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striae the people want to know 🎤 your hope and enjoyment is so high. how do u do it

are you the same microphone anon that sent me an ask a few months ago? i think you're very cute and sweet, and also sincere, so i have a very sincere response for you!!! i took your question very seriously and i've been thinking about it kind of non-stop since you sent it in a few days ago, bc leading up to, during, and then after, the australian gp, i've actually been rage-baited sooo easily and you've given me a way to flip that around and make it positive.

at first i drafted a mini-essay breaking down the new regulations on a technical level, explaining my feelings about the different systems, but then i thought that probably wasn't what you meant. i've seen truly egregious misinformation spread on here but a bitchy "you're all wrong this is what the car is really doing" screed isn't the way to counter that. truly it was so bad my gdoc draft was literally titled "STRIAE SCREED".

then, second attempt: me trying to articulate how i've been actively watching formula one seasons starting in 2016, and on the offseasons went back on f1tv and watched every season lewis' raced in + have gone down every list of 'historically important' seasons and watched the ones available on the archive, and how i only joined the fandom/rpf side of f1 six months ago. i tried to contrast these experiences and means of engagement by inventing the concepts 'fandom brain' vs 'sporting brain' and compared them... this went so badly the gdoc got renamed "CONDESCENDING STRIAE SCREED".

my third try at answering the very basic question "how are you hopeful and excited for race weekends" i sort of mixed these concepts and asked my battle-hardened 'bad faith high sensitivity k-pop twitter poster' friend to do like? an rpf sensitivity read for me, like, if i say this do you think people will like it or would it go over poorly?, and my friend told me absolutely not to post 💀🥀

so, i'm probably overthinking it. in the probable spirit of your question, here's me just writing what i think in a casual way. you're apparently very good at asking me things that trigger long answers!

don't hit "read more" on the dash; this is a couple thousands of words 🌻💛

#EDIT: reblogs disabled bc the post-suzuka reveal drivers cannot control their batteries changed my feelings quite a lot!#the rpf-analysis of this post I firmly stand by &I'd still love to discuss any of this but I don't wanna spread regs misinfo :] ♡♡#yapbox #longposting #divider by @bronzewasp here on tumblr ♡

i'll be honest i used to HATE cat walker with a burning passion. i would see him in edits people were watching around me and i would see him on pinterest and i would stare at him in disgust and scroll away if i could. but im realising that i dont hate him actually i just hate.. everything that surrounds him. (and i think his hair could've been a better shade of green.. im sorry kitty) in other words prepare for a cat walker ramble. its 11 at night and im lonely

in my random bursts of rewatching episodes to write about things that happened in them i rewatched kuro neko almost a week ago now and hes still on my mind. the more i think about him the less i hate him acually. his circumstances are just. so horrible that i actually feel really bad for hating cat walker. thats how much ive been thinking about him.

i dont even know where to start man. everything about cat walker's situation just sucks. you cant be born as a reflection of someone who's purpose currently is to be perfect and loved by everyone and not harbour a deep sadness, and cat walker is exactly that. you cant be born of abandonment and rejection and be all sunshine and rainbows.

his character design right off the bat is genius and i hate the creators for it. its the subtle things that stick out to me. his hair, the lighter gray added to his palette, the gold highlights, and most of all the lack of a bell. he doesnt stand out. his gold rimming is uniform and in places you would expect it. theres enough of it that it doesnt feel like one random place of contrast, its spread throughout the design. there is no one part to pay attention to, there is many for the viewer's eyes to track over. as much as his hair is kind of vomit green it doesnt stand out. it aligns well with his eyes, and its dark. his hair is tied back too. it gives his head a rounder silhouette aside from his ears, as opposed to the wild hair chat noir has that gives him a pointier and overall more cat-like look. in terms of silhouette, cat walker also lacks whatever the parts are that stick out on chat noir's wrists and ankles. he has an overall smoother outline. he's more approachable and workable, and maybe even malleable, where chat noir has established himself and may appear a little more spunky or slightly resistant to being shaped at the hands of others. the lighter gray also evens out the suit. he isnt just one big, bold shadow, he has softer parts to him. where chat noir wont give in, he might. he follows orders. cat walker also distinctly lacks a bell. i get that its for the aesthetics, but it also means realistically that he makes as little noise as possible. he's as small as possible, on both an auditory and visual level. and the fact that adrien manufactured a personality and costume to be basically as small and unremarkable as possible with and which he uses to follow orders and be perfect and such??? ouch. he really just poured his home life into cat walker and decided that wasnt painful at all. he isn't cat like at all by nature. he does do cat-like things during the episode, but it doesn't come so naturally to him as it does chat noir. he stands like a human, he runs like a human, and he doesnt make cat puns. he isnt really a cat hero in the same sense that chat noir is a cat hero. hes a person. ladybug can talk to him like hes a person. but chat noir is the human personification of a cat.

i feel like it goes without saying that i also just hate the way ladybug treated him (dont get me wrong, i actually like marinette. marinette salt will not be tolerated if this post reaches any audience whatsoever. this is just me saying her actions sucked in kuro neko). of course, the image-of-perfection kitty that adrien modelled off the face he puts on for his father is the kitty that ladybug likes immediately. the fact that he's too perfect for her as well definitely throws a ball into my brain. what does that mean for adrien? is he in some way too perfect too? and the way marinette actively plots to just replace chat noir... plagg even offers to return the ring to chat noir, but because hes in love with her she decides it wont work right off the bat. and then the same thing happens in reverse??? give kitty a break man.

the fact that adrien's first thought is also to try and be perfect. not just different, perfect. his first thought in the face of rejection, abandonment, someone who he at the time believes doesn't care for him and sees him as replacable.. is to become someone perfect. i hate that he thinks that. with all my heart. it is a solid route for angst but the fact that he thinks that shows how meldable he's willing to become and how he's been led to think as he grows up. if i'm perfect, everyone will like me. if i'm perfect, things will work in my favour. if im perfect, i won't be replaceable.

all that said, i want him to come back. they can not have dropped him only to use him for a single episode. he has to come back. ive seen people wanting different adrien transformations to come back in season 6, and i think with the way marinette's little secret is going, it makes sense. the way i see it, if ladybug tells chat about the secret, he's going to be totally broken up. he'll probably be torn up about her lying to him, about keeping things from him and not trusting him. but they're so close at the moment. i dont think he's going to be able to give her up. i don't thing he's going to want to. he's going to want to keep coming back to her like a bad habit, even if she lied to him. because who else can he turn to? almost everyone is hiding things from him.

enter: cat walker. totally different person, in ladybug's eyes. as long as he can keep his deep and overwhelming sadness mostly on the inside like he does in kuro neko, adrien can see ladybug again. they can save the day again. he can continue on with his passion for hero-ing, with her. it's not at all healthy, but since when has adrien agreste had the time and knowledge to develop healthy coping mechanisms?

all that is to also say that i also just like him a lot. i mean. look at his face. how can you hate that? how did i hate that? how dare i hate him? damn you past me. he's so expressive with his gold eyebrow rimming. now ladybug always knows what hes feeling.

#i miss him actually #hashtag bring cat walker back #does any of this make sense? am i just throwing garbage at my screen in the middle of the night and hoping it makes sense?#time will tell #miraculous ladybug #miraculous lb #not art #adrien agreste #chat noir #cat walker #character analysis #i suppose #then again i could just be going crazy and this analysis has no merit whatsoever #longposting

Right star trek tos season 2 i'll put all my thoughts here so u guys can mute me if im getting annoying lol

#star trek tos livepost #longposting #gotta write out all my thoughts otherwise i'll forget i ever had opinions lmao

How We Learned to Front on Command (and maybe you can too!)

a post by Naomi (she/her) about how we use voice and body language to control who's fronting

When we first realized that we were plural, back in 2014, we had no control whatsoever over who was fronting. There was no way of passing the baton back and forth, not that either of the alters who existed at that time would have wanted to. We didn’t have amnesia about each others’ experiences, but we essentially lived separate lives that intersected with each other at random. One alter would front for a long time, and then a random circumstance in our life would force the other one to the front, who would front until she was forced out. Things continued like this for a while. One of the alters was much more active than the other anyways.

Around 2018, we first started trying to actively pass fronting back and forth. We would do it by thinking very hard at each other, by getting into situations the other would want to front in, or occasionally by trying what was basically a summoning ritual. The first method was unreliable, the second method was a lot of work, and the third method took too much time and too much obviously weird behavior to be used in most social situations. Things continued like this for a while, too, until life circumstances led one of those two alters to suppress the other entirely for a couple years.

In 2020, our relationship to plurality changed quite a bit. The temporary singlet we had become realized she was miserable that way, and tried to mentally reach out to where the other alter had once been. In response, I began to exist. I’m not the alter she was reaching out to (who was at that point definitively gone), but I had a lot of her traits, especially at first. It was a messy awakening, and again we mostly switched based on circumstances or with considerable mental effort. However, after a while, I noticed my mannerisms starting to become noticeably my own. This is where we had a bit of a breakthrough.

I had the thought that I liked being different, and that it would be nice to assign mannerisms more strongly to each of us: voices and body language, mainly. So I set about deciding what kind of voice I’d like to have, and she decided what kind she’d like to have. I developed a low, languid, fry-heavy style of speech with a lot of intonation to it. She spoke as fast as she could think, with lots of vocal pauses and a more casual, breezy tone. I caught myself making poised and calculated movements, hip-driven and limp-wristed. She lurched through her day a little off-balance, letting her full strength fall where it may. One day, she tried to imitate the way I moved, only to discover that after a second or two, it was no longer her imitating, but me fronting. That’s how we figured it out.

So, to stop being coy about it, here’s the idea: by deliberately attaching different vocal and physical (and typing) mannerisms to different alters, by noticing the differences between us and cultivating or exaggerating them, we’ve trained ourselves to front on command, and I think that perhaps you can too. The way I see it, we’ve managed to anchor mannerisms so firmly into our individual personalities that to perform the mannerisms of an alter is to be that alter. Except in situations where one of us is really having a hard time fronting (or isn’t willing to), imitating another alter will bring that alter to the front.

You can think about it like an actor getting into character, which brings me to the actual technical advice. My number one piece of advice is to develop ways of moving or speaking that, at least to you, make each of your alters really feel like themselves. At first this will feel like clumsy exaggeration, and probably like you're just pretending, but once you get a feel for it you’ll be able to settle into something more natural. Whichever behaviors or vocal tones you want to use as a switching trigger should be ones that are fairly distinct to each alter and not shared by others. If you don’t have those, then make them up! Try out different characteristic voices and behaviors until each of your alters finds at least one thing that makes them feel like themselves.

It can really help in this case to use specific anchor phrases, usually paired with a gesture. I’ll run through our anchors here as an example. The anchor we use to bring Cass to the front is to sigh, slouch our shoulders, and wince out “sure” in the sort of breathy growl he tends to speak in. For Jules, we perk our head up as if noticing something, take a deep breath, and let out a higher-pitched, friendly “yeah!” on the exhale as if we’ve been asked for a favor. For me, we roll our head back and forth, cracking our neck, then shake the tension out of our upper body, find a comfortable pose with our shoulders back, and go “hmmm” nice and deep. Elise is new as of writing this, but for now it seems like we can get it to front by ceasing to try to make any facial expression at all, looking directly at a (real or imagined) conversation partner, and giving a monotone “hello.” And for Marceline, we tuck our elbows in tight to our sides, press our knees together, and say “ok” in her distinctively nasal voice. We don’t always do this full routine in order to switch, but it’s the guaranteed version we rely on if we can’t do it either by thinking at each other or with just vocal tone. Yours don’t have to look exactly like this either. You could use smaller or larger gestures than we do, or you could use full sentences as anchors. Ours are one word because they’re essentially out-loud responses to having been silently asked to front.

So, why learn to do this? I’m sure the idea of switching on demand, for readers who can’t already do it, probably sounds pretty appealing. But just to spell it out: this helps us make sure that in situations where one alter feels safer than another, or where one alter’s skills are more valuable than another, we get to decide who is there and experiencing that situation. It lets me front in situations where we need to be confident and assertive, it lets Marceline front when we’re in pain and need to avoid using up our limited energy, it lets Cass make small talk with strangers in public. It can also help to make sure than an alter who is getting distressed can switch out and cool off instead of having a meltdown. But it also has some unexpected benefits- developing distinctive voices and mannerisms on purpose can keep us from bleeding into each other or merging at times when the boundaries between us are getting porous. It also means that people we trust enough that they’ve spent time with all of us tend to eventually start recognizing who’s fronting without having to be told, which is a tremendously affirming feeling once it starts happening. Not only is it a useful tool, but it also makes us feel more like our own people. The cooperative aspect of this technique has made it easier for us to remember that we’re a team, too. It’s a nice feeling.

One question remains: when doesn’t this work? For us, it tends to be less effective when the alter being imitated is in a particularly unstable state, either emotionally or in terms of identity. We can also fall out of practice with it if we don’t use it openly for a while due to social isolation, even if it’s just relative isolation from people around whom we feel safe being openly plural. It comes back with practice, though. For others, we’re not sure how possible this technique is for systems who have significant amnesia between alters. I suspect it may also be less effective for systems who tend to go very long stretches of time without switching. Plurality is so varied and experiences with it so individualized (it is, after all, your life) that it’s really hard to say how well what works for us will work for others. If you try it out, though (or if you already do something like this), I’d love to hear about it! Tell me how well it works, how it feels, what your most exciting discoveries have been. This especially extends to systems whose experience of plurality differs dramatically from ours (number of alters, degree of separation, degree of amnesia). I’d love to know if systems unlike ours can use something like this, or if not, what it was like to try anyways.

#longposting #pluralposting

still feel like shit. Less like shit tho I guess. Im feeling a little less like dying if I try not to think about it, which is hard. Idk which is worse - the idea that the judge took off points for me not bringing the original copy of the sheet music (even though I said it was backordered and he acted like he wouldn’t) and that I have been blocked 2 out of the 3 times I’ve tried to go to state due to a technicality, or that he just thought I sounded so bad that I deserved the same rank as the ensemble that had a good 30+ seconds of straight squeaking during their piece.

maybe he was just having a bad day because he didn’t score an ensemble that played because they were missing a member and some higher up ended up getting involved. Their member moved schools though so how were they supposed to include them 😭 I guess about as stupid as how last year we got disqualified because 2 people in our ensemble has COVID — and even though all the parts were still covered, because we didn’t have the splits (which was like. 2 notes) we couldn’t be scored 😭

(Ps why does every goddamn extracurricular and youth activity run by adults have to be simaltaneously badly organized and extremely micromanaged? Like cmon nobody is getting into music school because of their score in this not-very-selective music competition please just let it go 😭 it’s actually embarrassing for adults how much better activities run by actual teenagers are run)

#augmented chords original #cw rant #check in I guess #longposting #tw sui ideation #comments appreciated #you don’t have to give advice or anything #just saying like “Im here” or something I would really appreciate #auggie has problems

How would Morris treat an autistic partner?

:OOO!! Hey there Anon! Thank you so much for asking! As someone autistic I've been waiting for the opportunity to write something like this! You've absolutely got the gears in my brain working.

Note - I'm going to be basing these primarily on mine and some friends experiences with Autism. These may not align with everyone, and that's alright.

Word count: 1,013 TWs/CWs: Small mention of gagging!

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