I have good news and bad news. Bad news, it's the last day of Roceit Week hosted by @roceitweek2025 😔 Good news, it's the first day of Anxceit Week hosted by @darksideweeks! 😁 So I decided to mix them together for today, ending up with a Anaroceit story with lost of pining. Enjoy!
Summary: Virgil is kinda regretting agreeing to being Janus' groomsman considering he has a big crush on not only Janus but also his fiancé. He really shouldn't worry about it.
Content Warnings: Pining, so much pining
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“Darling, you look more nervous than me and I’m about to get married.”
Janus’ voice startled Virgil out of his thoughts. He looked up only to have his breath taken away. Janus’ suit fit him perfectly, the golden shirt complimenting the black of the jacket and made his heterochromia stand out in the best way.
If Virgil hadn’t been in love with him before, he certainly was now.
Too bad he was going to be a married man in only a few hours.
Not that Virgil could blame him, Roman was quite the catch himself. Handsome, strong, talented, willing to worship the ground Janus walked upon. They were frankly as close to a perfect couple as possible.
And Virgil hated how jealous he was of both of them.
When he had reconnected with Janus about a year ago, he hadn’t hoped for anything. At first, he hadn’t even been sure he believed Janus’ wild story about his dad piling him and his mom into their car in the middle of the night without warning because the cops were after him for some sort of shady business. Virgil had been to Janus house many times back then — they’d been best friends after all, which made the sudden disappearance hurt all the more — and his father maybe wasn’t the best guy, but he certainly wouldn’t have thought him a criminal.
But Janus had shown him the mugshots from his father that were taken only days later when the cops snatched them up two states away. Janus and his mother thankfully couldn’t be implicated, but going back to where they came from wasn’t an option either. With no phone to call his own, Janus hadn’t been able to contact Virgil and that had been that.
It was a crazy coincidence that they ended up working in the same city in another state so many years later.
After they started talking again, it didn’t take long for Virgil’s feelings for Janus to resurface. He hadn’t allowed himself to acknowledge them when they were both repressed teens in a conservative town and now, he was denying them again because Janus was about to get married.
Just Virgil’s luck.
He really shouldn’t’ve agreed to be a groomsman, but he couldn’t think of any excuse not to.
So here he sat, in a black suit and purple shirt as per Janus’ wishes, fulfilling his duties by making sure Janus wasn’t getting cold feet. Not that there was any real danger of that happening considering how enamored he was with Roman.
Again, Virgil couldn’t fault him. In fact, he was sure that his crush on Roman was going to grow just as much as his crush on Janus had.
He was so doomed.
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“So, you nervous yet?”
Roman looked over at his twin, who was lying on the hotel bed with his head hanging off.
“Kinda? But in a good way. I can’t wait to see Janus in his whole outfit; I’ve only glimpsed at pieces of it!”
“Well, neither of you is a bride, so I guess you don’t have to worry about bad luck if you see each other too early.”
A knock on the door stopped Roman from responding.
“Come in!”
Virgil opened the door and peaked his head in. Roman thought he saw him swallow before he spoke, he worried his anxiety may be acting up.
Roman hadn’t known Virgil for long, though Janus had told him stories from their high school days even before he had reentered his fiancés life. After all, he had been a crucial part in Janus’ realization that he might like men more than women. And Roman could certainly see why Virgil had been his awakening, the man was adorable, charming and protective in a way that made even Roman’s heart beat faster.
Thank the gods that Janus and he were both polyamorous and very interested in Virgil. It was just bad timing that he came into their lives when they had just finalized their wedding plans, otherwise they would’ve put the whole thing off and courted Virgil first. But alas, deposits had been paid and neither had the funds to reasonably move their plans just for the chance that Virgil might feel the same.
That didn’t mean they were giving up, just tabling it for later.
“Are you on schedule?” Virgil asked, startling Roman out of his reminiscing. “On our end everything’s good, so I just wanted to check…” he drifted off, the light tint of his cheeks making Roman think he was embarrassed to admit his worries.
“We are perfectly in time, my dark, stormy knight! Thank you for being vigilant.”
“Oh. You’re welcome? It’s not like I did much.”
Roman walked over — mainly to get a closer look at his outfit because, damn, Virgil looked good in a suit — and patted him on the shoulder.
“It’s reassuring to know someone is keeping an eye on things,” he smiled. Virgil’s blush deepened and he nodded.
“Okay, glad I could help then. I’m gonna go back to Janus now!” He spoke quickly and pulled the door closed behind him before Roman could react.
“Wow, you’re down bad for him, huh?” Remus commented and Roman wanted to throw something at him really badly.
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Janus couldn’t believe his luck.
He was standing here across from Roman, listening to his vows that were of course super cheesy and over the top, not that he would have it any other way. His romantic heart had been one of the things Janus fell for and of course it would shine the brightest during their wedding.
But he wasn’t the only thing Janus counted himself lucky for.
No, he was also incredibly lucky to have Virgil only a few steps behind him, supporting him in one of the most important moments of his life. Like he had when they were in high school and he’d been the only person Janus truly felt comfortable around. There’d been a tension at his home that he couldn’t explain back then, that now made sense to him, but Virgil had been his safe haven.
And now he was here. As his groomsman. And hopefully soon he will be more than just a friend.
Right now, Janus was going to give all of his attention to the sweetest man he knew, to Roman who was crying through his vows, whose hands he was holding on to with a strong grip, who he was going to spend a lovely week alone with in a nice cabin where it would be just the two of them.
And then he would make sure that Virgil quickly learned that he had two hands and had wanted to take his in his own for so many years. He already had a strong suspicion that the other reciprocated most of his feelings and had an interest in Roman as well by the looks he was giving them when he thought they weren’t looking. Janus had always been able to almost read Virgil’s mind.
But that would have to wait.
For now, he wiped Roman’s tears away as he proclaimed ‘I do’ loudly for everyone to hear.
He’d always been greedy. And he was going to make sure he got all he wanted in the end and make both Virgil and Roman the happiest men on earth.
A/N: mi gente im just trying something out and seeing if people like it :] ive had this done for like months and months on end and i finally decided to share it so em enjoy
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summary: Roman’s stomach is making it very clear that this talk wasn’t going to end well... as long as he doesn’t end up in that tower.
warnings: some potty language (not much), stress, anxiety, disappearance mention, flashback, crying
(let me know if theres any other)
Roman felt himself waking up, maybe because of the stupidly bright sun hitting his eyes, he didn’t know how that was possible since he remembered closing the red velvet curtains shut tight, so he didn't have this exact issue. So, when he heard some ruffling and things being moved around he wasn’t all that surprised.
¨Rise and shine, you little brat¨ Ruth said in a very tired but demanding voice.
¨Oh dear nurse, allow me five more minutes¨ Roman whined putting a pillow over his eyes so he could block out the rude sun.
¨Oh, flattery will get you nowhere, mister.¨ Roman could hear Ruth moving around the room, preparing breakfast no doubt. Roman took the pillow off his face and sat up, hair a wreck, and his eyes squinting because of the light coming from the window.
¨And he finally rises,¨ Ruth said sarcastically.
¨Yeah, yeah, the dashing prince has awoken.¨ Roman said half asleep. Ruth helped him sit down so he didn’t trip over anything and started serving him breakfast, she wasn’t going to wait for him to finish eating as she was already heading for the big oak doors.
¨Wait!¨ Roman sobered up, Ruth flinched a little at the shout but turned around anyway ¨Can I do anything for you?¨ She asked.
¨ Come eat with me, you for sure haven’t eaten anything today.¨ Ruth went to argue but closed her mouth when she noticed she, in fact, had not eaten.
She sat down in the chair in front of the royal, Roman made a few hand gestures as if to show she was open to take anything, she knew the monarch wouldn’t eat until she had settled for something so, she took a piece of bread and started eating, as did he.
After a few moments of silent eating Ruth spoke up ¨I still don't understand, after all these years you haven’t become a spoiled brat that doesn't care for his servant¨ Roman didn't even look up at her he just said ¨I guess you raised me well.¨ Ruth almost choked on her bread and looked at Roman as if he had gone insane. “Oh come on don't be so humble Ruthie!¨
She still looked at him confused and a little annoyed at the nickname but mostly surprised he would say anything of the sort, ¨Ruth, you are my nurse. You have been with me my entire life, You fed me when I was a baby for god sake! I consider you a mother, even if I have another mother in the throne room right now,” Roman shivered at the thought of having to talk to his parents after the events of the past week but continued anyway “and I sure as hell think of you as the person who raised me.¨
Once he had finished he immediately put a mouth full of food and kept eating as if hadn’t given that speech. Ruth still looked shocked but cleared her throat ¨Well, then I made you a sap!¨ Roman started laughing ¨How will your future spouse ever forgive me?¨ Roman burst out laughing and Ruth gave a small chuckle.
Ruth stood up and went to Roman's closet to gather his outfit for the day, while he finished breakfast. She threw the clothes at him “Hey!¨ Roman made his trademark over dramatic gasp. She sighed “I unfortunately also gave you my dramatics…”
“And I don’t resent you for that!” Roman screamed back with a big smile on his face.
Ruth looked like she had something on her mind. Roman didn’t have to wait much before she said what that was, he never did. ¨Would that make you and my Remy brothers?¨ she said, actively ignoring the prince’s comments. Roman stood up going towards his shoji screen to change behind. ¨Ha! We already consider each other brothers so it wouldn’t be much of a change.¨ Ruth started making his bed “Well this is new information to me.¨ Roman giggled a bit
¨Remy´s supposed to be back by noon, he passed a lot of territories to deliver this message so I sure hope he’s alright¨ Roman has always thought she was a worried mother even to him when he went on long trips.
Roman stepped out from behind the screen and reassured her ¨ He’s fine! He may act reckless but he's very calculating… but expect him a few hours later than what the estimated time of return” Roman slipped away looking for his shoes. ¨Oh and why is that?¨ she asked, hands on her hips, Roman gave a nervous chuckle.
Shouldn't have let that slip.
“Roman…” Ruth said in a warning tone. Remy was going to kill him but he didn’t want to die at his nurse’s hands “Remy’s been... seeing... this person a-and when his message trip aligns with where they live… he spends some time with the person so…” Ruth looked at him as if deciding something, “As Remy’s mother, I thank you for telling me the truth..” Roman was relieved “But, as your mother, I have to say…YOU SNITCH! Snitches get stitches for a reason!” Roman laughed genuinely and Ruth joined.
After their giggle fit, they heard someone knock on the door. Ruth went to answer the door, it was a guard “His and her highness request the prince’s presence,” Ruth thanked the guard and turned around and Roman looked mortified, “Roman, you have to talk to them.” Roman had never heard Ruth speak that soft. Roman only felt dread “Ruth I don't want to go” He was genuinely petrified.
“I understand, but they are very understanding and I believe they wouldn't punish you for simply trusting the wrong person” Roman shook his head “ They’re already so protective. They always had me under knight or guard surveillance but now they might do something so I won’t be able to sneak by” Roman was panicking and Ruth noticed, she walked up to him. And took his hand “Roman they just want the best for you…” Roman took his hand away from her own “No! They are just afraid they aren’t going to have an heir after one of them ran away.” Roman's hands were in his hair and his eyes started to glaze over.
Roman was very much not over his brother's apparent “disappearance”
“I understand Remus vanishing has affected your parents over protectiveness, BUT they have always aimed to protect you but after what happened...can you really blame them for it?” Roman sighed, Ruth forced his hands out of his hair, he took a shaky breath to calm down “No, but getting hurt is part of life! So what if I trusted the wrong person? Everyone does!” He gestured to the sky as if it was the only person listening, he felt so defeated.
“Well I can't change anything so, you should tell your parents that!” She didn’t know what to say to make things better. “I’ll try, let’s just hope they at least try to listen” he left it there and headed out of his bedroom’s oak doors, he never liked disagreeing with Ruth.
Roman walked down the long hallway towards the throne room but, of course, he wasn’t alone because that would be too much to ask apparently. Instead he was being escorted to see his parents by the guard that had informed him his parents required him. He already knew what they were going to talk to him about and he was dreading it.
Why did he have to make such a mistake?
Did the universe want him to not trust anyone after what happened?! If it would make the sinking feeling in his stomach leave then he would happily oblige.
The guard stopped at the throne rooms doors and Roman took a deep breath as the guard gave him side eye glance and opened the doors, “You required my presence?” Roman spoke trying to keep his voice steady and his head high, “Yes, Roman, we would actually like to talk to you about last week's event…?” He phrased it as a question a little too late. Roman’s father, King Leonardo, wasn’t an emotionally driven person and never was truly soft with anything he said, but he cared. The way he was soft spoken with Roman was just having the opposite effect that his father wanted.
Roman’s mother, Queen Victoria, was very comforting and always tried to shield her children from harm's way, but coming from a family of royals, she didn't have an example to follow but she wanted to be there for her child. “Roman, my little lion heart, I need you to keep in mind this is for your safety...ok?” Following everything by the book, always looking and being her best, so she would be a good example even if she wasn't nurturing, all she wished was for Roman to know she loved him and Remus with her whole being, Roman just gave her a tense nod as a response.
Roman’s Father spoke up, “Roman, you're going to be under knight supervision at all times,” That wasn't as bad as Roman expected, he basically already was! Anything but to be stuck in that damn tower “...And you have to stay in the south tower-” ...He should have knocked on wood.
“Father, I did nothing wrong! I shouldn't be punished for this-” Romans mother spoke up, she knew both her son and husband could be hot headed. She wanted to stop anything before it got the chance to begin “Roman this isn't to punish you! We want to protect you-” The Queen sounded like she was pleading with her son.
Roman did not hear her plea or just ignored it “...For how long do I have to stay there?” Roman’s mother spoke up, “Don't worry, you'll be there maximum 2-”
“Indefinitely.”
The King spoke in a cold unforgiving tone, Roman knew he had messed up big time. Victoria turned to her husband “Leo, we agreed he wouldn't be there for more than 2 fortnights, we agreed on that.” The Queen seemed upset but was obviously attempting not to show such emotion.
“Those were the rules we agreed to when he was a child and he would grant being punished” Both of Roman’s parents were staring at each other, showing they weren't going to back down.
Roman spoke, “Understood.” His voice was mostly monotone but tight, Victoria turned to him with an apologetic gaze. Roman shook his head. It was his own fault, his mother shouldn't blame herself for his actions.
“I'll tell Ruth, so we can pack.” Roman turned to leave but his father had more to say. “Before you go, Hugo won't be your assigned knight. One of the new recruits is climbing in status and popularity very quickly and he agreed to-” “babysit” Roman cut in. “-protect you. As long as I recommended him to Queen Marie for her armada”
As if things couldn't get any better, he had to meet this new recruit, he hoped they would at least get along. Roman just nodded and opened the door to leave. At that moment, Roman’s father called the guard that had escorted Roman to get the new recruit as soon as possible, he just left as quickly as he could.
His parents knew that not being around people and not being able to talk were some of the worse things that could happen to him. They decided it was going to be the way to punish him. Though, he never stayed for more than a month, now he understood why.
As Roman- basically power walked- back to his room, his brain tortured him with memories of his 7 year old self being forced onto the tower for the first time.
No! Please it was an accident-!
I won't do it again!
I won't- Please!
That was all he said as his father signaled the guards to take him, his mother not being able to look, turned her head away, trying to ignore every motherly instinct in her body to stand up and comfort her child.
The guards dragged him out of the castle- the only home he knew- and shoved him in a carriage, where Ruth was waiting for him. Ruth had always been happy around him but her expression was unreadable -looking back she seemed angry, he just hadn't seen her that way before- but, Roman didn't care. He threw himself onto Ruth and sobbed his tiny heart out, Ruth trying her best to calm him down, he eventually fell asleep. Three hours later, he was woken up by Ruth.
“Were here, principito”
Roman was scared. Ruth saw it in his eyes.
“Come on! You offend me, you really think I would let them take you to a scary place?”
The little royal could only muster a small “no”. Ruth took his hand and walked with him toward a tower. Roman thought it was beautiful, that's the day he figured beautiful things can hurt you.
Roman never got used to it. He always dreaded the ride there, all the build up to the feeling of nothingness. When he looked up at the tower, he got the same feeling that he did when he was 7, Roman learned to not look up. He’d always prefer being in the tower when he was a kid because, back then they allowed Ruth to stay behind with him. Now she would only go in the carriage with him and leave.
After they stopped allowing Ruth to stay with him, at least he had Hugo to bother, by asking him for stories of his adventures. He didn't have that anymore.
The only adventure story he had now was a vibrant red book, in the book shelf of the tower, the only fictional book in his whole collection. He will admit, it was a very smart move on his parent’s part. They always monitored what he read, filled his whole book shelf in the tower with Philosophy, Math, and Royalty etiquette. When he begged for weeks on end for an adventure book they granted him one but, they made sure it was the only book that was fictional. They wouldn't give him an adventure book based on real events, No! That would be giving Roman too much hope.
If you don’t mind spoilers as to where I’m going with this first bit. Click Here. I have officially lost patience with concepting so I guess we die like authors. So, without any further ado and the force of social distancing behind me, let’s begin this tragedy the way all the best tragedies start…
Once Upon A Time
In a glimmering kingdom called Mekone, the crown prince found True Love.
Not an uncommon occurrence really, for this land, like all others, was subject to the magic of soulmates. At the age of 21 everyone received a mark on their forearm that would encapsulate their future partner’s nature. For good or ill, their traits were reflected for all the world to see, and this mark glows with warmth when the soulmates meet.
Yes, citizens of every class are subject to the magic of the soulmates mark, even the royal family. Though their love never appeared beyond the edges of nobility, divinely seeking out only the best for the rulers and heirs of the kingdom.
On his twenty first birthday, Roman the Fifth, Crown Prince of Mekone, long may he thrive, quite literally leapt from his bed to inspect every inch of his arms. Unfortunately, he’d forgotten that he wasn’t born until much later in the day and as such would be ‘cursed to languish’ a few more hours.
The sound he made upon this realization could be generously described as a whine. It carried well into the hall and so his dear friend and servant Patton was not the slightest bit surprised to find him planked across his rug. “Good morning, your Highness!” Another bout of groaning answered him. “Yes, I know.”
Roman pried his head up. “No, you don’t!” Back down.
Patton, unbothered, stepped over the prince to get to the wardrobe. “You’re going to mess up your hair laying like that.”
At that, Roman was at least motivated to sit up and take in his friend as he sorted through Roman’s daily wear. If anyone in his inner circle could be considered a ‘fashion icon’, it was Patton, dressed as he was in his pastel blue vest, white shirt and delightfully puffy, tan trousers. It was one of many reasons Roman used to convince his mother to add Patton to the palace staff.
“M’kay, kiddo. Got a special day, so you need a special outfit! You want the reds or the blues?” He asked, revealing his options with a flourish.
Roman rolled his eyes. “Reds of course!”
“Well, hue never know until you ask!” And that was one of the other reasons he’d asked for Patton as his dresser, more of a personal one though. The man was a like a living ray of sunshine and several years back Roman was convinced that they were made for each other.
His parents were certain that wasn’t the case. And as much as it hurt, they were right. When Patton’s soul mark appeared, it couldn’t be more different from the royal crest, void of any form that could connect to Roman. But that morning, when Roman was late to rise, Patton sat next to him and let him mourn what couldn’t be.
He was snapped out of his reverie when Patton pushed him behind his dressing screen. “I’ll hand you your things as you go and be quick or you’ll be late for breakfast!”
The prince was beaming as he strode down the hall. Dressed in his hunting greys and a red sash, he waved at passing servants and the paintings of his predecessors alike.
At the end of the passageway he paused, staring up at a piece of discolored wall, but the guards clamored loudly and the grand doors swung open, giving him no time to linger. The dining hall was wide and elegant as always. His parents stationed at the table’s head, like the united front they were. Their majesties King Roman the Fourth of Mekone and Queen Llorna of Lystair smiled at him as he entered.
“My word, I had been wondering if you were even in the palace at all.” His mother said with a wry tone, folding her hands with the king’s.
His father echoed her teasing. “What held you up, son? Fierce battles or perhaps a damsel in distress?”
Roman dropped into his seat and replied without a beat. “No such luck I’m afraid. Appears my best boots went missing and Patton took exception to that.” Specifically, he’d taken is-shoe, but he rather doubted his parents would catch the pun.
“Well, I’m glad that someone is focused on the right things.” Llorna joked. “It is important to maintain an appearance of strength at all times. It gives our subjects comfort.”
“Yes, mother.” Roman huffed, used to this sort of talk by now. He tucks in to his breakfast quickly when the kitchen staff lay it out. He had plans anyway. Speaking of which…
“It’s today.” The king says between sips of tea, a solemn expression on his face.
“Mm.” The queen hums in agreement, “I suppose we’ll have to call for partners soon. Perhaps a ball?” Her tone musing.
Roman swallowed hard around his oatmeal. He’d never doubted that whoever his parents picked would somehow be his soulmate, but now that the prospect was so close? “Uhm, I was hoping to spend the day hunting! If that pleases your majesties?” He asked with exaggerated sweetness.
His parents paused, derailed for the moment. “That depends.” The king starts.
“Where would you be?” The queen finishes.
“I was going to try the mountain basin today. Been reports of a pronghorn herd moving through there.”
Another pause, this time with a shared look. “Perhaps, if you make an effort to be back before evening.” Llorna consented. “But only if you bring a contingent of guards.”
“What?! Mother, please! I’d never catch anything with a mass of armor clanging behind me, to say nothing of the smell!”
The queen met him evenly. “It would be dangerous for you to go alone, who knows what ruffians are in those woods?”
Roman sighed deeply. “Mother, really?”
His father sought to intervene, one hand up to halt conversation the other loosely cupping the queen’s. “Roman has a point,” The prince lit up visibly. “However, you should at least bring the captain.”
Oh, Gods No…
His mother did seem satisfied though, her smile and his fathers returned. That was probably the best he was going to get, so Roman resigned himself to his fate. Even if it meant traipsing around the countryside with that infuriating, stuffy, overbearing-
“Logan!” He cheered, walking up to the captain with wide arms and a grin that looked more like a grimace if he was being honest.
Guard Captain Logan was a stern man that never seemed content with anything. His hair was always swept back and even his daily wear was immaculate to a ‘T’. His posture, his expression, his manner of speech, all of it was militant, even now as he stood in the stables with his and Roman’s horses. If pressed to describe Logan in one word it would almost certainly be: Stiff.
Roman wasn’t very fond of him, nor his henpecking behavior every time Logan was assigned as his solo guard. The captain bowed at the waist. “Your highness.” He gestured to a cream-colored mare that had been bathed and harnessed for their hunt.
And Roman immediately beamed at her, striding over and carefully hugging her long face. She chewed at his shoulder fabric contently. Froufrou was a beautiful horse, not very fast, but careful and soft in her gait, perfect for their trek through the mountain brush. He hopped up onto her back and pat her neck fondly.
Logan walked out, gently tugging the reins of his speckled-grey stallion, Archimedes. His own horse was unsaddled, an attempt to make it look like an average farm steed. The sleeve on his right arm slipped back and a bit of curling, light blue pattern peeked out. Logan was quick to re-cover it for many reasons.
And wasn’t that the crux of their issues with each other? Logan was not one to believe in fate. He scraped and fought and studied for his position, but even so his soul mark was extensively scrutinized before he could enter the palace staff. It was something he often hid beneath his uniform since as it screamed what he was quick to deny and Patton was thrilled to discover.
Logan questioned everything, and he was a bearer of many theories that soul marks were relics of the old times and should not be given as much weight as they were. When the tailor and the captain were formally introduced, Logan was indifferent to the buzzing warmth on his arm. He apologized to Patton in private later, informing him that romantic attraction was simply not something he could or was inclined to feel.
Even so Patton never stopped bouncing after the man, accepting their relationship for what it was. Roman, for his part, was jealous and confused by their every interaction. He was raised to look forward to this moment in his life, when at long last proof of everlasting love would stamp his skin and he could be certain that someone special was waiting out there just for him.
Two sharp snaps startled Roman from his stupor. Logan levelling him with a bland stare from Archimedes’ back. The prince turned red, reminded that the guard had essentially been forced to spend his day off keeping Roman from injuring himself.
Seriously, you run into a tree one time and suddenly everyone fears for the future of the kingdom.
It wasn’t his fault that crow stole his hairpins!
Logan sighed, nudging Archimedes into motion and trusting Roman to follow. “We’ll need to exit from the Eastern Gate, it will be the least congested at this time of day. Please try to mitigate your interactions with the public.” Just like the man to stifle Roman’s radiance. “Stay back a few feet, but keep me in sight.”
And they were off, trotting into the roadways of the city, the quieter ones of course. Froufrou was a bit conspicuous, but aside from a brief spook from a hooded man in The Corridor, they slipped through the streets unnoticed.
The moment they saw the gates Logan shocked him by flicking his reins and sending Archimedes racing across the threshold with barely a moment’s shift in stride. Logan tucked himself low, reducing drag and leaning into the horse’s gait. The stallion was loving it! His head raising back in a triumphant scream then following Logan’s lead in leaning forward.
Roman had to push Froufrou just to keep up, the mare almost as shocked as her rider and equally incensed once she was made to sprint after their companions. “What was that?!” The prince bellowed. “You were ordered to stay close, not bolt off into the ether!”
The captain didn’t slow for nearly half their journey and was far too smug when he finally did. “I said keep me in sight. Archimedes so rarely gets to run without practicing drills, would you really deny him?” The horse whickered in agreement. Froufrou nipped at him, scolding.
Roman released a deep breath into the air around him. The basin was barely a stone’s throw from where they’d settled in the brush. The sun dappling through the trees and the wind in their faces. Roman could probably write a sonnet befitting the place if he’d only remembered a quill and paper.
But alas, today his pursuits were more sporting in nature. Froufrou stood behind him, still as a statue, just as she was trained to do. Logan had gone ahead, again, to “keep tabs on the herd” he’d said. They’d seen scattered groups bouncing along the rocky hills and Roman had a sneaking suspicion the captain was making himself just enough of a visible threat to scare them in his direction.
Which was stupid. He was fine by himself.
“Obviously.” He chided himself quietly. A snap of twigs made him start and he had to tense hard to avoid falling from his half crouch. His quarry appeared at a slow canter, shortly followed by another two. These he let pass without incident. As he expected, a tall, male pronghorn trailed after the does with a sound not unlike a short, chirping cough.
Roman held his bow steady, pulled back on the string…
It spooked. Just as Roman realized and tried to correct, it burst off into the woods away from him. The arrow scraped the beast’s flank and imbed in the soil instead of making a clean kill. Roman cursed, jumping from his shelter and giving chase.
The beast’s calls tapered off and the trail became spotty as he stumbled through the flora. A rookie mistake, Roman noted with frustration, he should have just let it slip away and waited for a surer target. It wasn’t like stomping around like a drunken elephant would get it to come back anytime soon. He kicked the dirt. It didn’t make him feel any batter.
Where was he?
“Shit.” The prince spun around, trying to make heads or tails of his position. He whistled sharply. No sign of his horse, Froufrou was too far away. Roman rubbed his hands hard down his face with a groan. “Fiery fits of Fortuna, today is cursed!”
“Hey!”
That wasn’t Logan’s voice. Thoughts of his mother’s frequent worries flying into his head, Roman shot up, scanning the area.
“Up here, Robin Hood!”
His eyes trailed up a white barked tree with narrow branches. Upon one of which sat a barefoot, willowy young man with a canvas bag slung across his shoulders and hair that flopped in front of an exhausted expression. He suddenly seemed unsure what to say now that Roman stared at him. “Um, Are you… good?”
Now the royal was taken aback, for several reasons, not least of which was how he could have so completely missed a stranger in a tea tree. “I-, Yes?”
Once upon a time, in a forest separate from his realm, the crown prince found True Love. Not that he realized it at the time.
Warning(s): Mild cursing, Anxiety, Minor amounts of crying, minor deceit mention, angst((not to bad but I’m still sorryyy))), (Tell me if I should add something!)
Ships/Couples: (Future) Prinxiety
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All these feeling really started when we were younger. Before… I had to act mean… and they didn’t like me. “They” being the other sides of course. When we were younger, and Thomas was only a child and didn’t know we existed, we were actually friends.
Close friends.
Roman… was always a bit childish (we all were if I’m being honest.) He was childish in a fun way. We always used to hang out before middle school. Watching shows together. Playing princes together.
Patton and Logan would join in too some of the time. Patton more than Logan, but Roman and I were definitely more child-like than most other sides. We even used to hang out with Deceit...
But then middle school came. And with it puberty. Feelings. More sides having more jobs, and Thomas growing.
It wasn't good or enjoyable for any of us in truth.
And of course, I always had a small crush on Roman.
And of course, I never knew. I didn’t know what the feeling was at the time. I just knew Roman was one of my closest friends, and we were together all the time. And then we weren't. And it hurt.
A lot.
They stopped listening to me. All of them. My warnings started becoming demands. I realized after Thomas became a teenager, that life was going to be hard.
But Roman never listened to me. I see now why he didn’t.
He just couldn’t.
He wasn’t anxiety.
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Virgil stops writing, closing his eyes. Remembering the old days with the sides. How it slowly got harder and harder to do his job. The slow falling out. The dismissal of his warnings that came back to bite them.
The lessons they all learned.
He touches his cheek, feeling wetness.
When did he start crying?
He wipes his face quickly, getting rid of the tears.
They like me now. They listen to me now. We’re friends now. Things are better. So much better.
“I need to stop thinking in the past,” he tells himself. He doesn't listen.
He turns the page in the diary and begins to write more.
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But, for some stupid reason, Roman hating me didn't get rid of my crush. All it truly did was make the jabs and ignorance hurt more.
But I can't say anything.
I was mean and took out my anger in the wrong ways. I tried to scare them all into listening to me, which worked for a little while. But it was the wrong way to do things and at least I know that now. (I can still scare them though, even if they think I can't.)
I can't believe I've liked Roman this long.
I like him even more now that we're friends again.
Which makes being his friend HARD as SHIT!
I blush all the time for no reason.
All his flirty comments make me die on the inside (even though I'm already dead on the inside.)
I know he flirts with everyone, it's a part of his personality as a side. But it never fails to make me a mess of a person and ruin the small amount of angsty-ness I have left.
As much as I am weirdly enjoying writing down my feelings, I think I'm done for the day... bye I guess?
-Virgil
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Virgil closes the diary, putting it in his desk drawer. He skips through many songs on his playlist before deciding to take a nap. (Which he very much needs, Patton would be proud.)
He takes his headphones off and turns out the light. The anxious side lays on his bed staring at the hung fairy lights Patton had gifted him.
As he drifts off, he thinks of Roman...
And the small possibility that he may like Virgil back.
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A/N: Oof this was a long wait. I promise I’m going to be better at posting now that it’s summertime thank you for the patience. This chapter branches off from the movie slightly for a bit of Virgil/Meg backstory and it is kinda short but I really wanted to get something out for you guys so here it is. If you want to be added to the taglist please don’t be afraid to ask!
Trigger Warnings: Deceit, Deceit acting like Satan and taking souls, Overall angst, Breaking up, There’s a small bit of someone being dragged, Please tell me if I should mention any more!
Chapter One
Chapter Two
“LET GO OF HIM!” Deceit turned toward the voice a smirk growing across his face as his eyes settle on the young man in front of him.
“Unfortunately it’s not in my capability to do that darling. You see Remy here broke a little promise we made and he’s been holding off his debt longer than I’d prefer.” Deceit hissed holding up Remy by his hair. Remy clawed at Deceits hand in a desperate attempt to get away but it was useless. Virgil stared at his boyfriend with wide eyes filled with fear.
“Now if that’s all you needed I’ll be on my way.” Deceit tipped his hat at Virgil before pushing past him with Remy dragging behind him.
“W-wait!” The god paused and turned back to the man with pursed lips.
“Take me instead… Let him go free and take my soul… in his place.” Virgil begged tears flowing down his face. Deceit raised an eyebrow at this and seemed to ponder this over before looking down at Remy.
“Hmm, a soul definitely would have more value to me... Plus I could use a little more help. Alright. I accept the offer.” Deceit says throwing Remy to Virgil. “Be ready to leave by sundown.” He mutters before fading into a black mist and disappearing from the mortal world. In an instant, Virgil snaps his attention to Remy with eyes filled with tears. Remy gapes at the man in front of him unsure of what to say.
“Look… Virge… I..” Virgil shook his head and gave Remy a sad smile before reaching a hand out and pulling him off the ground.
“It’s okay… It’s okay… We have until sunrise. Let’s make the most of it eh?”
Virgil smirked as his boyfriend tried to skip a pebble over the lake only to have it fall into the dark water. Remy groaned and collapsed onto the ground in defeat.
“For your last night on Earth, you have some odd requests.” He mutters. Virgil rolls his eyes at the others complaining before taking a seat next to him.
“Yeah, well I want to spend my day with you and try to ignore the terror of going with a snake man to the underworld for all eternity,” Virgil replied blowing his purple fringe off of his face. The other sighed in defeat.
“Virge… you… you didn’t have to do that for me you know.”
“Well, we can’t change it now. Besides you’ve got more of a life to live than I do.” Remy paused and turned to Virgil with a frown.
“What’s that supposed to mean?”
“You’re charming and well liked. People would miss you. You’re the only one who’d miss me.”
“That’s not true.”
“Really? Name another person who’d miss me then.”
“What about your-... Right..” Remy shifted uncomfortably and Virgil couldn’t help but chuckle.
“See. It’s better this way. You can keep living and I’ll make sure to sneak away to come to see you every once and awhile.” Remy shook his head and turned his attention to the sky frowning upon realizing the sun was starting to set. Virgil followed his line of site anded sadly.
“Guess our time is running out… Virgil... Maybe we… Maybe we should... Call it off.” Virgil furrowed his eyebrows and looked at Remy in confusion.
“W-what do you mean?”
“I mean.. You won’t be around much… and I just.. I don’t know if it’s going to work out like that. We’re hardly going to see each other anymore.”
“You want.. You want to break up?” Virgil asked not believing what he was hearing. Remy nodded and opened his mouth to speak but was interrupted by Virgil springing to his feet.
“I sacrificed my freedom for you, Remy! And now you want to break up?!” Virgil started pacing back and forth emotion building up in his voice and tears welling up in his eyes.
“I know Virgil and I’m sorry it’s just… We’re going to have to move on. I’m not good with long distance relationships and we won’t be able to make it work. I’m hardly ever going to see you and I’ll have no idea what you’re doing or what’s going on with you.” Remy stood up and tried to reason.
“We could try.. We could make it work… Please, Remy… Let’s just try.” Virgil asked finally stopping in front of Remy with pleading eyes. Remy frowned and shook his head.
“No Virgil… We can’t make it work… I’m sorry.”
“Am I catching you at a bad time?” A voice said from behind Remy. The two jumped and turned toward the voice slowly. Deceit grinned at them with a raised eyebrow. Virgil shook his head and walked toward Deceit with an unreadable expression and tears running down his cheeks.
“Come along then we mustn't lurk where we aren’t wanted.” The god said in a mocking tone. Virgil grimaced at the god’s remark and glanced over his shoulder at Remy who now had his eyes directed toward the ground.
“I’m ready,” Virgil muttered and with a snap of Deceit’s fingers, they disappeared.
