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Depression looming
Always feels like I'm lonely,
Did fuck up somewhere?
Did I leave someone in despair
Drowning in my own sorrow,
Am I going to leave here tomorrow?
Random emotions surface
Then leave me without showing its face.
Loneliness overwhelming
Mind always racing
Overthinking leaves me facing
In and out of a...
Truth...
Or something depressing.
I would fucking love to smoke or even drink right now.
But I cant due to my antidepressants.
Fr like I would love to lay in bed, smoke a bowl and watch some hulu or netflix.
Really I just need some peace and quiet... peace for my soul, and quiet for my mind.
Devouring myself #mood #kindadepressed #guro #feelings https://www.instagram.com/p/B2mvrAEnPSN/?igshid=1xjkac1u8bwgz
do you also have this urge to whine here about your problems, but too afraid and paranoid it might come up one day and everyone will know it’s you. Like someone hacking your profile or smth...
merf.
I’m in a rough spot, what-few-readers-I-have.
It’s bad when you feel more at ease and at peace pretending to be someone you’re not while at work, then you feel at home. Retail-me is chipper and pleasant. Hanging-out-with-friends-me is clever and fun. At-home-me is depressed and forlorn.
It’s also probably bad when you stop wanting to confide in your close friends ‘cause you feel like you’ve tapped them out; you feel like they probably don’t wanna hear the same complaints about the same things that you just can’t seem to get to stop nagging at you, or eating away at you.
I know I have at least one reader who knows me personally, and to them I would like to say, before (I assume) you say I should seek help: I’m planning on it. Soon. I think. Maybe. I’m still talking myself into it, I also need to wait for my insurance.
I... just don’t like how I feel right now. I don’t like the fact that I... sigh... feel how I do about...
Feelings suck,
My goal for this year was to make one friend. About halfway done with the semester and it’s looking rough. Kind of sad that I’m a year and a half into college and I don’t have one friend.
Jeden Tag, bin ich genervter von jedem Tag.
