summary: it’s your idol boyfriend’s birthday and you find celebration in the quiet moments.
author’s note: this is late af BUT happy birthday to the guy, one of the smartest, hottest, most talented men alive: lim jaebom aka jayb | pictures were taken off pinterest!
also wrote this as a surprise gift for @aeristudios
okay i'm gonna go back to being inactive bc i'm dealing with personal stuff but BYE and ENJOY!
You'd fallen asleep scrolling through your phone again and you wake up in a disarray. The kind of sleep that leaves you feeling like you've stumbled into another universe. The discombobulation was definitely felt because you could have sworn that you had decided to take your snooze on the couch, but here you were in your bed — emerald green sheets strewn around your body. You groan slightly because you definitely hadn't meant to sleep the night away, you'd told yourself just a quick nap so you could wake up when your lover had gotten home. Selfishly you wished that you could have spent the whole day pampering him on his birthday but alas his promotional schedules had him tied up the entire day. You haven't opened your eyes yet so you blindly reach around for your phone, half expecting it to be dead since you'd passed out with no recollection. Instead of being faced with the no battery sign you're actually blinded by your lockscreen: a picture of you and Jae from behind at a secluded beach. This was taken by your friend the first time you'd met. She just knew you two would hit it off so in her mischevious and scheming way she set the two of you up. You remember the day so clearly.
Once your eyes adjust to the brightness you notice that your phone was actually charging the whole time. You were starting to fully wake up and your ears perk up at the soft beats of Killshot by Magdalena Bay coming from your living room. A slight smile creeps onto your face because this probably means your favorite person is home. Which also leads you to believe that he moved you to the room and also plugged your phone in for you. Even on his special day, he was still thinking about your comfort. You check the time and there was still a couple hours before midnight. Wrapping yourself in a the duvet, you shuffle out of your bedroom.
There's only one light on but it's enough to cast a small beam of amber around him. Quietly tiptoeing towards him, you notice that his shoulders are a bit slumped. You try to suppress a chuckle because he's probably trying to fight sleep just like you were not too long ago. Before you wrap him in the blanket you notice that he has some tabs open about copyright law open. You make a mental note to ask him about it later. You open up the duvet and envelope him in hug from behind.
Pressing a small kiss to his temple you greet him softly,
"Happy Birthday Jae."
He leans into your kiss and you get a deep whiff of his cologne. It's the perfect mix of warmth and musk. He removes your arms from around him and with the most ease pulls you into his lap, your back softly tucked into his chest. He nuzzles his face delicately into the space between your neck and shoulder. He's admitted many times how this is his favorite place to be, tied with being on stage with his members and fans. You swear there's probably a Jaebom shaped divot in your shoulder, but you don't care. Who were you to deny a beautiful man like him a place on your shoulder?
"Mmm, thank you baby. Missed you all day," he says into your neck. You giggle at the sensation and take his hands to clasp them with yours. He locks his arms around you and continues to leave little pecks in the same spot he'd been talking into. You whip out your phone with one hand and start scrolling.
"What are you looking for?" He preens over trying to look at your phone. You shush him and move away so he isn't able to see you ordering his favorite stew from the mom and pop restaurant a few miles away from your home. Distracting him, you cock your head towards his laptop.
"Thinking about a mid-life career change Mr. Lim?" He pinches your side softly and a giggle comes from you. He tells you that he's looking into how he can help his group get their name back. Your heart swells. This is the second time today he's shown just how deep his care for his people are. This is one of the things that made you fall in love with him in the first place. He continues to go on about how he's setting meetings with the rest of the guys and speaking with other people in the industry. And you listen intently. The both of you are so wrapped into this conversation that the knock on your door startles the both of you. You jump so much that you almost tip out of his lap, but of course Jae's there to catch you. He helps you up so that he can answer the door and you slide to the kitchen to start setting up for a late night dinner.
He comes back in with the biggest smile on his face, food in tow.
"I love you so much," he declares as he sets the food down on the counter. You smile and give him a soft peck. He holds you in place for a bit, all the love he has for you beaming in his eyes. The outer corners of them crinkled with adoration.
"Happy birthday my love," you say with a grin on your face. Taking the food from his hands, you ladle the stew into the bowls you'd set out. You eat the last hour of his birthday together. Quiet laughter shared between bites, the love felt in every corner of your apartment.
when the girls and jaebeom had to step in to convince jaein to take a break
WARNINGS: this is set during the pre-promotion era of "Feel My Rhythm." hope you enjoy this cute domestic moment! ❤️
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Jaein felt the bass of Red Velvet’s next comeback through her entire body. It was one of the most satisfying sensations she could experience as an idol. She loved comebacks. Every part of the preparation, the rehearsals, the planning, the anticipation, was, in her opinion, even more exciting than the comeback itself.
And, like everyone else involved, Jaein was incredibly excited about this new concept the company had decided to try. With heavy inspiration from different forms of art and the sampling Bach, it was definitely worth all the anticipation.
Jaein knew that, with the pregnancy, she wouldn’t be able to fully participate in this comeback. Luckily, she still wasn’t showing enough for the company to even consider cutting her from the promotional photoshoots.
And, just like she had said in the meeting where she told them about the pregnancy, she wasn’t going to stop until her body told her to. She was just pregnant. That wasn’t the end of the world.
And that was why, when her staff and manager saw her arriving almost an hour earlier than everyone else, just like she always did, they didn’t even bother telling her to go home.
Her members arrived one by one, each of them following the same ritual: greeting Jaein’s almost invisible bump before greeting her. Every time they did it, Jaein felt her heart warm with all the love and support they were giving her, even in the very early stages of her pregnancy.
She knew it wouldn’t take long for the company to start cutting her off. In fact, it was already happening. Subtle things. Leaving her out of certain commercials, the occasional Instagram lives the girls would start without her… things Jaein had never thought would matter that much.
"Feel my rhythm, come with me…" she sang along to the demo as she danced a little away from her members, who were rehearsing the choreography for five members now, not six.
Jaein still followed the movements out of habit, marking the steps just outside the formation.
From her spot, Irene noticed something she couldn't explain herself. Something almost like an instinct.
"Jaein-ssi," she called softly as the choreographer corrected something about spreading their arms wider. "are you okay?"
Jaein blinked, a little surprised by the sudden attention.
"Of course, unnie." she said with a small smile, brushing a strand of hair away from her cheeks. She was already sweating, even though they had been dancing for less than an hour, one of the early symptoms. "Why wouldn’t I be?"
Irene simply nodded and stepped back into position when the demo restarted. It went on like that for about twenty minutes until Irene suddenly clapped.
"Okay! Break!" she said.
Jaein blinked, irritation flickering across her face.
"We just started, unnie."
Seulgi suddenly dropped to the floor.
"I'm so tired." she mumbled.
"No, you're not." Jaein said, confused.
Joy walked over to the speaker and lowered the volume. Then another notch. And another.
"Is it just me or is the instrumental too loud?"
Jaein slowly looked around and realised no one was making eye contact, and that's when it hit her. They weren’t struggling or messing up. They were avoiding her.
Her lips pressed together as she placed her hands on her lower back.
"Are you guys avoiding rehearsing?"
All five of them froze, like children caught in the act. The room fell completely silent.
"That’s not what this is, Jaein-ah." Yeri said quickly.
Jaein looked at her, eyes already glossy.
"Then what is it?" she asked, quietly.
Irene ran a hand through her hair, clearly trying to keep her composure.
"Why would we avoid working, Jaein?" she asked, carefully.
"Jaein, sit down." Wendy said, gently holding onto her arm.
Jaein pulled back slightly.
"Do you not want me here?" she asked softly, her lips trembling.
Wendy’s head snapped up. "What?"
Jaein let out a small, shaky laugh.
"You keep stopping. You’re acting weird. If you think I can’t do this just say it. I'm not fragile." her voice chracked on the last word.
Wendy immediately panics.
"Oh, Jaein, no. No no no."
"I can still dance. I can still sing. I’m not even showing yet." Jaein continued, words spilling out faster now, hands gesturing as if she could physically prove her point. "If this is going to be complicated, I can just step back from this comeback."
"WHAT?" Joy practically yelled.
Jaein’s breathing grew uneven. Pregnancy hormones? Absolutely. Overthinking? Completely. All of it.
"I don’t want to slow you down. If I need to leave the group for a while, I will."
The room goes dead silent.
Seulgi’s eyes filled instantly. "Why would you say that?"
"Because you’re all acting like I’m glass!" Jaein snapped, tears finally falling. "If you wanted me gone you could’ve just said it instead of treating me like I’m sick."
Joy looked seconds away from crying out of frustration.
"No one wants you gone!" she shot back. "Girl, we’re trying to get you to rest!"
"We’ve been begging you to rest for two weeks!" Wendy added.
Yeri crossed her arms.
"You came to rehearsal yesterday after throwing up!"
"That was morning sickness, not death!"
Irene steps forward, calm but firm.
"Jaein," she called out the girl. "I know you are not fragile. But you are pregnant."
There was a silence between them as Jaein tried to think about what to say back.
"And we love you." Irene continued. "More than this choreography. More than any comeback."
Jaein wiped her face angrily.
"I don’t want special treatment." she mumbled.
"It’s not special treatment." Seulgi said, a small, helpless laugh escaping her. "It’s literally basic human care."
Joy sighed sharply. "We’re not delaying rehearsal because you’re weak. We’re delaying it because you won’t stop."
Yeri nods aggressively. "You won’t sit down unless we physically restrain you."
Jaein sniffled.
"You could’ve just told me."
"We DID! A thousand times!" Wendy groaned. "You said ‘I’m fine’ and started doing full-out turns."
They all look at each other. Irene slowly reached into her pocket and pulled out her phone. Jaein narrowed her eyes.
Jaein narrows her eyes.
"Unnie, what are you doing?"
"Calling Jaebeom." Irene answered.
"Oh, thank you." Joy muttered under her breath.
Jaein let out a disbelieving laugh, wiping her cheeks again.
"You’re all being dramatic." she muttered, turning away from them. "My doctor said I could dance. I’m fine!"
No one answered, and that should’ve been her first sign.
With a huff, she walked over to the white leather couch at the side of the studio and sat down, crossing her arms. Still stubborn, she started moving her hands slightly to the beat, marking the choreography while seated, like that somehow proved her point.
Jaebeom didn't take long. The studio door opened about twenty minutes later, and he stepped in, dressed simply, like he had dropped everything to be there. His eyes scanned the room quickly before landing on Jaein in the corner.
Jaein frozed.
"You actually called him?" she protested, turning to Irene.
Jaebeom didn’t say anything right away. He greeted everyone with a polite bow, then walked further into the room, calm and steady, like he always was.
"Hi." Jaein said, trying to sound casual. "What are you doing here?"
He stopped in front of her. Up close, he could see the flushed cheeks, the watery eyes, the way she was still slightly out of breath.
"You’ve been crying." he said simply.
Jaein scoffed, looking away and crossing her arms.
"I’m pregnant. I cry about everything now."
By then, the girls had gathered around them, forming a loose circle like they were witnessing a live intervention. Jaein let out a small laugh at the absurdity of it.
"Guys," she saidm mid-laugh. "I swear, I’m fine!"
"We know you think you are." he replied, still completely straight-faced. "But you've been overworking, my love."
"I have not." she protested.
"Yes, you have!" five voices echoed, at once.
"I am not leaving." Jaein said, looking away.
Jaebeom looked at her. Then at the girls. Then back at her.
"Okay."
He shrugged, before seating right next to her, on the floor.
Jaein blinked.
"What are you doing?"
"I’m waiting."
"For what?"
"For you to finish your little tantrum."
The room exploded. Joy doubled over laughing. Wendy literally dropped to the floor next to Seulgi. Yeri slapped the ground like this was the funniest thing she’d ever seen.
Jaein stared at him, betrayed.
"... this is bullying." she said, her shoulders dropping.
"Yeah, maybe." he said with a small smile, clearly relieved she was finally easing.
Jaein stared at him for a second longer.
Then, with the most dramatic sigh known to mankind, she stood up and started gathering her things from the couch, making everyone cheer.
Jaebeom got up right after her, stepping closer and pressing a soft kiss to the top of her head while she shoved things into her bag a little too aggressively.
Everyone cheered.
"You're tired." he mumbled.
Deep down, she knew it was true.
Her feet ached, her back was sore, and the thin layer of sweat on her skin made it clear her body wasn’t keeping up the way it used to. But she was too proud to admit it.
"Let’s go home, babe." he said, gently taking her bag from her hands and throwing it over his shoulder. She didn’t argue this time.
Jaein mumbled her goodbyes, giving quick hugs to the girls, who looked both relieved and amused. Even the choreographer was smiling like he had just watched the best reality show episode of his life.
Jaebeom opened the door for her, following right behind.
As they stepped out into the hallway, he glanced down at her.
"You good?"
Jaein nodded, leaning lightly against his shoulder, her lips forming a small pout.
warnings: cursing, explicit sex, takes place in present time with minor flashbacks
summary: mark knew it was game over the minute he saw you. despite being apart from each other for so long, no amount of practice in front of the mirror would've prepared him for the way his heart dropped the moment he saw you walk in. he'd forgotten about the hold you had on him, you; the love of his life, the one that got away.
character preface
mark tuan :
male
age: 29
birthday: september 4, 1993
currently living in arcadia, la county, california, u.s.a
y/n:
female
age: 25
birthday: september 15, 1997
currently living in seoul, south korea
originally from new york city; part time in los angeles
A/N: For Jay B’s birthday. Things might get a bit emotional, but its still fluffy I promise :)
You felt incredibly guilty for lying to your boyfriend, but it just seemed easier than telling him the truth.
He'd invited you to what he was calling a 'GOT7 meeting' but was actually dinner with him, Jinyoung, Youngjae and Yugyeom. While you had met Jinyoung before, the thought of being out in a public place with a lot going on around you and meeting new people had you on edge.
After telling Jay B you were busy, you put on some low music to focus your mind on and started carrying out some mundane chores to keep your body busy.
When you heard a knock at the door you automatically went to answer it. Pulling it open you came face to face with Jay B.
"What are you doing here?" you asked, surprised that he wasn't with his friends.
"What are you doing here?" he put the question back to you. His voice was calmer than you expected, not accusing but almost... understanding.
"I'm sorry," you said in a small voice.
"Why?"
"I lied," you pointed out. "So I'm sorry, but I didn't know what else to say and I just can't today. I can't."
Finally, Jay B crossed the threshold, closing your door then pulling you into his embrace.
"It's fine, I knew you weren't telling the whole truth," he told you. "I could tell there was something going on with you. Why do you think I'm here?"
"But now I've ruined your day," you muttered as you clung onto him.
"I wouldn't have enjoyed myself anyway. I would have been too worried about you. Now, why don't we go and get comfortable, and you can tell me what's up?" he asked as he pulled away.
"I don't know if I can put it into words," you told him, letting yourself be led to your sofa.
"Can you try? Anything you can tell me, how you feel, how I can help?"
"I don't think you can help. I just need you to understand that sometimes socialising or being out in public, or somewhere that's too loud or busy, can be really overwhelming for me," you explained as best you could. "Not always. Had this dinner happened on a different day it might have been fine, but today, I can't cope."
"That's fine," Jay B assured you. "You don't have to lie, you can just tell me it's too much for you that day."
"Are you sure?"
"Of course," he replied, slightly incredulous that you'd ask that. "I don't want you to be uncomfortable, or have to feel bad about lying to me."
"Thank you," you said as you hugged him again. "I'm so lucky to have such an understanding boyfriend."
"I'd be the worst boyfriend if I wasn't understanding of your mental health or forced you into situations which could trigger you."
You simply squeezed him a little tighter to show him your appreciation.
"Is it ok that I'm here?" he then asked. "If you don't have the energy I'll leave, I don't mind."
"Just you is fine," you smiled. "But I would really like if we could just sit in silence and watch a film."
"Of course," he said wrapping an arm around you and placing a quick kiss on your temple.
[1:15 am] it’s the late 70s, Jaebeom picks you up in his new 1970 Ford pickup, you two are going to see a drive-in movie. you hop in, waving your parents goodbye. he slowly moves his hand over towards your hand and bumps it, you resist the smile that was ready to sprout up anytime. you slip your digits and interlock them with his. you look over at him, unable to resist anymore, you smile brightly at him, and he mirrors it. he pulls into the drive in paying them, you hand him some money, and he shakes his head and shuts the door to the pickup and leaves you to the soft music of Sinatra pouring out of the speakers. he comes back with a big bucket of popcorn, and two pops. you slide over to him, and he rolls his window down, turning off Sinatra. he pulls you closer into him his arm wrapped you and takes a big amount of popcorn and he says jokingly, “Watch this” and he sticks the handful and eats it with no problem, you laugh shaking your head at him. you kiss his nose, and the movie starts to play. he’s the perfect boyfriend you decide in your mind that night, and you couldn’t be more right.
𝗚𝗲𝗻𝗿𝗲: Corporate AU, Mature, Smut, Angst, Enemies to Lovers
𝗪𝗮𝗿𝗻𝗶𝗻𝗴𝘀: Cursing, sexual content, mentions of trauma
𝗦𝘆𝗽𝗻𝗼𝗽𝘀𝗶𝘀: You don't like to think of the word "workaholic" as an insult, but rather as a title of prestige. Everything you have accomplished in your career has been reflected as a glimmering treasure in your trophy case that doted on your work ethic and undying tenacity to put your best effort in everything you have involved yourself in. When you're transferred to what feels just a step away from a demotion, rewritten as an opportunity to "help" the new CEO, you find yourself in a predicament when you realize he's an unbearable nuisance.
𝗪𝗼𝗿𝗱 𝗖𝗼𝘂𝗻𝘁: 7,946
𝗔𝘂𝘁𝗵𝗼𝗿'𝘀 𝗡𝗼𝘁𝗲: I haven't written anything and posted for many moons, I feel so out of place. Enjoy.
In most scientific experiments — particularly chemical ones — the expression "precision over accuracy" reigned over the conducted research, for the purpose of retaining the proper prestige that came only with the robotic and recycled theories of a mechanical process. Taking into account the possible inaccuracies that only human variables could create, focusing on precision would eliminate most — if not all — of the blank shots that could warp results. With deft, calculated movements, you humbly thought of yourself similarly, someone who acted as a piston amongst a well oiled machine. Your process was methodical and it made sure your results embodied the effort you took to keep every step precise.
In other words, you did your job, and you did it well.
Maybe, too well.
The sudden sensation of the dulled nail of his thumb digging deeper into the slope of your bare hip, sinking a bruise into your skin, caused you to jolt. You weren't entirely sure whether you impulsively gripped his wrist to indicate and warn him of the the sudden force he applied, or because you instinctively wanted to touch him again and weren't coherent enough to know exactly where you wanted to place your touch.
It would be a lie to say he's not drunk, but he's not quite sure on what exactly. Maybe the overflowing alcohol that spilled over his fingers as he caught each pour for himself, and inevitably, you. But he could have sworn that the bergamot and jasmine he drank from the valley of your collarbone was intoxicating him in an entirely different manner, his uneven panting annoying him as his throat grew dry and sprung its ricochetting echo into the dampened pounding that formed at the back of his skull that matched the rhythm of his hips meeting yours. So he sunk his teeth into your skin to exchange his ragged breathing for your own.
Regardless of every overthought prose that he's versed out in the compounded hazy pink matter that sloshed in between his slurred, desiring words, he was drunk. And he kept asking himself what he was doing, why he was doing this. And the answer came to him, over and over, in the form of the vertices of your fingertips, luring him back as he felt your nails carve into his skin.
Ah fuck it.
And his tongue splayed over your neck, licking a stripe right up along your pulse and towards the juncture of your jaw. Giving your hip a squeeze, he managed to articulate himself the best he could amongst the various obstacles that kept him from clearly expressing the eloquence he would much rather have, "...You feel so good."
What could you say? You did your job, and you did it well.
“It’s a good deal, sure you’re losing that title, but you’ll be working directly for the main CEO,” clearing his throat, Mr. Lee — your soft spoken supervisor of two and a half years — gently pushed a bleached packet towards you from across his desk. The scrape of the envelope skidding along the vinyl finished mat gripped at your chest, your eyes wandering desperately along the uncreased plane in search of something you weren't quite sure existed. At least not in a tangible sense. It felt as sterile as your hostility, simply allowing the careful steps of your career to crumble and sift through your fingers in a hasty effort to replace it with this makeshift offer of opportunity.
Your silence was all too telling to your superior who guided and observed your pristine work ethic, “This is just a branch, even being a janitor at the main office has more prestige than any of us here!”
Silence.
Mr. Lee spoke your name gently as you pressed your lips into a tight line, teeth sinking deeply into the flesh to encase the expression as you scoured to find the words to say, “…May I ask why I’m being transferred?”
Finally lifting your gaze to meet your superior’s, riddled with absolute hesitation and your own increasing impatience from the lack of response. Clearing his throat when your sharp expression finally seared through his last defense, he began stuttering, “I need you to keep this between us because we have taken every precaution to protect this information from any unnecessary…Talk.”
You simply nodded, a gesture to have the disclaimer sped up rather than with promise and understanding. Mr. Lee continued, his tone shifting an octave down as his volume diminished, “As you recall, last month, CEO Im suffered a sudden and unfortunate passing. However, he had specific directions for his stepson to take over his position. Whether that was meant for the future, as we did not expect his untimely death, or if this situation was accounted for, there is no way to interpret it other than properly following his wishes.”
“And what does that have to do with me?” Interrupting through a breath but without cutting him off, you gently reached for the envelope while carefully pressing the prongs together and releasing the flap to inspect the documentation. Your well manicured fingernails slipped into the gap, retrieving the glossy sheets as your eyes analyzed the words and each contingency they passed.
Clearing his throat once more, he shifted in his chair before straightening his jacket — a fidgeting habit he had whenever he was in a situation where he struggled to find the proper verbiage to express himself, “…They saw you as the perfect fit to—”
Before he could finish, your eyes landed on the bolded new title that you would receive once you decided — accepted? Did you have a choice? — the position, which garnered frustration and anxiety to crawl up your throat and before you realized it, the words flew out your mouth like daggers against a board, “Secretary?!”
The disbelief strewn across your features had your superior speechless, apologetic, and absolutely mortified by the intimidation that dripped and radiated from you. Though it was mid-afternoon, sun perched high against the periwinkle canvas and melting through the windows to paint the inner walls of Mr. Lee's office, he could have sworn he felt you drink every last drop of light in the room.
“I know this isn't— I know it’s not necessarily a lateral transfer, but since you’re an operations manager—” “I’m giving up the successes and accomplishments of digging this godforsaken branch out of the hole it was in to deliver coffee and schedule meetings to some incompetent imbecile?” Mr. Lee flinched at the calm demeanor you held, your tone barely bubbling over as your words started to fire out quicker than before.
“…They,” he cleared his throat once more, “The board, wants you to train him because—” You ignored every word Mr. Lee attempted to comfort you with, “Someone who wasn’t even born to Mr. Im living a privileged life. I wish I was as fortunate.”
Honestly, you could barely register the words leaving your mouth. But who could blame you? You took pride in the streamlined efficiencies you carried through your innovation as an entry level sales operations analyst, and you quickly proved that your processes were better matched at a higher position. Two years later and without any difficulty, you climbed your ranks with precision and were just a step shy away from directing the entire department at your branch. Sure, it was simply an extension of the main company, but you took pride in everyone below and above you at your office, something you couldn't necessarily assure elsewhere.
“Well, he comes from the late CEO Im’s wife, and he had adopted him…” the mumbling didn’t cease as you continued on, “Imagine thinking I would want to leave all of this behind to follow behind and pick up after some silver spoon orphan. Ha!"
Mr. Lee and you were engaging in two entirely different conversations, mostly as you spoke to yourself and your supervisor — soon to be ex supervisor — attempted with his best speech to damage control all your troubles about the transfer.
“Well," he changed into formalities as he uttered your last name with clarity, in hopes it would hold your attention, "They want you to train him with his duties."
It did, “The board wants me to what?”
"They want you to—"
"Then have the operations manager at the main branch teach him," the apathy that leaked and wove between your words as your back met the support of your chair finalized your attitude about the situation, your shoulders shrugging before your tipped your head to the side.
"...Like I said, you're losing the title, but I promise it's a good deal," in an even quieter voice, one just faint of a whisper, Mr. Lee spoke with desperation, "The pay is higher, it's the main branch. I recommended you myself. I know you're perfect for the job."
You weren't sure if you were supposed to feel pity for your supervisor, attempting to provide you with reason to this whole situation or if you were insulted by the fact that it seemed he really did not know you at all. Tongue over teeth, you swallowed the maniacal laughter that threatened to seep through your lips as you placed the envelope onto the desk, "...When am I supposed to start?"
"Next week," Mr. Lee knows by your tone that you aren't the least bit convinced, so he clears his throat again before going for his last attempt, "...There's room to grow, and if you are at the main office, you will definitely be in favor if there is a position open. I assure you. First in line."
They're not magic words, they're barely comforting to you, but you take them because you know your alternative is to leave and start over entirely from scratch. Was this quite that different? You weren't sure. Biting back every last ounce of pride, you simply nodded — this time with understanding — as you soundlessly scoot your chair back, bowed, and departed.
That was the last time you were in that office.
Tracing his hand down your inner thigh, his rough fingers left imprints of hazy memories ablaze as the sensation bloomed over your skin. Thumb meeting the bundle of nerves that held your arousal, he applied just enough pressure for you to tilt your head back and let a moan escape, contorting as he moved in a clockwise pattern. He's drowning in sensations, from the elongated welted crescents all across his skin, to the scent of your muddled perfume mixing between the perspiration in the forgotten scenery of some unnamed room, mesmerized as the circumference of his cock that pushed into you stretches perfectly around him with each thrust. You have him drenched, and the unintentional squeezes of your indicative pleasure had his eyes rolling back.
"Don't do that," he exhaled hard through gritted teeth as your half lidded eyes managed to find his, a cheshire grin tracing over your mouth, "Why? Don't you wanna cum?"
With that, he realized almost instantly that he had sobered up once you both excused yourselves from dinner, even long before the walk towards the station and now, with complete confidence, he definitely had been drunk off you. Gripping your jaw just beneath your chin, he squeezed the plush material of your cheeks as you pursed your lips in a joking manner. Pushing his thumb into your mouth, you swirled your tongue over to tease him.
The winding in your core dwindled near it's last rotation as your erratic breathing became more evident, hips squirming against him, thighs shaking as one of his hands held your legs apart. You refused to give in first, however, so you simply grit your teeth as you refocused your attention to how he rowed his hips with careful precision. Somehow he managed to sheathed his entire length inside of you without missing an inch, and pulling out almost entirely only to return and leave you breathless. You clench hard around him, threatening silently that you were the one in control.
Removing his wet thumb from your mouth, he pressed it right back up against your clit as his ministrations were now more pressured and intense as to combat your attitude from refusing to listen to his request. Almost immediately, you felt the snap and all you could do was gasp, sucking in every ounce of oxygen your lungs had allowed before feeling your climax crash right into you, "Fuck! Jaebeom!"
"Hey," two gentle slaps on your cheek, and he suddenly grabbed your jaw again as you writhed beneath him, a feeling of vertigo practically encapsulating your vision, "Thought you said you were gonna be professional? Stick with "Mr. Im"."
Tongue in cheek, you quickly felt the high of your orgasm diminish with his arrogance, and he must have been good at reading your actions by now because before you even had the chance to retort his hand was wrapped around your neck. Pressing against the outer columns, he held your breathing all with one hand as his pace intensified, fucking into you as you were reminded of your climax just seconds ago. The overstimulation had your knees attempting to snap shut, a gurgled and agonized moan attempting to crawl out of your throat.
"Nuh uh, it's my turn," he hushed you in a crooning manner as his grip on your waist assured you that there would be a mark later. Chanting curses that seemed like a spell, he lasted no longer than another breath before he pulled out and released both your neck and himself, spilling over your abdomen.
"And here is your desk," the representative from human resources gestured towards the desolate furniture paired with a lonely matching chair as you gave your best customer service smile before being dismissed. Orientation was an absolute blur, formalities at best, to describe what your role had implied — at least on paper — and the administrative process was more or less the same in all departments. Not that you belittled this work, secretarial staff was indeed necessary and a core component to the corporate hierarchy however, being that you felt your skills could have been honed much better elsewhere, you couldn't help but feel deflated even after your first day. It didn't help the amount of socialization you had been invited to engage in, much to your distaste. Smoothing your navy chiffon dress, you adjusted the hem length to give weight against the way it rode up from when you toured the building before investigating the lone mouse, keyboard, and dual monitor screens that sat untouched at your new desk. Glancing down at your watch, you noted that Mr. Im should be back from his lunch break, signaling the meeting that was scheduled for you two to become acquainted. As if on cue, the bellowing steps of the CEO's stepson beckoned from the elevator down the hall, as a well suited and broad figure strode out of the compartment with his pockets tucked into his slacks.
Punctual, at least.
Accessorized with a rather young face, pomade slicked back dark hair, you were surprised that he was appointed to take over such a large scale conglomerate — he looked like he had barely graduated from whatever flashy international university's business program he must have attended on daddy's money. But rather than chastise him further — you would have more than enough time to do so that night over a bottle of wine and your own company — you let your saccharine grin drip from your lips before bowing towards him as he neared your desk and towards the glass french doors at the opposite end of the hall.
"Hello Mr. Im, starting today I will be your new secretary. I hope we can become well acquainted," as you straightened back out, you flinched as you saw the deadpan expression in the CEO's stepson's eyes, his expression stoic and rather blank. Mildly surprised at this response, you continued with your speech you memorized and prepared to present, "I was given your schedule but wanted to go over a few nuances with you to confirm—"
"Just e-mail them to me," and without a single look back, he strode into his office as the dulled sound of the frame clasped the door into place. You had never received this amount of disrespect in your career, not from the retail jobs you juggled through college, not from your superiors through the unpaid internships you haphazardly took up, not even from the individuals that loathed you from the branch office that purposely threw you under during sales calls. You weren't expecting a formal tone, but at the very least, you expected to be looked at when spoken to. And especially not to be looked at like some small, feeble, insect by someone who only gained their position through privilege and water of a womb. Inhaling deeply, you held your breath in as you counted quietly, eyes closed to calm yourself before you trailed towards the double doors, clutching a three ring binder filled with the notes you intended to sort. Knocking your knuckles gently, though you could see he was on the phone and turned towards the floor to ceiling windows on the opposing side of the entrance, you allowed yourself in before catching a bout of words that were being spoken into the receiver, "...I thought I asked for a male secretary?"
Balling your fingers into a fist, your nails burrowing into your palm, it took everything in you not to completely dissect the misogynistic bigot that languidly rotated his chair around to lazily look up at you — in half surprise and half disgust — and turn him into a med school anatomy demonstration.
"Let me call you back," placing the phone in its cradle, he wafted out an exasperated sigh, "Didn't I say to e-mail—"
"You can say anything you like, that doesn't mean that's how things work, Mr. Im," laced with rigid toxicity, you strode closer towards his desk before dropping down the binder with a hard thud. The sound doesn't seem to disturb him, but it was one of the only gestures you could demonstrate that did not include violence. With a deep, unsaturated, breath you flipped it open, "I was unwilling sent here to train an incompetent CEO, and I certainly will not be taking any disrespect from him so long as his father is in the ground."
The silence grew thick as he narrowed his eyes at you, wetting his lips before grimacing at the hostile way you spoke back to him. It seemed as though he was contemplating his options — even if you weren't sure what they were or what they entailed, the way his onyx orbs seemed to dilate indicated he was deep in thought. Leaning back in his chair, he lifted a hand and gestured for you to sit, "...We have a meeting to attend in an hour, say what you have to and fast because you won't be here tomorrow to say it."
Not a single sound escaped your lips as you took a seat, internally feeling your temperature rise with rage and frustration against someone who was absolutely nothing compared to you. Instead, you reminded yourself to keep it professional until the very end.
You did your job, and you always, did it well.
Propping open the binder resolutely, you turned to the first flag that was indicative of your notes. If he really did manage to get rid of you by tomorrow, at the very least, you would prove that there was nothing on your end that could have possibly caused the termination. Before you had a chance to speak, he stole away the silence, "...And you're still trying to figure out my schedule."
"Yes, so for Thursday—"
"You'll be gone by tomorrow."
"Fantastic. You have two overlapping meetings—"
"There really is no point in us going over—"
"Can you shut the fuck up for one second, Mr. Im, and let me get through my notes so we can stop wasting time with this binder and can arrive at the meeting with the director of the potential merging company on time," eye contact locked in place, you recited every word robotically before ending your sentence with a smile. The question was rhetoric as he folded his arms over his chest, a brow perked up curiously.
"You can terminate me tomorrow, but right now, we have a lot of work to do. You'll regret not having this done now, I assure you," leaning into his desk, you felt your thoughts wander to wanting to curse every hair on his head, every surface area of his skin, his parents should have been cursed, his grandparents, his ancestors that lingered within his genetics should be cursed and taint his kin for generations to come.
"...The representative call will only take a few minutes, he's a curt conversationalist, so I wouldn't worry about rescheduling either of those meetings. Leave it."
"Thank you."
The process continued with mechanic efficiency as you arrived at each flag, receiving clarification for the nuanced citations that you were looking to collect. You were unsure of why he was so difficult and rigid to start, but you managed to get the information you needed without missing the time of departure that you two needed to adhere to as so not to be late for the merger meeting. Standing at the front of the building in search of the company car you had instructed the reception to call for, you directed yourself and Mr. Im towards the sleek foreign automobile, door held open by the driver. You insisted for the passenger seat but was denied due to "company policy", much to your distaste, as you sat as far away from the CEO as you possibly could.
Rather than clean up his mess, he unceremoniously gripped your hip before swiftly flipping you over — the buoyant material capturing you with Newton's force as you settled — the residue of his climax melting into the sheets as you hissed and shot him a look over your shoulder, "You're disgusting—"
To your surprise — and horror? — you could tell he was still semi-hard and the way he grasped your thighs to drag you closer to him confirmed that he was continuing without question, "Are you still hard?"
It's really just an observation, and he knows that too, but he nods, "Uh huh."
The shock that traveled warp and weft up the nerves that intwined your spine earned him the symphonic moan he was starting to be pleased with, your back arching as you felt the dulled stretch of his cock reenter you. You couldn't figure out how to breathe without feeling like you were going to cum again, shallowly attempting not to fidget as he agonizingly pressed every inch into you. As his fingers ghosted up your torso and onto your breast, you were tempted to lift yourself up and away as his thumb and index went to twist at your already sore nipples — erect for the entirety of when he first fucked you. Squirming your hips against him, the right side of your face pressed into the mattress, you could barely utter a noise as he suddenly began creating a pace once more. The amount of overstimulation had you listening to your heavy breathing in an almost anxious pattern, Jaebeom spreading you from behind as you heard — and felt — his warm saliva drip down your ass and over his cock as it entered you.
"Slow down," you moaned, shivering as he managed to find the exact location that caused you to even unravel the first time. As the arrogant imp he was, he responded with the same words you had used on him earlier that day, "You can say anything you like, that doesn't mean that's how things work."
With that, he bit down on his lip before slamming his hips right into yours, causing you to choke up as your vision further blurred into a galaxy of exposed peppered lights. You whined in pleasure as he repeated this same technique over and over and over, the sudden impacts were so gratifying you didn't even realize how quickly your next orgasm crept up on you until all you could do was gasp, feeling the sudden release as your ears went mute — the lack of oxygen cutting into your passageway even without his hand on your throat.
Growling at the feeling of how hard you clenched around him, he managed his composure as he groaned out in exasperation, "Already?"
Yes already, your chest heaved as you felt your body wash over with soreness and delight while Jaebeom kept thrusting into you. Shivering, you felt his fingers find their way back to your swollen clit as he rotated his middle finger against your overstimulated bundle of nerves, "S-Stop!"
Of course, he ignored you. Burying your face into the feather stuffed pillows, you cursed as you felt your eyes well up from the immense pleasure, a descent down to a labyrinth you had never explored even on your own. You swore you were going to black out if Jaebeom didn't hurry and finish, your hips quivering and threatening to fall flat without the iron grip his fingers had. Leaning forward, he pressed his chin into your shoulder before nudging his nose into your neck, "I'd think you were falling asleep if you weren't so fucking noisy."
The way he spoke into the bowl of your ear, dousing his warm breath against your hair matted skin, forced you to melt closer into him to your disdain. Reclining back without warning, he hoisted you up with your back against his broad chest, "Fuck you." It was honestly all you could manage as you hiccuped through his sharp thrusts, moaning and hooking your free arm around his neck to balance yourself against him.
"You are, don't get too ahead of yourself."
Much to your surprise, you realized internally that both you and Mr. Im had assumed the worst with the new work colleague situation and were pleasantly met with competence and preparation on both ends. Despite his horrible attitude towards you, his temperament towards other business partners and clients surfaced as mild mannered with a tasteful personality; it honestly felt like you were observing an entirely different species — as if the moment you exited the car together and entered the new building it had garnered some sort of genetic mutation at that very moment which rendered his origins slack. Suddenly he was the new overseeing CEO, Mr. Im, and he created such grace in a room you hardly believed he wasn’t body swapped when you had been looking down at the business card you received or pressing a button for your floor in the elevator. It didn’t, however, fool you into thinking otherwise of his prior behavior — he was still a menace — but you hoped that the well showered compliments and kindness from the opposing party’s head of the hierarchy that were poured over you as an administrative lead proposed at least some doubt if he were still pondering to terminate you.
“And to think she’s here on her first day,” the conversation was rerouted to you suddenly as everyone wrapped up their finalized closing comments. Clicking your pen to return its nib, you gave a humble smile before bowing your head forward, “It’s been a pleasure and a very special opportunity granted to me.”
These were business lies, but what was new in the superficial world created by massive empty headed moguls who were puppeteers amongst their greatest talent? Prepared to give your final exit and head home to wash away this nightmare, you were held steady by Mr. Shin — the director who was initiating the merger — as his expression seemed to have some sort of excitement zip past it, an impression of exuberance you weren’t quite sure how to place. Vocalizing your last name, he continued, “You and Mr. Im have nothing else after this, right?”
No, but I want to head home and drown in my bath tub and maybe a glass of pinot noir.
“No sir, we do not.”
“Please join me for a drink! We should celebrate your first day.”
What a pitiful and pathetic excuse to create faux harmonious feelings with Mr. Im — though you respected his decision as not to completely accept the terms that were laid in front of you today — this was a redundant way of creating an even longer appeal that could possibly only infuse tension. Parting your lips to politely reject the offer, you felt Mr. Im suddenly cut into your response, “Honestly we’re both rather busy.”
Though a paraphrased version of these words were on your tongue, you couldn’t help but be annoyed because for the past three or so hours, all you did was watch someone who had the highest level of social awareness and emotional intelligence communicate flawlessly amongst a room of stiff business men and yet he could not spare you? You simply nodded in agreement as Mr. Shin frowned, “Nonsense! There is always time for a drink.”
Stealing a peek at Mr. Im, your lungs almost burst as you suppressed them from your laughter — his jaw clenched in frustration. Instead, to appeal to the devil’s advocate, you decided to fuck with him, “We’d love to attend, did you have a place in mind, Mr. Shin?”
You may have been socially exhausted but if you were going to be executed, you weren’t going alone. Again with the saccharine grin, you beamed at your CEO as you watched a flurry of rage shutter through his eyes — only for a moment — before his polite demeanor resurfaced, “…Yes of course.”
Silent through dinner, as you had expected, the conversations furthered to delve into the hearty relation of the two conglomerate leaders. You were a good listener, most of the time, and especially now since you wanted nothing more but to be home. You learned that Mr. Im was named Jaebeom, that he was likely going to die alone with his cats — he had five — in his vague description of the neighborhood he resided it, which only made you assume he was private. You also learned he held concurrent degrees in international business and economics, both furthered in graduate school from — against your better beliefs — full scholarships. You also learned his stepfather seemed a saint, taking in his single mother and him, no questions asked and full of love.
“What year were you born?”
“1994,” the polite reply had you suddenly choking on your sip of soju. Mr. Im turned to you with fake concern as you held a hand up, “My apologies.”
“Not great at handling your liquor huh?” Mr. Shin commented, another misogynist’s proverbial response, as you smiled and shook your head, “Oh no, I just assumed our CEO was younger.”
It sounded like an insult and you intend it to be in some ways, but you weren’t lying, you did think he was younger than yourself. Jaebeom narrowed his eyes at you but the feigned smile seemed to hide his sinister expression, “Now why would you think that?”
“No reason in particular.”
You also learned that, even though you were not anywhere near on good terms with Mr. Im, he did hold some mercy for you. After the director’s comment about your alcohol consumption, which was wrong but regardless, he began catching your pours — despite the fact you were watching him grow exhausted, dehydrated, and inevitably drunk. You assume it was for appearances but were thankful nonetheless since your haze was finally starting to let up, and the sobering process had started. After several hours of banter, you finally bid your goodbyes with one another before starting towards the station. You were hoping to catch the last train before the rails shut down for the night. Not without a shadow, however, Mr. Im quietly following behind you as he shot off unsolicited comments, “Not sure why he had to make an excuse to give you a welcoming party.”
You simply rolled your eyes as you scanned your card against the sensor to a nearly empty station. Hearing the dim “beep” behind you, you wondered why he couldn’t have just taken a taxi. Shuffling down the steps, you wanted to get as far away from the tower figure stalking you. Too bad he was a giant lump of matter that traveled at twice your pace, “Maybe this was more of a goodbye party.”
Oh so he was still on the termination thing, right*. Rolling your eyes again, you sat down on one of the empty seat slots as he plopped down beside you, “The station is empty and there’s so many other chairs can’t you sit somewhere else?” Hissing at him, he turned to you as his eyes seemed to search for something that wasn’t there and simply laughed before looking towards the empty rails in silence.
“…You sure don’t act like you were born in ‘94,” scoffing you stood up and attempted to find another seat a row down before his reflexes seemed to show they were completely in tact, fingers shackled your wrist with contempt, “And what’s that supposed to mean.”
“That you act like a brat,” retorting at him you shook your arm in an attempt to get free as he yanked you over. Yelping, you tripped towards him with a frown, “I’m surprised you say that.”
The feigned expression of hurt wanted to make you dry heave as you stood in front of him, arm limp in his hold. Another sudden unsolicited comment fell through his lips as his eyes dilated in a different way than they had when you had entered his office unannounced earlier that day, “…You smell nice.”
Disgusted, your expression contorted when you felt his thumb gently glide over your wrist. However, you were afraid to snatch your hand away in fear his reflexes would yank you back even harder. You stood, instead, stoic as you stared at him incredulously and praying for the chugging wheels of a train to appear and allow you to depart. There wasn’t more you could possibly endure, you think, but you were met with yet another surprise as your looked down, horrified, to find your CEO’s stepson really had to have been born some years more recent as he had his hormones on full display.
“…Mr. Im, please let me go.”
“Mm…” his voice rattled quietly, but you could tell he had sobered up already — entirely annoying for his own benefit — as his fingers continued to clasp your wrist in his hold.
This was the most vile man you had ever encountered — which said a lot when you were nearly always in male dominated environments — and he seemed to know and fully understand that. There was something so infuriating and rage filling as the spaces even in the depths of your being could not fathom, encasing a frustration that knocked through your caged silence that finally caused your outburst, “Why the fuck is your dick hard you pervert, let me go!” As you wailed in the empty station, there’s a moment of confusion that winded over Jaebeom’s face. It’s as if he was missing some pieces to your claim, and when he realized and really understood what you were concerned about — and you can tell — he flushed with embarrassment. Suddenly, for the first time today, he was bowing and profusely apologizing.
It was a nice sight but didn’t change the fact that you were absolutely petrified that this towering man, after everything he put you through, was visibly hard in a public space with you. Exhaling as a sense of release however, that he acknowledged his crimes, you began to step away before hearing some mumbled reasonings that were beyond you. Even Jaebeom wasn’t quite sure why he began spouting them, “I have trouble around women, so it wasn’t you in particular. I’m so sorry I gave you a hard time, but I thought it may have been different because I spent most of the day in your company—”
“…You have trouble around women?” Hard to believe when the entirety of the female population at main branch’s office was ready to sit up on his desk and spread for their new CEO — not that you were eavesdropping, but you heard a lot of chatter before and after you were transferred. When you repeat his claim, you realize immediately that he wasn’t bluffing and that his shame grows apparent. It is the first time you see the expression of guilt and defeat as his features revert to an even more childlike demeanor.
The train finally arrived, the little chime playing in the speakers and echoing through the surfaces as you stand silently awaiting his explanation, ignoring the last departure. The contemplation that riddled his face seemed to go between completely discarding everything he mentioned to simply being honest, “…Yes.”
“In what way?”
Knitting his brows together, he seemed to be unable to tongue out the words he wanted to use to properly articulate himself without seeming more like a pervert, “In a traumatic way.”
You practically snorted at the excuse before rolling your eyes, it seemed like some pathetic way to weasel out of the fact that he was some sick fuck but by the way he was speaking, perhaps it wasn’t? This wasn’t some glorified explanation but rather a sacred and honest confession held in a booth, between two strangers. You wanted to trust him, truly, but he made sure you shouldn't have after his performative gestures today. Hesitation filled his dreaded voice as he surrendered, “…I really struggle interacting with women in general—”
“And you really expect me to believe that when there are women in our office?”
“I try to avoid them, and it’s why I requested a male secretary in particular.”
For some strange reason, this suddenly made sense and somewhere deep in a crevice that was lost in the galaxy of your being, you felt a sense of pity, “…I see.” But it was somewhere really, really, deep.
“I spent most of the day sitting beside you, entirely focusing on keeping you as more of a fragment of my imagination rather than an actual person,” this seemed insulting out of context, but you continued to listen, “so I assumed it would have been fine to interact with you since we were talking normally at the meeting and dinner.”
The tone in his voice turned shy, but not because he was finding a scape goat to protect his actions rather, because he was disappointed in the resulting outcome from the lack of experience and unstable accuracy brought him. Gently dragging your eyes down his figure, seeing the still apparent source of your horror which made chills infect you, you snapped out of your pity filled daze when security requested that the two of you leave the station as they were closing up for the night. Shoving your portfolio case at him, you gesture for him to shield his eyesore of an erection as you exited the station with him silently. The awkward steps onto the empty sidewalk had you searching for a solution in the cracks on the concrete, as you often found yourself attempting. The curse of being an instrumental communicator. An unlikely scenario came to mind but you decided to wait on that particular weighing before offering Mr. Im to share a cab.
“It’s late shouldn’t we head home?”
The erratic pace hinted to you that he was getting close, sloppy and lacking purpose or precision, even his skilled finger against your clit began apply just a bit too much pleasure as you doubled over and realized the blinding release that seeped down your thighs in a snapping constriction, "Jaebeom please." You had never heard yourself beg so wantonly as you squirmed to get your hips away from him.
Twenty minutes pass and not a single car — let alone a cab — passed the road in sight. It was a normally, busy, street filled with commuters and yet not a single soul graced your line of vision. A few feet away stood your very uncomfortable CEO, marked with shame as he awkwardly held your portfolio in front of him while he messaged several drivers to see if any of them were free and awake to give both of you a ride back to your homes. You wanted to commend yourself for the amount of pity you were able to have for such a vile human being, but you remind yourself exhaustion and the lingering taste of alcohol were rendering you soft.
"Any luck?"
"None," turning the screen of his mobile towards you, your eyes skimmed the little "1" besides all the unread, repeated messages.
"...Fifteen minute grace period, right?" You were referring to the time frame of most appointments before finding a bench and dropping your weight onto it. Jaebeom sat beside you quietly, staring at the screen of his phone, as if he could control the actions of the message receivers with his mind through sheer concentration.
For the first time all day, the silence felt less like viscous tar strung between you but as if you were swimming in honey besides someone you may have been misunderstanding due to misconstrued circumstances, "...You said you had some trauma?"
"That's really not something I think I want to share right now," the mumbling filled his mouth through a sigh as he stared off at the brightly outlined skyline in the distance, creating a fake horizon amongst the navy light polluted sky. Pursing your lips, you nodded quietly before following with a sigh of your own, "...I appreciate your honesty, at least."
"Yours too."
If you weren't exhausted, you might have been able to offer a better laugh, "So are you still going to fire me?"
"Depends."
"On what?"
"Are you going to blackmail me?" Jaebeom tipped his head back to capture more of the sky before lazily dropping his head to look over at you. Returning his gaze, you furrowed your brows in confusion, "For what?"
"Sexual harassment." It took a moment for you to connect what he was referring to before you burst into laughter, still hoarse and not quite as strong as you could have emitted, "...You know, I don't think you're lying for some reason."
"I wasn't."
"Yeah, so I'll let it slide," you pause before snorting.
The silence consumed the night as you checked your watch, before Jaebeom's voice broke through once more, "You did good today."
"Thank y—"
"For a secretary," you rolled your eyes as he ruined the compliment, frustrating you, "You know I was an operations manager."
"You sure are proud to tell me you got demoted." Absolutely awestruck, you felt the relaxation that had entered your body moments ago turn back into frustration. On a whim, one you probably would have never dared to attempt had the situation been different and you weren't so exasperated and absolutely annihilated from the day's events, you took your fist and slammed it into the portfolio that was sitting on Jaebeom's lap. Absolutely breathless, he choked out violently before glaring at you with seething anger.
"I didn't, I was forced to transfer to teach you how to do your job, to help you."
"You're not doing a very good job at it," rolling his eyes, voice still strained from the pressure and soreness you offered his condition you smiled triumphantly, "Says who?"
"From my experience, good employees don't go around punching superiors in the groin."
"We're even now."
"This wasn't sexual harassment, it was battery," deadpanning, he checked his phone again. Rather than ask if he got a response, you hear another echoed sigh that signaled you both probably weren't going anywhere anytime soon.
"...So do you just get erect whenever you're around women?"
"Why do you keep bringing this up?"
"It's kind of funny, it's like the opposite of erectile dysfunction right?" It's the first time he looks mortified, pale, when he looked at you and the way you phrased his condition. The stiffness in his body hints that you're probably right on the money, "Let me guess, you probably went to dozens of doctors and medical professionals and they say it's probably a psychological thing that has manifested into your physiological response."
Silence.
"So, because you think you're a big strong man," cooing at him, you pouted your lips to sear into him deeper with your taunts, "you've been warding off confronting your trauma of women and through sheer willpower, avoid them. But every once and while, there's something like this, and you decide to act like an unbearable prick so you can pretend women don't exist."
The way you've read into him has him absolutely speechless, vulnerable, and frustrated that you were able to peel back his layers so easily and swiftly from just a few focused interactions alone. There is nothing he can offer back to rebuttal and salvage the very little of what his pride had left. Instead, he sat quietly and gripped his phone, the glazed over expression on his face indicating he was no longer listening but he wasn't thinking of anything in particular either. You were still human so in some ways, this caused an induced amount of guilt to wash over you, "...Have you ever tried to fix it."
"Of course."
"How?"
"I tried to interact normally with women, naturally," nodding slow, you mirrored his gesture in understanding before fidgeting with the chiffon material of your dress, "And that didn't work out?"
"Not really," he laughed bitterly.
"...Do you think I can help you?" You convince yourself it's an instrumental solution, it's something you want to think is part of your job. The thing you were good at, you know, and the thing he took the severest blow in belittling you about. Maybe part of it even involved spite.
"I don't know, can you?" Rolling his eyes, he stared at you in disbelief before you nudged yourself closer on the bench beside him, risking a lot more than you could have imagined, "I'll only tell you once, Mr. Im, but I'm very good at my job."
Peering down at your watch, you point it towards him, "Fifteen minutes are up."
"Why? Don't you wanna cum?" He used a taunting tone, again repeating something you had uttered earlier. Almost regretful, your ears became even more dull as he roughly pulled out while you winced, being forced onto your back as he hooked his hands beneath your knees. What was the result of this man's stamina and why was he able to fuck this long? Rolling your head back in surrender, you no longer attempted to swallow your noises as he reentered — hopefully for the last time — slowly rowing his hips back and forth as your toes curled, feeling the sensation of your circulation lapsing through your extremities. It takes only a few gently pushes, and he pulls out before finishing on your chest for the last time.
He's lost all his focus, and in a shitty attempt to regain it, he leaned forward to press his forehead to yours — lips ghosting near and swallowing your curses. As you feel his weight pull closer, you placed your palm over his mouth, "...Don't."
This was only work, and like every precise decision you ever made, every experiment you were — you made sure to do everything well.
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Jaein sat on the bar chairs and bounced her feet up and down as she watched the hour passing by. Two hours never felt so long.
When she was younger, and people would ask her about growing up and having her family, Jaein never denied that was a possible reality to her. 'Maybe’, she'd say. But she never, ever, thought it'd happen so fast.
How was she supposed to do with her career? How are the fans going to react? Somehow all those doubts were gone once she had the results on her hands.
It all started when Jaein realised she was a week late, as she takes a lot of pills to postpone or anticipate her period, Jaein didn't take that as a sign of a human was growing inside her. But then, a week turned into two, and then three, and then a month, and she decided to take a pregnancy test to make sure it was just her hormones.
Positive. That's what the doctor told her hours ago. A soon as she left the doctor's clinic, she gave Jaebeom a quick call, saying they needed to talk. He said he'd be home as soon as he finished the meeting, and there she was.
If it was in any other circumstance, Jaein would consider interrupting this pregnancy. She was young, at the climax of her career, Jaebeom was living the time of his life. Why put a baby in the middle of this? But, coming back to their shared apartment, she pictured a baby in this big penthouse, running and laughing around. She could raise that baby alone if Jaebeom didn't want it, but she wasn't strong enough to end it.
"I'm home!"
Jaebeom's voice echoed through the living room, making her heart stop, and she inconsequentially started crying, hugging the small box with the exam inside. Hearing some low 'meowls', she was sure he stopped halfway to give the cats some attention.
As his steps got louder and closer, Jaein cried even more. It was now or never. When he saw Jaein sitting on the bar, his sweet smile faded into a worried expression.
"Jaein?" he kindly said, placing Nora on the floor before walking over to Jaein. He brought her closer to his chest, and she hugged his waist. "Hey... What happened?"
Jaein took her time there, feeling him closer as if it was the last time because it could probably be. Jaebeom stood there, caressing her hair and letting her cry as much as she wanted, although he couldn't completely understand why.
"I'm sorry. I'm so sorry..." Jaein started mumbling against his shirt, and that was when he got even more confused. She seemed just fine when they talked a couple of hours ago. "I don't want to lose you."
"Anne," he called her attention, bringing her head up with his hand under her chin. "just calm down. I'm not going anywhere."
Jaein shook her head. Unable to do much, she just took the box and showed him, but he placed it back on the bar counter, sitting on the chair next to her.
"Jaein, what is going on?" Jaebeom asked, holding her hands. "I need you to talk to me. Do you want me to call someone?"
"No..." she sobbed. Trying to calm herself down, she cleared some tears that insisted on falling. Once she was calmer, she took the box and handed it to Jaebeom again. "Open it, please."
Still concerned but more worried about her situation, Jaebeom opened it anyway. Of all the things, he couldn't imagine anything inside that box that would make Jaein react like that. Even if he didn't know what was inside, his eyes started tearing up.
He took the papers first and then a stick. Well, at least he thought that was just a stick until he completely looked at it. It was a home pregnancy test. In the results, it had 'pregnant' written. Shocked, Jaebeom looked at the test, and then at Jaein, and then at the test again.
"I-Is this... yours?" he whispered, feeling his voice stuck on his throat.
"Yes." Jaein nodded, starting to cry again. "I took it today."
"Are you pregnant? Like, for real?" he asked again, now looking directly at her. "This isn't one of those pranks, right? There's a mini us growing inside you?"
Jaein gave him a weak laugh but still nodded, confirming the last question.
"Yes, babe. I'm pregnant." she said, sobbing.
Jaebeom literally threw the box away and suddenly got up, lifting and hugging Jaein, surprising her. She had to link her legs behind his waist not to fall. He started laughing with a mix of crying, and she did the same.
"I can't believe it!" he exclaimed, kissing her but then hugging her again. "You are pregnant. That’s the best Christmas gift ever!"
Suddenly, a guilty feeling hit Jaein, and she started crying again. How could she ever think Jaebeom would leave her? When he noticed she was crying, he stopped celebrating and looked at her.
"Why are you crying?" he softly asked, sitting her back on the chair. "Aren't you happy?"
"I am!" she interrupted him, cleaning her tears. "It's just that... What do we do now?"
"About what?" he asked, caressing her arm, trying to make her feel safe.
"About everything." she chuckled. "Our careers, our companies, the fans..."
"Jaein, this isn't about them." Jaebeom held her hand. "This is about us and what we want. You've been working for more than half of your life, nonstop. I've been working since my adolescence. We deserve to have a healthy and happy family."
"But you just started your solo career..." Jaein tried to debate.
"And so did you." he pointed out. "But this," he placed a hand on Jaein's belly. "it's not about our career. It's about our love. If you want this, we'll raise this baby with a lot of love."
"Babies cost a lot of money." Jaein pouted. "They cry all day, and I'll look awful."
Jaebeom looked at her for a while, waiting to see if she was joking or not. When he realised she was talking serious, he laughed out loud. He brought Jaein closer and hugged her again.
"I don't think any of these things are true." he mumbled, kissing the top of her head. "Now, let's take a bath and relax." he said, helping her to get up. "Tomorrow, if you feel calmer and ready, we'll tell the companies and our families. Is that okay?"
Jade nodded, closing her eyes as he placed a kiss on her cheek. Before she opened them, he was fast enough to hold her in a bridal style, making Jaein laugh.
"What are you doing?" she asked, chuckling.
"You'll get easily tired from now. Let's save some energy." Jaebeom replied, winking at her. Jaein lightly slapped his biceps, understanding the double meaning of his phrase.
A/N: This involves fem!reader topping to try out a new kink (pegging) with JayB. If any of that doesn’t sound like your cup of tea, feel free to keep scrolling. If it interests you then wonderful, please enjoy!
You entered your bedroom, where JayB was relaxing on the bed reading, slightly nervous to start the conversation you wanted to have.
"Jaebeom?" you said as you knelt on the bed beside him, hands clasped in your lap.
He held up a finger, asking you to wait while he finished what he was reading, a signal you were used to now that you lived with your bookworm of a boyfriend.
"Ok, what's up?" he asked, as he tucked his bookmark back in his book.
"Well, you know how we agreed that if we wanted to try anything new out, like, sexually, we would be open with each other about it?"
JayB sat himself further up at your words, suddenly very interested in where this conversation was going.
"I know, normally, you dom and that's fine, but I bought a new toy and I wanted to try it out on you."
He couldn't quite decide whether your words made him excited or apprehensive.
"What kind of toy?" he asked, hesitantly.
"A strap-on."
JayB's eyes went wide at your blunt delivery.
"I've heard that it actually gives the guy more pleasure than just normal sex," you continued quickly, "And if I'm honest the thought of giving you an orgasm that intense and just watching you blissed out beneath me and because of me is really turning me on."
Suddenly, JayB's lips were pressed against yours as his hands tugged you closer by the waist.
"I take it that's a yes," you chuckled.
"I'm worried you're going to realise how much fun domming is and try to take over more often, but yes, let's try it," he smiled at you.
"Like, now?" you asked.
JayB chuckled, "Well, I sure hope you're planning on doing it now, because you can't go getting me all excited like that and expect me to go back to reading."
"I'm pleased you like the sound of it too," you told him, your voice low and sultry now. "You strip, I'll get the stuff."
You stripped yourself, before grabbing the toy and some lube. When you turned back to your boyfriend, he was naked, laying back on the bed, already hardening at the thought of what was about to happen. Securing the strap-on around your hips you climbed on to the bed, your hands hooking under JayB's knees causing him to bend his legs, his feet now planted flat against the mattress.
"Are you sure you're OK with this?" you asked once more, wanting to ensure he was comfortable and happy with what was about to happen.
He nodded. "I'm curious, I need to know how it feels. If it's not good I'll tell you. Same safe word as normal," he confirmed.
You smiled at him, placing the lube on the bed beside you. Once again, you grabbed his knees, pushing them up to his chest, positioning the both of you so that you had better access to him.
"Keep your legs up," you told him, and as you moved your hands away, his replaced them.
Grabbing the lube again, you flipped it open and squeezed it out straight on to JayB, your fingers catching it before it reached the sheets beneath him.
With your eyes trained carefully on his face to make sure you never pushed too far, you slowly push one of your now lubricated fingers into him. You watched his expression as he adjusted to the unfamiliar sensation, his breath catching in his throat as he swallowed deeply, eyes making contact with yours. Once he began breathing in a normal rhythm again, you took it as a good sign and began to move your finger in and out of him, twisting and bending it slightly to experiment with different angles.
When JayB started to move his hips into you, you spoke, "More?"
"Please," he breathed out.
You obliged by adding another finger, stilling for a moment while he adjusted to the stretch.
"Ok," he told you, once he felt comfortable.
Once again you started to move your fingers in and out of him, gradually pushing deeper. You continued your motions for a while, the last thing you wanted to do was end up hurting JayB or making him uncomfortable, when he suddenly let out a loud whimper. You'd never heard him make a sound like it, and you couldn't deny how much it aroused you.
"Did that feel good, baby?" you asked him, moving your fingers to stroke the same point inside him.
"Yes- oh God- so good," he moaned out beneath you, head thrown back into the pillow.
With his neck so exposed, you couldn't resist the urge to lean forward and kiss your way up his chest, neck, jaw, finally connecting your lips to his. As he relaxed into the moment, you slowly added a third finger to stretch him out enough to be comfortable with the strap-on.
"Babe," he mumbled against your lips.
You paused your movements in case he wanted you to slow down or stop completely.
"Touch me?"
You smiled as you pulled back to your previous position.
"Anything for you, my handsome prince."
You quickly added some lube to your other hand, before reaching for his length. He began to whine again as you stroked him slowly, in time with the movements of your fingers.
You could tell JayB was getting more and more comfortable with the situation; his eyes fluttered closed and you noticed his grip on his legs loosen.
"You ready for the toy now?"
"Hmm, please."
You let out a low laugh, amazed at how much he was enjoying himself already. He'd had a point; you were really enjoying being in charge for a change.
Pulling your hands away, you stroked the strap-on, before adding some extra lube. Running your hand up and down the length of it, you spread the lube along it, causing JayB to adjust himself on the bed as the sight turned him on even more.
"I'll go slow but tell me if you need me to stop for a bit, OK?" you told him.
He simply nodded vigorously, biting at his lower lip.
You lined up at his entrance, then leant forward over him, his legs now resting on your shoulders, freeing up his hands. You began edging your hips forward little by little. He let out small gasps every so often causing you to stop until he was comfortable, when you would start moving again. Once he had fully adjusted to the sensation you began to move your hips. As you fell into a steady rhythm, you leant down, pressing a passionate kiss to his lips. One of his hands came up to tangle in your hair while the other snaked between you to pleasure himself, picking up where you had left off.
Suddenly, a loud moan emitted from your boyfriend, causing you to smirk down at him.
"Did I find your sweet spot again?" you asked even though you clearly already knew the answer.
JayB was always an incredibly attractive man, but looking down at him now, naked, panting, face screwed up in pleasure, was the most arousing sight you'd ever had the joy of witnessing. The combination of the view and his sinful moans spurred you on, your hips rolling into him.
Once you'd worked out the perfect angle to thrust at, your boyfriend was a writhing, whimpering mess under you.
"I w-hmm, won't last... much longer," he panted, one fist balled up in the sheets beneath him while the other continued to stroke himself.
"That's OK," you told him softly, "Whenever your ready, just let go."
Despite the sinful thoughts in your head about how hot it would be to deny him his orgasm while he is this blissed out, it was the first time so you wanted to be considerate. If he enjoyed this and wanted to try it again, you had many plans on how to tease him and torture him.
With some more load moans, interrupted only by a few muttered curses, JayB came. You slowed your hips gradually to a stop in time with his hand.
As you pulled out, you gently lower his legs back to the bed.
"Just wait there, baby, I'll be right back," you told him as you stood, removed the toy and ran to the bathroom for something to clean him up with.
When you got back, you found him exactly where you him, one arm draped over his closed eyes, chest still rapidly rising and falling.
You started to clean off his abs, having also quickly wiped yourself down in the bathroom after how much mess he made.
"Thank you so much for indulging me," you said as you finished.
The hand that had been lying limply at his side now reached out for you. Obliging him you laid down beside him, reaching up to move his arm away from his face before stroking his cheek.
"Are you OK?" you asked him.
He hummed happily.
"I'm gonna need some actual words here, Jae," you laughed. "Are you OK?"
"Yeah," he breathed out. "That was intense."
"In a good way, I hope."
"In the best way," he told you, cupping your face and pulling you in to a tender kiss. "But now I think I need an aftercare massage and then a hot bath and cuddles with my best girl."
"As you long as you mean me, not Nora, you've got it."
"Yeah, I don't think Nora would appreciate a bath."
You laughed at his words before sitting up and letting him roll over so you could give him the requested massage.