Entry #32
I’m sorry for always avoiding all the hard conversations where we could’ve addressed the thoughts that makes us crazy and sleepless day and night.
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Entry #32
I’m sorry for always avoiding all the hard conversations where we could’ve addressed the thoughts that makes us crazy and sleepless day and night.
Dear Future Me, this Letter for You
Dear future me, I write this letter to tell you that you worked hard and everything will be okay. Thank you for being you, I love you.
Banyak surat yang pernah kutulis untuk orang lain, teman dekat terutama. Tapi sepertinya aku belum pernah menulis untuk diri sendiri kecuali curhatan di buku diary. Jadi hari ini, selagi aku masih berada di usia seperempat abad, sebelum 25 berganti ke 26, aku…
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Allah
Dear Lord, when they said , Im just hurting a bit they are not really knews me well. When its actually hurt so much . Im not the one who are literally cried in the public , infront of family member and friends but when its happened. there is nothing i can said and just cried.
Dear Lord , thank you for making me stay until now and keep me breathing on your beautiful creation world .
Dear Lord ,thank you for being always with me but only me always forgetten you
Dear Lord , please protect me from heartbroken. When it was broken into the pieces like a broken glass i dont know how to fix it andmaking it on shape perfectly again .
Dear Lord, May all my application will be answer soon because i cant barely stand here anymore. Most of the time when im back home there will be unhappy things happen. Home is always be Home but sometimes Home doesnt being so good to you .
Dear Lord , please taking care my mom , family and friends . I love you them so much .
Dear Lord , please make me more stronger then before . Please make me stop crying and make me forget what i should not remember . If i can bang my head to the wall and that will made me lose my memory. I will .
Dear Lord , i dont know what you had plan for me but i believe that there will be something good . I beileve on YOU .
I see that you don’t want to fall in love anymore, but you can’t. That’s your weakness. I don’t judge you and won’t judge you for whatever you’ve done. You’re free to do whatever you wanna do but always keep in mind that you gotta respect the other one. It must be tough to feel "YOU" happy, but I’m sure one day you’ll realize how dumb you were to think that way about you. Love yourself and treat you well. Only you and your thought will remain until the day you leave this world. Keep the memories of what made you feel good and what made you feel bad as experiences. Everything you’ve done before or what happened to you before is a mark on your life and you’ll be getting more experiences. You’ll be getting love and care from the ones you’ll truly care. Every backstabbing you made or you got is what make you what you are now. Don’t worry, everyone can make bad decisions, everyone can fail. You just gotta stand up and be proud of who you are. No one's gonna love you more than you do. Love yourself and make your environment better for the ones you care. You can have fun, you can be sad. You can cry and laugh. Those feelings are yours and only yours. No one can blame you if you broke a heart or two, you’ve been broken too and so on. Don’t ever let someone let you down, and if so. Make them down. Don’t let them hurt you because you’ve been hurt before and that’s a bad experience. Always remember that you, are of a billion people unique. Every move you do, every word you say, it’s yours. Be yourself and don’t hide your emotions. Be the best person you can be and they’ll treat you same. Of course there will be people who will want to make you feel down but be proud of it because that’s envy. They envy you if you love yourself.
-Cristhian
Dear Cristhian,
I never got the chance to personally thank you for writing this down for me when I told you I had a hard time accepting and loving myself. When I told you I hated myself and I hated my life instead of judging me you wrote this down, and you have no idea how much this means to me. From the bottom of my heart, THANK YOU ❤
A letter to my future self
Dear Mrs. Whomever you are now.... I’m writing to you as your twenty year old self. I would like to start with a couple apologies. I’m sorry for smoking too many cigarettes, drinking all the Dr. Pepper I can get my hands on, and biting my finger nails even when I’m not nervous. But hell, you’re probably still doing all of those things. But I hope you’re not. I hope that you kicked all of those bad habits years ago. Lets say I’m writing to 40 year old me. That’s my life time X 2. I hope you’ve learned to take better care of yourself by now. I hope you have a couple little mini you’s and mini whoever I married. I hope you have a job you don’t dread going to. I hope that you get to go on vacation every summer, and maybe even every Christmas break, I hope you have time to read lots of books. In case you don’t get those things, and you’re actually not very happy (God forbid) we will say that these are my selfish years. These are the years that I only have to worry about myself. These are the years that my biggest worry is how I’m going to do on my final, and if I have enough money to go to that concert thats about to sell out. Because while I’ll believe that happiness is a choice, I will acknowledge that it’s not a guarantee. In which case, my mission is currently to use as much happiness as I can in my twenties. So, don’t be mad at me. Don’t be mad at me if you’re too broke to buy that new purse you wanted because you didn’t save enough money before you had little Emerson. Don’t be mad at me for not going to church this morning, I was too comfy to get out of bed. Don’t be mad at me for doing whats best for me. Because you have the rest of your life to do whats best for others.
Love Miss Sharpknife
A letter for me ☺️☺️☺️☺️
Dear Mine, I’ve been going through so much lately. I haven’t found a lot of reasons to smile, but I want to let you know that whenever I feel like crying and breaking down I think of you and I manage a smile. You make me happy and the thought of you reassures me that everything will be ok. You don’t know how many times I’ve held myself back from crying. As strong as I make myself look, I am weak inside. If there had to be anyone in this world that could always make me smile, it would be you. It would be you because of all the simple things you do in life that make me happy. It’s because your smile makes me smile and the thought of you makes me smile. I don’t know what my life would be like if I didn’t meet you. It would probably be plain and untouched by love. I’d probably end up liking some other person, who of course wouldn’t ever compare to what you mean to me. When I look into your eyes, I see love. I see everything, I see you. I can give you my heart and my love right now and forever. I hope nothing between us will ever change, but if anything had to change, it would be the love I have for you, because it would get stronger everyday. Love, Yours
Dear Tetz,
17 March 2014. Kamusta naman ang 17 March 2015 mo? Well kung tatanungin mo ako, ito bored. Bored sa dami ng ginagawa pero wala pa naman talagang natatapos. So tatanungin kita, ikaw ba dyan gusto mo ba yang ginagawa mo? Baka wala ka naman pinagbabago isang taon na mula ng isula ko to.
Actually, may nagawa at natapos ka na man talaga. Short time goal mo nga lang yun.. ang sama ko diba? Para tawaging LANG ang mga pangarap mo. Para tawaging LANG ang mga bagay na nagawa mo, at para tawaging LANG ang mga pinagmamalaki mo. SORRY naman. #sorrynotsorry
Nandito ako ngayon sa stage na kailangan ko ng panindigan ang mga drawing kong ideya noon. Two years kamo diba? O ayan magdadalawang taon na ako, siguro naman alam ko na. Excited na nga ako sa AKO dyan eh. Nagpapakatino ako ngayon nagiipon, nag-aaral, nagpapayat, kinakapalan ang mukha, nagprprisinta, gumagala with friends, nagbabawas din ng surplus friends-kuno, nagdadag ng real friends, ginagamit ang wifi ng kapitbahay, nagpapalate bukas sa work, magiingay bukas sa work, hindi magOT bukas sa work, maiinis sa specific-isolated-case-na-officemate, pero hindi papansinin si specific-isolated-case-na-officemate, kakain ng tinapay at higit sa lahat, snusulong ko ang world peace.
O ano ba ang masasabi mo sa akin dyan ngayon? May direksyon pa rin naman akong pinaplano, lahat ng ginagawa ko ngayon e para sa ikabubuti mo dyan. Sana matupd na yung dinadasal ko. Para you're living the life we have both been dreaming of a long long long time ago! Haha
PS: MAY BF KA NA BA DYAN? TSK!
#IWishICould
Influenced by a very good friend of mine, (check her out here http://www.findingperfectioninmypride.tumblr.com , she’s awesome!!! \m/) i actually asked her to share a story for my book review because i am such a lazy ass and reading is not my thing but i find joy in writing isn’t that ironic?(hell yea i’m like that) lol and so i choose, Perks of Being a Wallflower, as she was sharing it to me i was like i wanna know the full details so i watched the movie instead of reading (of course). In the movie Charlie said “i want to be a writer but i don’t know what to write about” and Patrick and Sam was trying to say “write about us”.
As a trending topic on twitter “#IWishICould” and obviously can’t express what i’m feeling for 160 characters or less, i suppose i can share my thoughts here.
Bla bla bla i talk a lot but what i just really want to say anyway is that #IWishICould read a write up which speaks about who i really am, how weird i can get and the feeling other people got when they’re with me. I just wanna have someone who would also want to write for me. To say what they think about me, how crazy i am, how moody i can get, how annoying my laugh is, the mannerism i don’t even notice, how distorted i look when i’m mad, shocked, happy, disappointed or simply doing nothing and all the flaws and mistakes i have commited but i want to feel that despite all of these, they still want me in their life.
Aww. #IWishICould, i know this is impossible because who would dare make a story for me? I’m not a senator, a celebrity or a famous writer but this doesn’t stop me of wishing even the impossible ones. Right? This is so much to ask for because this is more than an expensive gift, more than silver and gold. But maybe someday, somehow, somebody will. -DJB