#life check

[medaslife]

so me.

[rainyfestivalsweets]

5/2/25

Haven't been posting much. Haven't had time. And definitely haven't had time for people's opinions, so there is that.

So the sad news is that my weight loss has been pretty stagnant since my last anniversary 😢 I will have to check the numbers but yeah, it has been a year again.

Don't get me wrong- maintaining is a HUGE Win. But I am still in the 190's most days and I am only 5'5".

So I have not been keeping a deficit over time.

Now I know. I am checking that box with no shame and moving on. Here is to the year I turn 45 and hit my elusive goal weight!

It has been a mixed bag and there have been ups and downs. Many of them. But, I keep pulling up those bootstraps and moving on.

There have been many wins!

Unboxed and started using my walking pad

Learning to eat to satiety not overstuft

Continually tweaking of problem areas

Started Jiu Jitsu

Started biking outdoors again

Started running! Mufaka whut?!

Stayed employeed

Mom is still kicking

House is still standing

Started watching tiktok

Started Pokemon again! Great for extra walking but sucky for other activities because nothing else counts for much.

Not wins-

Used to workout more. A lot more.

Tired often, even tho I keep trying for earlier bedtime

Still struggle with night eating

Still struggle with afternoon snacking

Stopped my conqueror challenges, which was really supporting lots of biking & elliptical miles

Here was my latest meal:

Afterwards I did a Listerine strip. Which I knew about 20+ years ago. Why have I not been using them?

All right you hawt bitch. Let's go!

Time to level up!

You have done a great job making aire your lifestyle is sustainable over time. Let's GOOOO!

[hardtobethebardbitch]

Who doesn’t love drinking hot chocolate in 70 degree weather while watching Spy X Family for the fifth time

[theredconversegirl]

~2024 Update

Hello my dear 🍅🌸 friends,

I hope you all had a great 2023 and happy 2024! ✨

It’s been so long - just over a year, I know. 😲 I miss you and being here a lot. I’m still fighting more battles than I can handle, but while fighting them, I realized that I also deserve some small mercies. 🥰

I love reading, I love SS, I love writing, and I love helping you guys, so while I’m not fully back here or active every day like I used to, I’ll start to indulge in small visits here and there. 🥳

I don’t want to create any expectative or promise anything that I can’t deliver, so I created a FAQ page to address common questions, and to outline my plans for sharing content in future interactions.

I tried to be honest with myself as I wrote the page. Essentially, it covers questions about Asks, Reading/Writing, and what I can do online now without overwhelming myself and my life (health/family/work). 🙏😅

You can check it here: FAQ 💬

I've also updated our beloved MASTERPOST. There were a few broken links that weren't opening in the app. And I changed the blurb on the top with current info.😉

Besides this quick update, I wanted to thank everyone for sticking around and for all the kind messages sent my way. 🤗 You guys are awesome! You all make my day and warm my heart with your kindness. 🥰 I really appreciate all of you, thank you so much!! ❤️

I hope everyone has a great week, sending lots of love! 💕

Stay Safe,

xoxo

[flopsystarz]

Look, do you know how it feel to have yrs of hard work, put many things and ppl you love aside, be out in the hottest of days and coldest of nights, all that shit amount to NOTHING.

Lazyflo Rants

What am I talking you might be saying? Well, yesterday I found out that I'm back to the weight that I was like 2 years ago. As in, overweight. I was like 160 lbs about a month and half ago. Seeing all that progress go to waste has had me maldinggggg. But I realize that I have dropped the ball in life 2 months ago.

This kinda was a wake up call to get back to taking care of myself for that I have severely lacked of. I think that's why I began to hate myself again. Just felt miserable with myself and being. Hopefully I'm able to keep to my word to do better for myself. Bc in order to love others, one has to love themselves first.

In Love?

Love is so beautiful. But sometimes I don't understand it. Is it love at all even? I wish I could explain my situation with my love life but obviously it's of private matters. But to explain it to best of my ability, do I truly love the person I'm with, or am I just desperate to keep someone, just anyone, close to my heart?

All I want is to give my love to someone and be loved back. Am I perhaps too young to understand? Maybe blinded by lust? Have low confidence in myself? Or is it them that's the problem? I just wanna be happy and share my happiness with someone else.

To embrace our flaws and perfections. Be the reason to continue living. Share our feelings of defeat and victory. To love unconditionally. To tag along each other when lost in our paths. To... go to an arcade and win a Pac-Man plush outta a claw machine.

Does love die?

Again, love is so precious and beautiful, but could it last long? I've fallen in and out love with many ppl. Why is that? It's like a candle in me burns out. It all just becomes dark and I can't feel a thing. And I've seriously considered to just give up completely. I just can't keep going in this cycle of being enamored and have the will to do anything! To just end up feeling hopeless for myself.

Idk what to do. I don't know if I even care at this moment. Love is hard. And love changes.

Conclusion

I wanna do my best in being happy and confident with myself. I wanna show true love and be shown true love back. Or maybe I don't.

[caffeinated-coffee-bean]

I’ve been seeing a suspicious amount of things mentioning Frank Welker lately. So much that I had to make sure he was still alive.

For those of you who have no idea who this guy is he voiced Fred and Scooby-Doo.

[yeahthatsclassic]

Current events

Not usually one to post like this but a quick vent on personal feelings:

• So my bf (the artist) broke up with me like 2 - 3 months ago but we still talk a lot & it super fucks with my head but I know it’s just not gonna happen again I guess, so I’m working on moving forward and talking to other people.

• So now Ive been talking to this new guy the last few weeks and idk dude, I am digging him For Real. Something about this guy (the producer) is so easy and sweet and warm and simple and comforting and good.

• Anyways he sent me flowers at my job and I nearly cried simply because in the past few weeks this boy has done more / been sweeter + most caring than my last ever really was throughout that entire 1.5 yr relationship.

•• And idk, that just means a lot to me 💭