#monophobia

[crashingcryptid]

Can I request some angst if youre up to it?

Tf 141 with an s/o with monophobia (fear of being alone). Everytime im alone in a room id feel really anxious unless theres atleast one person with me and it really affects me in my day to day life

Simon still remembers how you screamed when you woke up in the empty infirmary bed.

He was the first to get to you, keeping you in the cot and stopping you from pulling out your IV. You had been MIA for almost two weeks, and your scars weren't just physical.

Your injuries weren't severe enough to keep you in the infirmary, even though they insisted you get more counseling. You didn't want that. You wanted your team.

You slept in Kyle's bed the most. He would hold you close at night, keeping you constantly aware of his presence. He would stay with you if he woke up before you, humming quietly as he massaged your shoulders.

Johnny worked out with you the most, showering with you in the same stall. You never cared about the judgemental stares you got for showering with him. You cared a little about having to share the hot water of your shower, but it was better than showering alone.

You ate with Simon on his office. He already ate alone, but he enjoyed your company. You didn't talk about what happened when you were gone. You never did. The scar that now runs along your chin is hard to hide, so you don't bother to. Your team doesn't press, and no one is stupid enough to ask.

Price becomes your paperwork partner, sitting on opposite sides of the desk as you fill out forms in silence. Price stops smoking as many cigars when you're around, not wanting you to get addicted to them to soothe your anxiety. He knew that they couldn't always be around, which is why he had all his trusted contacts on hand.

When Alejandro gets a call to come to the base to spend a week with you, he and Rudy grab their go bags and get on a helicopter within the hour.

[ruin--eclipse]

probably my last post for a while ^_^

This is a vent post

Or something talking about what im gonna be doing ^_^

Im most likely gonna be taking a break from posting.

Ive been feeling like a really bad person lately.

Not just on tumblr but irl and to my other friends.

A few months ago i stopped talking to them completely.

I stopped joining them and speaking to anyone.

I even stopped speaking to my family.

Its weird but posting online is way easier than talking to irl people.

And when i finally started joining them (about 2 weeks ago) i learned how out of touch ive become.

They refrence everything in quotes or reference characters so much and i feel so stressed.

i never know who or what they're talking about.

I join fandoms for them and when i finally get into it they just find another one.

like how they went from Undertale, object shows, now theyre into roblox rpgs

i should at least try to speak to people even if its really hard

(They're all so fun and silly but i usually just watch them talk)

A friend said i need a therapist

Im worrying alot of people. And i really want this to stop.

Not sure how to get one WITHOUT bothering my family.

Ive been scratching my arms with my nails or pulling out my hair whenever i am stressed

which is almost daily now.

This is all im gonna write. Most my breaks were usually 3 or less days. This is most likely gonna be longer.

I know it wont help or change anything but

I'm sorry everyone

-Ruin/Eclipse/Toffee

November 26

2025

[apatheticshots]

[madphantom]

My specific type of monophobia is so stupid. You can put me in the shadiest back alleys at night with the creepiest shadiest men around and I have absolutely no problem, but if you put me in the woods alone on a sunny day I'd probably have a panic attack because for some reason the idea of being alone in nature with no human being nearby scares me more than the thought of having to deal with a creep in a busy city street

[spaghettimakesflags]

Monophobia Flag

[cat-dragon-stella]

Monophobia( fear of being alone/isolated)

How long you want to keep this up?

What?...

This scharade you keep telling yourself?

What scharade?

That you are wanted? That you are something more to the people you call friends. How many times you will mask and lie about your pain until you snap?

That's not a lie... I'm... I'm really fine...

How many times were you replaced? How many times your so called friends started to act like they stop find you entertainaing to them? How many times were you the odd one? How many times people you would do anything talked behind your back and left you? How many times you broke down and kept it for yourself?

I...

Admit it. You are easily replacable. Nothing but a phase, a tool. Once you will bore them, use you, or found someone better, you will end up the same way like you always do.

Alone

I just....I just don't know what I'm doing wrong...

(Authors note: To explain This...I had this month few really rough moments. I even had a pretty heavy mental breakdown at the start of the november and during it I made this. But I'm alot better now, but I wanted to get this out of my chest. I just want to say is @clock-onyx, @interstella-eyes , @anemoia-blue , @betas-art and all of my other friends I have. Thank you for being there for me. You helped me alot go through this and I don't know what I would do without you all. I love you guys)

[blueberrymuffin674]

You're not Alone

"Some amazing adventure we had today huh."

Jax yawned as he, Ragatha, and Pomni were walking to their rooms. Pomni rolled her eyes. 

I don't think getting chased by an army of jelly monkeys while having to collect mushrooms that could run away from us, in the desert is an "amazing adventure Jax." Pomni glared at him, still a bit salty about the fact that her and Jax got partnered in that adventure. It was pure chaos. Jax gave a snarky look back, complete with his famous grin. Pomni was about to make a comeback before-

Ragatha intervened before the conversation became too heated. Pun unintended. "Well it sure was interesting! I mean the desert had lollipop trees and pink sand! That doesn't happen often. I think it was great wasn't it Po-"

"I said I'm not a kid stop trying to get he hyped up." Pomni relied in a deadpan tome.

Welp I'm going to bed. Have fun ladies. Oh and Ragatha there might be a little centi-prise waiting in your room not you~" Jax smirked before disappearing into his room and closing the door. 

Ragatha and Pomni said their goodbyes before retreating into their own rooms.

Pomni sink down on her bed, too tired to reason with the fact that she shouldn't even feel tired in this hell, you don't need sleep. Her eyes scanned the room, searching for a "surprise" as Jax would say. When she came up with nothing she closed her eyes to fall into another restless sleep. Not long before she heard Ragatha screeching from her door and heard Jax loudly cackling from his. She sighed as she shuffled out of bed, falling to the floor with a wacky squeak and glitching through the floor a bit before properly getting up to help Ragatha.

Ragatha didn't go back to her room after Pomni exterminated the centipede (handing it to Kinger) so they played cards on her floor. (Cards that Zooble made) After a few hours Ragatha left Pomni to get some sleep and went to her own bed, after Pomni convinced her she was safe.

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Caine was in the series of rooms/hallways he and bubble usualy go too when they are not in the circus or the NPC restaurant. Bubble was sitting patiently next to him. Caine kept nervously looking back every few minutes to make sure he was still there. He didn't know why but he would always get this jittery, nervous, anxious feeling when he was alone. He was never alone for too long.

"Boss can I go I need to do something."

Caine started to nervously stim with his leg at what Bubble just asked. "I- I can't be alone Bubble I just..." Caine looked away.

Bubble looked at Caine with empathy. "I know you cant boss..."

I know you can't

H̷̨͖͗̓̉̐͋̿ͅe̸̫̦̰̬̯͚͇̬͉̙̎̓̔̎́̄̓̀͒̾͌͘͠l̴̨̢̩̤͙̼̺̒̈́̊̾͑͂̌̇̇̂̀͠l̴̡̛͉̮̻͇̦͓͕̳̭͒̈́́̂̂̓͌̎̑́͠o̷̧͚̲̬̪̅͊̈̕͝.̵̟̹̑͝͠ ̴̯̳͍̩̭̦̼͉͉͂̚I̶̢̧̨̛̜͕̘͔̲̰͖̹̺̘̎̃ͅͅs̶̡̨͈̠͍̺̭̹̞̣͖̅̅ ̸̢̛̭͎̿͗̓̑s̵̨͇̹̪̣̩̩͖͖͎̥̆̽̋̾̽̅̆̄̆̀͋͗̚̕ò̴̢̞̰̟̲͚̫̒̽͒̋̂̇̃̂̾͑̍̿̚̕͘̕m̸̲̭̗̮̰̬̯̃̏̊́̑͘͘͝͝ȩ̸̛̫͚͕͉̺̪̉̑̓̃̉͒̆̂̅͊̈́̿͘͠ȏ̵̲͇͔͊̽̓̔͑̒̐͝͝͝n̴̛͕̤̅͗͛̈́̈̿̌̃͑̓̋ȩ̶̨̧̤̖̗̪̱̤͖̟̫̱̱̣̀̋̔́́̍́̂̈́͛̎̒̓̏͝ͅ ̵̡̛̛͉̰͖̝̥̳̺̫̠̝̣̠͙̪̓́̾͊̾́̃͆̊̏̕͝ơ̶̜͉͉̺͈͈͈̮͙̮̜͎̠͎̖̱̪̎̃̍̽͐̓͗͘͝͝u̷̢̢̫͎̭̩̫̺̭͉͑̇̾͗́̊̄̄͌̃̏́͆́̚͘t̴̨̢͓̫̔̆̓̈̾͌̆͋͑͐̈͑ ̴̳͍̗͎̀t̵̮̖͛h̷̡̘͚̟̰̩̬͔̱̻̠͇͂̓̈́͑̽̓̆͆̓̏̇̓͛̂̍͠͠e̵̞͙͙̺̱̯̠̞̖͎̭̽̌̆͊͌̀̊͒̀̂̄͗͊̊͘̕r̵̩̗͖̗̹͓͙̯͓̞͖̀̈̋͌̏̀̇̈́̕̚͝͝ẽ̷̛͍̰͎̃̈́͋̿͗͛̓͛̒̈́͗͆?̵̻̼̤̯̳̬͎̰̯̝̩̯̟͉̫͌̄̃̓̈̀̉̍̓̃̀̂̕͝͝ͅͅ ̸̨̖̗̫͉̄̂̅͗̑͂̌͒͛̇̀̄̏̇̒͘͠P̷̡̤͉̣͍͓̥̹͇̮̩̓̍̈͋̓ĺ̴̛̲̈́̈́̔̈̈̐̇̀̏̓e̷̡̫̝̠̖̣̮͓̪̱͙̪͈͈͑͝à̸͈̤̮̠̩̺͖͇̱̒̈̈̕͝ş̸̢̛͍̬̞̹͙̟͕̻͉̼̱͂̎̅̍̋͑̅̽͗̈́̒̿̉͘͝͝e̸̢̨̜̗̮̠͋.̷͖͎͚̈́͜.̷̫̰̼̠̯̪̜̼̠̯͎̝̫̤͋͒.̸̡̛̣̻͈̪͉̱̫̱̫͓̞͙͎̦̹͐̅̽̒͒̚̚̚͜ ̵̘͙̳͎̘͇͕͇͔͖̠͔̤͐̔̐̒̽̐̿̄̃́̇͗̅͗̅̚ḩ̸̧̯̱̞̭̹̖̠͖͈̹̼̖̙̍͐̌͂̚͠ͅͅẽ̴͖̲̌̓͑̆̀̍͐̔̒͊͌̑͋̑̋̕ͅͅḽ̴̢̪̖̫͕̝͖̟̲͖̣̘̙̬̤̻̇̈͆̏̏̂̑̎͒̊̓̀p̷͈̘̓͆̊̊͌͌̅̊̔͋̅̚͝͝͠.̵̡͚̫̭̈́́ ̷̯̞̰̲̠̟̘̻͍̦̂̒̆͑͆͊̓̓͜ͅḮ̷̡̦̣̱̌̊̕ ̵̠̙͚̅͒̇͘͜ḑ̷̡̝̺̱̩̺͓͖͈̠̣̠̭̒̈́̑̌́͌̄͗͆̀̒͜͝ͅo̸̩͓̫̙͎̫̗̤̠̯̣̖̹̹̼͓͓͝͝n̴̨̘̭͎͚̥̤̠͔͉̖͇̙̦̆͐̈́̾̽̃͛'̷̣̊̅̃̀̑́̈̍͐́̾̋͘t̷̡͇̿̌̈́ ̶͈͙̦͓͔̗͈̪͖͂̏́̅̅̿͘̚l̴̨̢̛͍̤̹͍̞̹̻̖̜͙͚͖̲̉̿̿̄̔͗̂̂i̴̢̛̠̻͍̘̍͒̔̈́͌̎̈́̔̆̚͝k̸͎̮̘͔͉͍̬̲̖̦̋͑͛̌e̴̤̭͍͈̦̦̜̓̑́̏̈̈́̈́̋́͘ͅ ̵̡͖̹͖̭̜̯̮̟̯́̓͒͋͛́͛͜b̸͎̮͇̖̗͕̣̗̹͉̙͉̬̞̯͇̊̄̆ę̷̛̻̭̻̲̲̽̈́̉̅̔̚̚͝i̸̭̳̺͉͍̮̞̹̋͛ͅn̵̨̤̻͔̞͈͕̟̯̰̔̇̈̒̐͑̄̂͋͜͝͝g̵̩̳̩͙̜͓̻͂̌̈́̎̉̃͂ ̷̨̼͌͐̒̂̎̈́̏̂͛́͝a̵̢̡̛͎̬̙̩͕̦̫̮̽̀͑̎̂͠͝ľ̶̢̰̬̤͕̦̗͈͓͔͙̖̗̪̜̓̀̅͒͗̾̉̿̈́͘̚͝o̶̩̲̹̙̤̘͎͛̇̍̐́̓̀̔̌̾̒̓͠n̶̛͖̺͙̅̆̓̌̊̕͝ͅḛ̸̛̎̀̈̆̚.̶͚̤̬͖̎̎́̀̆͗̔͒̆̕ ̵̭̬̮̜̟͕͖͌̈̒ͅp̷̠̤̞̯̜̏̿͒͑͐̽͆l̴̩͕͙͖̰͚̓͑͒͌͊͊̆̍̌͗̏̔́͝ȩ̵̧̙͖̱͚̞͈̻̲͕̮̜̮̪̓̉͋͋̅̐͂̔̊̀̒͜͜ā̷̢͍̭͔̱̯͖̿̐̋̔̎̐̔̒̋̉̾̀̒̕͠ş̴̧̛̛͇̝̞̲̮͍̱̱̩̼̝͇̓̍̊̓̋̓̽̒̀̀́̕͜ͅe̸̩̰̓̅?̶̡̟̽̏̉̈́̋͛̓̽͐̀̋͘͝͠ ̶͙͍͖̩̳̺̻̭̋̉̓̕Ą̸̙̣̘̬͚͚̃̽̊͘͘͝ń̵̗̪͍̤̞͖͚͕̈͜ͅy̸̛͍̪̓̄͋̀͆͐̈́̿̈́̽̈́̎́̈́̕͠ö̷̧̱͛̀̒̈̍͗́̂̒̕̚͘n̵͈̘̲̗̹̘̹̮̈́̉́́̎̓̍̃͝ͅę̸̡̱̻̘̦͓̯̱̭͛͊̈́̈́̚.̷̢̀̋̅̌̊̌͒͗̄͌̉̚͘̚͝

Notes:

Yes at the beginning I put Jax before Pomni and Ragatha on purpose lol! Don't attack me with grammar on that please. -_- He just has a god complex like that.

[realifevamp]

I always forget to post my pics on here even tho I’m on here a lot 😭

I’m going to post my pics from insta and as I finish editing them XD