#genderqueer experiences

[boxedforyourdemise]

Just some thoughts

So I'm nonbinary. As you know. I'm your local genderqueer.

I was... Very dysphoric when I turned sixteen on January 4th, so I went through with cutting my hair. And in doing so, I took a necessary step towards being comfortable with and understanding myself.

I'm... Almost never dysphoric anymore. And I wear makeup and skirts and show cleavage and all kinds of traditionally feminine things that would have devastated me before.

And I'm bored with having short hair.

So I'm growing my hair back out. And I'm excited, this time.

Hair is hair and life is life and I'm not a girl just because I have breasts or skirts or an addiction to glitter and lip products. Or even because my hair reaches my ass.

My appearance doesn't mean anything about my gender or identity.

It's just my appearance.

[boxedforyourdemise]

I just talked to my psychiatrist about my transness (it's a funny word XD) and my not being male or female and he basically was just like "if it makes you happy and you're comfortable with it, I don't have any problem."

I made a joke like "I mean, my body could use some work but my gender is not causing distress in and of itself" and it was just very lighthearted and easy. I even talked about how I can't really medically transition to get what I want but others like me can and I was sure this is what I'm comfortable with and what feels right.

Here I was, terrified, and now a medical professional is just like "yeah, as long as you're comfortable and this is what you feel is best"

Just figured I'd share hehe