#my personal rambles

[itsmelb]

Are you randomly awake at night just because you have to think about Joong writing Gay fanfiction, posting thirst traps for his "bro" and still ears more money than you and me together like - yah me too 👀🤣😅💀

[pocketfulofpolin]

So, i’ve been writing a few personal seblos fics [which will probably never be published ] but i had a few future headcanons that i needed to put on paper.

Seblos future headcanons [with child version]

- Long distance relationship at college, which is a lot for both to handle. They suffer a heartbreaking but mutual breakup summer before junior year of college, but are reunited by a meddlesome drama family in the summer before senior year.

- First drama relationship to become engaged, but second to be married, thanks to a unexpected elopement by EJ and Gina.

- As twenty-somethings, the first apartment they rent in New York is a run down studio with dripping pipes. Seb refused to allow Carlos’ parents to help them with getting anything better. Until they both become ill over winter, and ask for some help to at least find somewhere with heating.

- Broadway, enough said.

- Neither broach the idea of children until their wedding, when one of Seb’s older sisters offers as a present to be a surrogate. They decide to accept a couple of years later, deciding they would love the opportunity to become parents.

- Melody, their only child. Carlos’ female doppelgänger, but who inherits the Matthew-Smith eyes and smile.

- At the age of three, Melody declares she is going to be on Broadway. Big Red wonders how they cloned a female version of Carlos so perfectly.

- Seb taught her the piano, Carlos taught her how to dance. They both taught her to be whoever she wanted to be, and how to be herself.

- Was the cousin who spent holidays running around on the Matthew-Smith family farm in a pair of Wellington Boots and a disney princess dress. She never cared about getting dirty, and never could convince her papa Carlos to let her take her favourite Sheep [Tiny Tim] back home to New York.

- The Matthew-Rodriguez family def took at least one vacation to disney, where Melody declared she wanted to marry Belle instead of a “boring prince”, a decision that she never swayed away from.

[zivilzz]

Gotta go to Therapy tomorrow.. (second appointment) and I’m scared as all hell!

Kinda need some PMA

[itsmelb]

Sometimes, I wish I could watch my fav BLs for the first time again...just remember the moment when:

Porsche saved Kinn behind Hum Bar. He's wearing his old Chucks while Kinn is wearing my fav ombre suit. They ride the motorbike and Porsche aka Jom steals Kinns watch... epic.

Kim kills those mfers in the Bar while Chay plays the video game. After that Kim sits on the fire escape and smokes. Hot. Also the Wdys video sequence. Traumatised us all. Yah. Epic.

Vegas torturing that one gang member and puts on that cover suit thingy. His face is full of blood drops and he smiles. Shit went and will go down. This character will hunt me I swear.

Cher kneels in front of Boss Gun and asks him to be his faen. Boss kisses him enthusiastically on the cheeks and the mouth. I love my idiots sm.

Mew knows about Tops car adventure with Boston. But he seduces Top (like how hot is Book here omg) and the plays the audio. Omg. That was acting in its finest form!!

Pat and Pran stand on the room top and Pat tells Pran he can't be friends with him. They kiss so desperately I swear best roof top kiss in the history of Aofs roof top kisses. Wow. Speechless.

Mhok and Day are sitting between the mountains. Day looses his sight. They both cry because Mhok is the last image he saw.

Palm lost his mom. He and Nueng are in that shitty motel room. Palm is drunk and Nueng gave him some pills in his beer. They dance and kiss. Palm is sad and it's all so shitty. In that night Nueng leaves.

Gun and Tinn are backstage. Tinn cleans Guns face with the cotton pad (Nivea ad) and he tells him how good he has done the performances on stage. Gun nearly cries.

Zo opens the door again after he teased Joke. He pulls him in and they kiss like they're starving.

Alan and Jeff are rollerskating and Alan nearly falls. Jeff catches him. They talk. Alan gives him the bracelet with the A. He has the one with the J on and then they make love at home.

Charlie is dead. And Babe mourns. Oww. Pavel did so great.

Heart cries because his mother won't learn the sign language for him. Li Ming is there and holds him while he cries.

Wen and Jim kiss on the sofa. They are finally boyfriends after shit went down. Because Alan was still in love with Wen and Kaipa with Jim. Alan and Kaipa have a dinner at the chicken stall.

Prapai comforts Sky after he tells him about his traumatic experience. They are both crying.

Just to name a few 😉

[itsmelb]

Some thoughts about:

TayGun kissed. And X exploded like "how could they" "how can they when they're paired with New and Off" " they're betraying Babi and Polca"...and then Tay said (see Tweet) and some of the Gmm boys responded (Tweet/Tread).

And I think it's weird. How ppl take the liberty of saying disgusting things about them and STILL WHATCH BL SERIES OR SHIP male couples. How?? I read a Tweet which said sth like: ppl like gay guys in TV till they're doing gay things in real life. And that's that. When u attack the boys they shut themselves of, don't share stuff anymore or they separate because they can't anymore. Or they'll get depressed. And we all know what can happen after that. Bc it happend.

I just don't get it. Let ppl be themselves pls. Take what u get. Ship them to a normal amount. Don't be invasive or mean. I mean they all hang out often. They kiss eo, they hug, they have to do this intimate stuff on TV, there are emotions involved. The business is so hard. Some are forced to do Fan service others come naturally (we all know the stories of Mew Gulf right- and others are there too I am just not so well informed about this - bc it's all relatively new to me sorry).

So what I mean is: let people be. Enjoy what u get. Scream, cry, laugh about them. Ship them. But don't harm them with words, actions or violence.

(Just my thoughts because I had to let them out somehow. Now let the boys kiss eo freely pls)

[itsmelb]

I've come to a point that I will never get over Kinnporsche. Never.... ⤵️

The cast members are like family - almost everyone went through shit. Together. Separately. They still go through some stuff. And sometimes I will be sad, angry or similar emotions. But I will never forget them.

Everytime I hear Jeff sing WDYS, the cast sitting there in the audience and they cry, they post about it. They're proud how well Jeff's dream developed (still does) - I see the memories in my head. The pain. The love for them.

I don't cry for something like this. Normally. I often said I don't know how it came so far. But here I am in tears. Seeing them through my phone. And I love them.

I see JBC pic I scream. I see Mile and Jeff hug eo I cry. I see the cast at the concert. I am emo.

Thank u Jeff for bringing joy and them together. Always. Saturn is never far from the clouds.

😭💜🪐

[itsmelb]

Don't get me wrong I liked Perth and Chimon. They were cute. But I think Perth is more free with Santa in a way?

I don't know why it is like that...maybe Perth isn't as shy as he was with Chimon because of the connection they had (close friends, lovers idk) or bc he can be the "phi" in this pairing with Santa?

Idk. Idc to be honest. I wish Perth all the best. He deserves everything.

Also I wish that Chimon will recover quickly 🥹 it must be really hard for him. Also Santa be like u are boy ✨️

[itsmelb]

Guys help me pls..because am I dump, am I delulu-ing myself or wth did I just see this??

OMG THEY LOOK THE SAME. IT'S HOW?? AM I JUST SEEING THIS 😲 I can't omg 😭😭

Ping Orbnithi (from Pitbabe) and Bible Summetikul (from KP and 4mins) look like long lost brothers omg. Wow.