#m2f transition

[alexandraadavies1996]

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Sc: matthewisbae96

[xoalexis-briannexo]

On edge

March 14th 2018, I got to work early today and saw that our human resources office was in so I built up the nerve and went and talked to her about my transition, I told her about my diagnosis of gender dysphoria and how I stated hormones, and asked if there were any protections in place, she was very nice and understanding and told me she would check on it for me, as Virginia can be funny with LGBTQ rights, so once she finds out she will email me the info before I device ing I want to come out too the management team, pay for me please netted are going 1000 miles per hour, till next time Lexi

[xoalexis-briannexo]

Coming out

March 9 2018, coming out is a rally big step for any trans person. It cam be a very stressful and life changing experience, those you love could accept you with open arms or just flat out reject you, your work could find a way to get rid of you and even some Drs may drop you as a patient, now for me this subject has been on my mind allot lately, as i am only partially out, my parents don't know. nor does my brother, and my place of employment does not know, I do think that work will understand as I have been feeling my boss's out about the subject, but not so sure about my father or brother, which leads to another problem, I accidentally made myself visible on social media to him, and he responded, back, I hope he didn't realize it was me because that is not how I wanted to come out to him, I have been worried all week about it, guess I Will find out on Sunday when we talk. I do feel that once I am totally out though no matter what the circumstances I will be free from one More burden that is haunting me, well till next time

Levi

[xoalexis-briannexo]

MUSIC

I live music! I am very eclectic in what I listen to, everything from the heaviest of metal to classical. But my favorite genre is metal, I am a metal head from way back in the 80's and am also partial to the 70's and 80's metal. Some of my favorite bands are Slayer,, Exodus, testament, king diamond, and many more, then in the 90's I hit into a country phase and started listening to allot of female country artist's like Trisha yearwood, faith hill, Deanna Carter, and shania twain, and in that time frame I also broadened out to classic rock, classical guitar and blues, though I don't know much about the last two. If anyone ever wants to talk about music feel free to message me

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Workout

Today is Feb 15 2018, today after work I have an appt with a trainer at the gym I goto. I am going to learn the best ways to workout and stretch to create my healthiest female body and also a little shaping up. I am way too heavy for my size and my goal is to lose at least 80lbs total. I really hope I can stick with it if I want to have bottom surgery someday. I have also changed my diet to less calorie intake and healthier foods and portions.. till next time...... Lexi

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A little about me

I am a 44yo trans woman from va. I am a BBW so if that is not your thing please leave. I have been on hormones for 6 months now and love how they make me feel. I will be trying to post weekly on any changes, emotions positive and negative happenings in my life please feel free to read my posts and reblog all I ask is that you not take credit for my writings or pictures this is my life not yours. Lexi

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Masks aren't Permeant

What is the value in attempting to be perfect? My whole life I've been trying to be what everyone expected me to be. Not who I was, but an assumed personification of my character. I was wet clay... ready to be molded. At some point I realized, that my existence was not based on my "given plan", but a collaboration with the universe. A connection with myself that I could never imagine. Something I lost somewhere along the way... This year has been a roller coaster. I'm realizing that my entire life I've lived as a character. But in this very moment... the now... I'm myself. Trying to be Shay was difficult. Shay is extremely feminine, brassy, confident, vivacious, and outspoken. I'm. None. Of. Those. Things. One could say I have evolved. From a fat young shy gay boy to the woman I am today. I don't think I was ever gay... I just didn't comprehend I wasn't like everyone else. See... I didn't go from being gay to becoming a woman. I was always a woman mentally, and couldn't understand how to express it. My sexual orientation never changed. Women are beautiful, but I've always loved men. Who I am today... is an inclusion of my past. Not a divide that I once thought it was. By embracing my past, I've given my future more hope. I never lost Shane. That individual is still here, but my evolution is undeniable. My confidence is real finally. Not a mask. A mask I've been hiding behind my whole life... I'm not perfect. I don't even need to appear to be. I am flawed... and those flaws make my appearance, inside and out, that much more beautiful. Whoever I am... I'm happy.

[losttrans-lation]

Back to Red! Oh how I missed thee!

Do what makes you happy… everyone else can Fuck themselves.

Xoxo - Miss Shay