Are You Talkin' To Me?

Vani, 27. London-based FTM screenwriter.

[trans-shadowolf]

2009 vs. 2019 Seriously risked to not see a new decade for a while back at the beginning of the past one but I’m still standing... ⚫️ “You could never know what it's like Your blood like winter freezes just like ice And there's a cold lonely light that shines from you You'll wind up like the wreck you hide behind that mask you use” ⚫️ #gay #gayboy #gayteen #trans #transformation #transformation #transisbeautiful #mentalhealth #mentalhealthawareness #depression #suicide #itgetsbetter #decadechallenge #10yearchallenge https://www.instagram.com/p/B6yn74CDuoZ/?igshid=jqwvo98xnzce

[edema--ruh]

You knock me out, I fall apart

[losingmymindtonight]

this is the gifset i’ve been waiting for since The Scene

[trans-shadowolf]

I just died

[ironmess]

reasons iron man 3 matters:

male superhero having panic attacks 

anxiety being portraited as a serious issue 

tony being able to prove he is iron man with or without the suit

foreshadows that the actions of our heroes have consequences

shows how racist terrorist themes are used to install fear and violence 

tony hangs out with a kid most of the movie and it’s great

breaks the damsel in distress model and makes pepper save the day 

speaking of which she has powers and is badass 

[678i0u]

Listen, my people are in great danger.

[avengingbefore7]

Tony: [jumps onto bed next to Steve]

Tony: Once again, fate throws us together

Steve: We’ve been married for five years. This is our bedroom. 

[marvellegends]

Avengers: Infinity War | No Spoilers Promo

[forchrisevans]

Chris Evans Walking his dog Dodger in nyc 27/04/18

[trans-shadowolf]

Omg I can’t

[trans-shadowolf]

New York City: October 2012 vs. January 2018 (605 days on T, 148 days post-op) ______________ Went to NYC for @springsteen On Broadway last week and had an enormous amount of fun, got a tattoo from the amazing @bangbangnyc and walked everywhere (more or less). Last time I was there it was back in 2012 and my life was completely different: I was still living in Italy (although in the process of moving to the UK), never had a proper job or a place to myself, had never even been to a pride or a gay club, identified as a gay woman. Five years later, I’ve achieved all of these little goals that I didn’t even know to have, fought my fears about living alone again after battling with self harming and depression and won, and learned what love means. But most of all, I am now finally starting to be able to see the real me in front of the mirror (or the camera), and this is the best achievement of them all. ______________ #throwbackthursday #throwback #nyc #newyorkcity #itgetsbetter #trusttheprocess #ftm #ftmuk #ftmgay #transmenofig #transmasculine #transman #transboy #transguy #oneyearandahalfonT #hrt #testosterone #transisbeautiful #thisiswhattranslookslike #gay #queer #growingup #mytransition #myjourney #selfmade #selfmademan #transpride #handsome #100happydays #day3 #day4 #day5 #day6 (at New York, New York)

[trans-shadowolf]

My seventh tattoo is courtesy of the great @robgreennyc from the amazing @bangbangnyc and is arguably the best one I have. It’s perfect in every way and I love how “sketchy” it looks. Took me five months to save up for it but it’s absolutely worth it to have a masterpiece on my arm. Thank you 🙏🏼 ___________ #tattoo #tattoos #donaldduck #donaldducktattoo #bangbangnyc #bangbangtattoo #bangbangforever #inked #ink #inkedboy #guyswithtattoos #boyswithtattoos #100happydays #day2 (at Bang Bang Tattoos)

[trans-shadowolf]

New Year’s Day opera looks. ————— What can I say? This 2018 already looks promising ✌🏼 ————— #itgetsbetter #trusttheprocess #ftm #ftmuk #ftmgay #transmenofig #transmasculine #transman #transboy #transguy #oneyearandahalfonT #hrt #testosterone #transisbeautiful #thisiswhattranslookslike #gay #queer #growingup #mytransition #myjourney #selfmade #selfmademan #transpride #handsome #100happydays #day1 (at Kilburn, London)

[trans-shadowolf]

When you manage to run out of pet carriers so you have to improvise last minute 🤷🏼‍♂️ ————— #cat #turkishangora #cats #catsofinstagram #peekaboo #myson #catsagram #instacat #catslife (at Mill Lane Vet)

[trans-shadowolf]

Had a blast this weekend! Thanks to all of you who made it special 😊 @aleinc8, @haojingt, @samjustiin and special guest @frankturner 😁 —————— #friends #friendshipgoals #rocknroll #punk #brewdog #brooklynlager #punkipa #aboutlastnight #lastweekend #weekend #weekendvibes #transandhappy #friendsforever #thegarage #indie #100happydays #day47 #day48 (at Kilburn, London)

[trans-shadowolf]

Food policy: old job vs. new job. ——— One of the (many) reasons why I left my old job is the stupid and increasingly worrying austerity that the company has been treating its employees with. I’m not gonna go into details because I could write an essay about it, suffice to say the moment this notice went up, I started looking for a new job (sorry, can’t stand this kind of bullying). As you can see, the company I work for now has got a much better attitude towards its employees. Not only you can have whatever you want, if you don’t get food on your own they actively offer it to you. Nothing is off limits and you can even have dessert if you want! Do not be afraid of change. ———- #change #changeisgood #changeyourlife #newbeginnings #dontbeafraid #leapoffaith #personal #workinglife #working #newjob #catering #hospitality #100happydays #day (at London, United Kingdom)

[trans-shadowolf]

So I was supposed to start my new job today but they told me I wasn’t “appropriately dressed” because I didn’t have proper suit pants so I went for shopping instead 🤷🏼‍♂️ Incidentally I ended up to the LEGO Store and finally managed to see Thor: Ragnarok so it worked out to be a good day ✌🏼 Bonus: my university finally judged me worth of studying some more and sent me the enrolment email today. Too bad the term started a month ago so I have no clue what to do now 😅 ____________ #itgetsbetter #positivity #university #suit #trusttheprocess #ftm #ftmuk #transmenofig #transmasculine #transman #transboy #transguy #oneyearonT #hrt #testosterone #transisbeautiful #thisiswhattranslookslike #gay #queer #growingup #mytransition #myjourney #selfmade #selfmademan #transpride #ftmlife #100happydays #day43 (at London, United Kingdom)

[trans-shadowolf]

Not all trans people are skinny and that’s okay too. Also, you don’t have to be skinny to have an eating disorder. I’ve got one and it’s very problematic and I hate myself also because of it, but for the longest time I thought I couldn’t possibly have one as I was never skinny or even slim. It is not my fault if this is how my body is built. I’ve been struggling with my EDNOS again recently so I thought I’d make a post about it. On a brighter note, I’m falling in love with my chest every day more. 528 days on T, 71 days post op. __________ #positivity #positivevibes #transformationtuesday #mentalhealth #ednos #depression #itgetsbetter #trusttheprocess #ftm #ftmuk #topsurgery #transmenofig #transmasculine #transman #transboy #transguy #oneyearonT #hrt #testosterone #transisbeautiful #thisiswhattranslookslike #gay #queer #growingup #mytransition #myjourney #selfmade #selfmademan #transpride #handsome #ftmtransgender #ftmguy #ftmboy #ftmpride #DrGarramone #ftmlife (at Kilburn, London)

[trans-shadowolf]

Climbing: 2015 (pre-T) vs. 2017 (511 days on T, 54 days post-op). ____________ F**k you if you can't see how *happy* I look even when I'm sad and down as hell and how *sad* I looked even when I was happy and more or less together with part of my life. I'm struggling a lot atm because of how messy and all over the place things are in my life rn. But seeing comparisons like this makes me feel instantly better. Because for 26 years showing up outside was a daily struggle on the account of how mismatched my appearance and my identity were. But now I'm free, and getting freer each and every day. Things will get better. I just need to hang in here. _______ #positivity #positivevibes #transformationtuesday #mentalhealth #depression #itgetsbetter #trusttheprocess #ftm #ftmuk #topsurgery #transmasculine #transman #transboy #transguy #oneyearonT #hrt #testosterone #transisbeautiful #thisiswhattranslookslike #gay #queer #growingup #mytransition #myjourney #selfmade #selfmademan #transpride #handsome #ftmtransgender #ftmguy #ftmboy #ftmpride #DrGarramone #ftmlife (at London, United Kingdom)

[trans-shadowolf]

My top surgery video is now up on my YouTube channel. You can watch it here: https://youtu.be/QFk3wmfip_4 or by checking out my story 😄 ________ #drgarramone #garramone #di #doubleincision #freenipplegrafts #nipplegrafts #trusttheprocess #ftm #ftmuk #topsurgery #transgender #transmasculine #transman #transboy #transguy #oneyearonT #hrt #testosterone #transisbeautiful #thisiswhattranslookslike #gay #queer #growingup #mytransition #myjourney #selfmade #selfmademan #vitaminT #transpride #selflove #ftmtrans #ftmtransgender #ftmguy #ftmboy #ftmtopsurgery #transgenderboy #transgenderman #ftmlife #100happydays #day42 (at London, United Kingdom)