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my skills include:

responding with comforting simple lies on the spot to cashiers who are asking questions trying to make playful small talk bc I know they can't handle the truths

#HAHAHAHA I'm tired #and wired #and isolating myself so hard for months now #hazes journal #social anxiety

It’s a Saturday night and I’m Out here smoking a Stupid fcuckin cigarette nasty stick..

And there are choirs of LOUD ASS MALE CICADAS screeching their screeches. In my ears. & it’s not good for my ~mental~

And I’m wiggin’ out hahaha got to gooooo

#heart racing #palms sweaty #moms spaghetti #hazes journal

Got therapy today at 4:00 🦋 Got to drive 3 hours to get there so hopefully it's not too hot/loud/trafficy what not ha I start the drive in about half an hour, I'm excited to talk in person with my therapist, the long distance phone sessions are nice, but it's easier for me to stay focused when we're face to face. I have so many journal entries to share/ funny screenshots screenshots to show him lol Gonna get ready for the trip, wish me luck!

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Top- 3/13/17 Bottom- 3/17/17

I struggled with taking the bottom photos, please forgive my drama queen eyes 👀

+The good news is that I broke my record! I went a whole month without clawing up my face. As you can see from the top photos, my scars were starting to fade and it was a very happy feeling that I am glad I was able to witness that kind of healing, I am very proud of myself. +The bad news is that I spend a very significant amount of energy and time trying to cope with my OCD. Resisting the urges, replacing self destructive rituals with gentle skin care routines, combatting the rising anxiety by taking extreme measures to avoid and prevent triggers, etc. +So of course this relapse has been very disheartening, as they all are, but at the same time very grounding. I’m trying to just stay positive & continue to the self lovin’ stuff my therapist and I have been working on for 2 years now. **I have to remind myself that these are the moments that really count- when I am so disappointed, disturbed and discouraged. Bouncing back from this is what I have been training for. **Recovery isn’t a linear process. I’ve learned this lesson thousands of times, and this time won’t be the last. My skin will heal again, and bleed again, and that’s going to have to be okay. It’s not fair for me to hate myself when I am putting so much honest effort into helping myself. That’s definitely never come easy for me, so I have to try to forgive myself for my setbacks & not abandon myself.

*And if you can relate to this, I hope that you know that you deserve to forgive yourself, too. Keep trying, keep writing, keep reading, keep dreaming & keep reminding yourself that you were designed to win this battle, we will heal

#dermatillomania #excoriation disorder #body focused repetitive behavior #bfrb feel #obsessive compulsive disorder #trichotillomania #mentally illness #compulsive skin picking #ocd #hazes journal #hazes face #definitelyderma #Delusional Parasitosis #derma tag

deep secrets

It's always a good bit humiliating when someone asks me what my major is/assumes that I'm a student, because I have to correct them casually without hinting that I spent half of my middle school and high school career in mental institutions, was unable to finish high school and have raging insecurities about it But for a second it's also flattering like Me?? Giving you the impression that I have the mental capability and stamina to do school?? Oh sweet child,

#mental illness #i'm alright though #making progress #trying to balance my life #therapy #hazes journal