#ihurtyou

[georgiaponirakou]

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[perfect-destruction-blog]

i never deserved you.

i still wear the ring

i still have your letters

im sorry it took me 2 years to figure out that my depression is worse than I thought.

and after you were gone I isolated myself for a year and lost all my friends and lost too much weight and lost too many emotions I swear I was barely alive.

the second year my dog died and I got a therapist then I got a psychiatrist and now I cry again and feel sad and happy and sometimes both in extemes and I think my meds might be off but now I wear that ring and cry and I wake up and cry and I think im just making up for lost time because I cry just imagining you holding her hand and I know I lost you and remember when you said it was forever I guess I ruined forever I'm sorry I did that to you to us I ruined us and I'm sorry and I know now you're happy but I really just wanted you to know that whenever you're ready I'll be here and I really meant it when I said I love you forever and I'll be here for you forever and I'll be here and I'll wait and wait and try maybe just maybe to accept you're not ever coming back but I'll still have that tiny thought in the back of my head that little voice that small hope that I'll wake up next to you again one day.

I'm sorry. I know it's not enough but I'm so sorry. I never knew what I had.

[utterlysappy]

And suddenly I felt the words slip from my mouth, I didn't notice how true they were untill I said them outloud; "No I didn't care for you. I was just playing with you" and then somehow I smiled after I said it, the smile I used to smile at him when I first started to lead him on, and then I walked away as he stared. It was like it happened in slow motion, I watched myself treat someone like shit because finally I wasn't the one who cared. I was like a bully who treats others badly cause that's all they know. I'm sorry darling, but all I've ever known is unrequited love. "I was just playing with you." And even though I didn't let on; I'm so sorry.

[trap--goddess]

Can we fix this? I don't know... But I really want to try

[jolenerzzzz-blog]

The horrifying moment when you finally wake up and realize that everything has in fact changed overnight.  Once upon a time, sadly not long ago everything was blissful and cheery. You felt on top of the world and you thought that absoulely nothing was able to bring you down. You had a job, your own apartment and what you thought was a picture picture perfect relationship. It was a thought that it would all last forever. But forever isn’t realistic. The depressing moment when you’re so scared about losing the relationship you have, that you unintentionally ruin it yourself. It’s your first real relationship, and the first time you have ever been inlove.You dont know how to react. While living in the fear of never being good enough, you become extremely anxious whenever the slighest problem occurs. Then you took extreme measures which were always uncalled for. Breaking up with someone whenever you get scared isn’t the proper thing to do.

You cannot treat someone you claim to love with so much disrespect and expect them to be okay with it. Excuses are invalid. There is no logical reason why an human should treat another this was. When talking turns to screaming, hugs turns to pushin, and kisses turn to slaps/punches, you know there is a problem. 

I know i messed up. I’m not the person I put myslef out to be. I hurt the one I love and there is no going back. I cannot change what has happened and I cannot take anything back. What’s done is done. I fucked up the best thing that has happened to me yet. I will forever regret the choices I made. But now I have to live with the consequences of my actions. 

Yes I’m hurting.  But eventually I will learn to live with it. 

[xmisswhatshernamex]

I was only 19, you were 29 It's just 10 years, but it's such a long time In a heartbeat, I would do it all again Late night sex, smokin' cigarettes I try real hard but I can't forget Now in a heartbeat, I would do it all again Now I see that you and me were never meant Never meant to be now Now I'm lost somewhere Lost between Elvis and suicide Ever since the day we died, well I've got nothing left to lose After Jesus and Rock N Roll Couldn't save my immoral soul, well I've got nothing left I've got nothing left to lose Callin' out sins just to pass the time My life goes by in the blink of an eye I know you want me I was only lookin' for a friend And everything I was And everything that I've become Just falls into the end and Now I see that you and me were never meant Never meant to be now Now I'm lost somewhere Lost between Elvis and suicide Ever since the day we died, well I've got nothing left to lose After Jesus and Rock N Roll Couldn't save my immoral soul, well I've got nothing left I've got nothing left to lose Now I see that you and me were never meant Never meant to be now Now I'm lost somewhere Lost between Elvis and suicide Ever since the day we died, well I've got nothing left to lose After Jesus and Rock N Roll Couldn't save my immoral soul, well I've got nothing left I've got nothing left to lose....

[lymfys]

Need to come clean

I made a huge mistake. I lied and cheated for no reason. What I have to say is I am the most ungrateful piece of filth. I am disgusted with myself and what I did. I should've been completely honest when I lied about what I did. I really just want to turn back time but that is not an option. I need to move forward and hope he sticks by my side because I do love him and he knows that.