#inner struggle

[mydarkawaits]

She's gone into an endless loop!

[sillymilly]

When I'm finish with all my art, I'd liked to focus on my fanfictions for once, however knowing myself, I'd probably get distracted with art again,

but I do have faith in myself.

[pfdr75]

[weirdnessdk]

Oh.

The thing that my tarot cards warned me about.

😬

They said that in May I would struggle with coming to terms with being single. That I would panic about it for a bit. The realization that I am alone is beginning to hit me. And I do not like it.

I have been single now for 6 months or so. But I have not lived by myself until now. In May. And I am beginning to feel that. I am not used to be alone. I have longed for it for years. And I do enjoy it and love it.

But it feels unsettling somehow. Like.... something is wrong. And my nervous system is once again acting up a bit. Making me think and feel things that are built on the anxiety of being alone.

It's not loneliness. It's something else.

I knew this would happen, because I had been warned. I am still happy and I do not regret for a second that I moved away from my ex. I know I will get past this struggle. I'm sure it will happen surprisingly fast.

But right now it feels off. Something inside of me feels off. Because I am not used to be alone. But I am alone now. And I am happy about it. But somewhere inside of me it doesn't feel right.

I will fight it and I will learn to be happy and content about being single. But it is not today that I am winning that fight.

Fuck.

[jonlesage]

“It’s a helluva ride,” H.E.R. sings so accurately in her song ‘The Journey.’

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[donkies11]

"When a human strokes your skin That is when you let them in Let them in before they go I would rather feel alive with a childlike soul" #TGS #D11

for the little boy who couldn't find the conqueror in himself

[thoughts-incognito13]

Have u ever felt like u r home but u still feel like u want to go home.

Like..take me home where i belong...truly..although I'm home but the soul doesn't feel like it.

Like there is some longingness left behind in the heart. Surprisingly, i was watching BTS recent documentary and jin said same thing to jk. He gave words to my feelings. I was like others feel it too even those who are accomplished in their fields.

It is like i want to be very good at something and have achievement but at the same time i don't want to do anything. Want to just keep sleeping. Like my soul is tired and it wants to rest and it wants to go home.

[annyimindenterzek]

14. Irony

People who need therapy don’t go to a therapist, their victims do.

It seems that the greatest punishment for empathetic people is feeling bad over the actions of others, even when those actions cause no real suffering.