5 years 🤯 never ever thought I'd get here! I don't really think about "being Trans" anymore. I just see myself as the guy I've always been. Everyone is different and no one fits into a certain criteria. You do what you want to do and don't follow just because you think you'll be more "manly" if you do a certain hobby or like a certain thing.
Let go of what you think people expect of you and do what you feel is right, it's your life and you should be able to love yourself and enjoy each moment. There are definitely challenges but you come out stronger than ever, don't let anyone tell you how to live your life.
Today marks 5 years on T. 5 years ago I was a 16 year old boy finding my way in life about to embark on the biggest journey of my life. Today, I stand here as a 21 year old young man. A confident, outgoing, ambitious young man. At the age of 14 when I first realised I could be trans I was so scared. So scared of everything I was going to face. That 14 year old would be so in awe of the man he has become. It wasn’t easy by no means, but by god it was worth it,
Not much to report this week. Healing has gotten past the tough phase to just waiting for the last few niggles to dissipate.
Everything looks like it’s healing up well. Scabs almost gone from my left nip. Any pain I get seems to be when a stitch is trying to leave my body. one was causing horrible burning pain yesterday til I tweezed it out, it just looked like a long clear splinter. There’s a few around my nipples that look as though they will do the same thing.
Hematoma still slowly clearing itself, the swelling is all soft now and the bruises are a faint yellow which are both signs that my body has almost finished breaking it down.
How I’m feeling about the result:
So first off, it is too early to tell how things turned out. Last time I had top surgery it took a year or so for things to settle into their final shape. But my impression so far is that things have gone incredibly well, especially considering the difficult landscape my surgeon had to work with. The right side is pretty much perfect already.
The left side as you can see has come out a little less perfect, my scar looks kind of “bent” from where the swelling is so I think it’s likely to straighten out a little with time, but even if it stays bent that’s no big because my scars heal to a very faint white so you won’t be able to see it all that much in a couple of years. It also looks like there was a little more fat left in on my left side, but again its hard to tell how much of that will flatten down as the swelling goes. If not it might be something I’d get revised in the future if settling and fat loss/muscle gain don’t get rid of it. In the pic below you can clearly see the kind of “blobs” of fat that are causing a bit of what I would call overhang rather than dog ear:
The blobby bit by my armpit essentially follows the line of my old scar which was always a problem area for overhanging tissue, looks like that spot was missed in my revision, which is cool because they got most of it out and if it does need a small extra op to take it out then a little lipo should sort it out which is no big deal.
Overall I feel really good, I’ve gotten back to the gym to do cardio and rehab work with some light lifting which has made me feel much more like myself. Still going for long walks as often as I can and from around 6 weeks post op I’m going to start cutting fat to prep for getting in shape to maximise my results (and also just to look and feel healthy in general!).
Quite silicone tape/scar care note:
The tape is working amazingly, I’ve had to stretching evne though I’m almost back to normal activity including very light chest and shoulder work in the gym (no overhead lighting though). They already feel flatter and softer since using the tape. I’ve also been massaging my scars chest and nipples with dream cream from Lush which also seems to be helping to keep things soft and hydrated, the skin peeling has totally stopped now which is awesome cause it was pretty gross.
this is entirely a mess, but the result was a balance between hilarious and artsy so I'm not mad at it. one day on testosterone! I'm finally on testosterone!...
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