i’m 17 and have never been kissed. no one has ever shown any interest in me ever. i’m not bad looking and i’m actually am very confident and comfortable with myself so that’s no really a big issue for me, i just have never had anyone show any sort of likeness towards me in that type of way. and i know that a lot of people are gonna say “don’t rush” or “don’t feel pressure bc other people are doing it” but i want to have the experience and i want to do it. i want to have that moment with someone and it’s not so that i can go off and tell people but i genuinely want to know what it’s like for someone to like you in that type of way. i’ve always been a romantic and i love romance and i love love, and ik that’s not what i’m gonna get my first time, but growing up i’ve always been excited to be a teenager in love and at this rate i’m gonna be the next 40 year old virgin. i’m not putting this out there bc i want advice, i’m sick and tired of hearing the “it’ll happen to you some day” or “you’re time will come” because that shit is annoying as hell. again idk why im writing this but i felt like i needed to get it off my chest bc none of my friends care, all they do is talk about themselves and their boyfriends and their experiences, which i totally understand and i am always there to listen, i just want it to happen to me. i don’t know what i’m doing wrong that no one, not a single person ever in my life, has ever expressed any sort of admiration towards me like that. every single person i know has had an experience like this and i’m not kidding when i say that i am the only person i know who has never even had anyone show that they are interested. idk why i’ve been really in my feels about it lately bc i usually don’t let it get to me that bad but it’s honestly coming to a point where i, who has never had any issues with myself, am finally feeling out of place and disconnected and i’m so convinced that it’s never going to happen and i’m going to die alone. that ending part is really dramatic but it feels that way and now i’m just sitting here crying and putting myself bc there’s nothing left to do but that. that being said don’t worry an me bc i’m fine, i really just needed to get this off my chest and put it out there in the world in hopes that maybe it will clear the thing that’s been blocking me from this side of life.
