.
And what will happen when I can’t afford new? I need my feet working to make money so I can buy the stuff I need to keep my feet working…but what happens if the gear for my feet breaks down BEFORE I have money for new stuff? There is nothin’ around here for someone with no qualification to do if they can’t walk/stand for long periods of time, and I can’t do that without good boots AND good braces AND padding with tape to hold it AND thick socks.