I need someone to write this new idea I had!!! Okay so I’d love for it to be Harley/Peter and avenger family, but that’s totally up to y’all!
Anyway, I was listening to the new NF song, Fear (putting the lyrics below), and it’s totally Peter!!! Imagine him post No Way Home trying to deal with everything he’s been through all through his life. He’s alone now and desperately trying to keep everything together! Imagine if by the time Peter reconnects with his family, he’s already so lost in this battle he’s been fighting alone and they have to pick up the pieces, while dealing with their trauma of forgetting their “baby spider” 👀
“Hello darkness, my old friend (hello)
Knocking at my door again
Beggin' me to come outside
Let you back into my life
Now, usually I'd be strong enough
To lock the doors and keep 'em shut
But not today, I'm desperate (desperate)
So go ahead and come on in
So go ahead and come on in
So go ahead and come on in
Ocd is worse than ever, hands are bleedin'
Maybe I should take the pills, don't (whoa)
Know what's goin' on with me
Some days I actually think I might be schizo- (whoa)
Phrenic, prolly not, but even writin' this
Is makin' me begin to spiral, oh, God (oh, oh, oh)
Made a promise, told myself I wouldn't let the fear back in
But then I did, though (whoa)
Told the world that I was sick of runnin'
Then went back to runnin', what a joke (whoa)
Disappointed, yeah, me too
I thought I finally had finally made a breakthrough, guess not (oh, oh, oh)
It's the same song and dance, you've all seen it before
Darkness holds out his hand, then we walk to the floor
Every decision made isn't mine anymore
Like a puppet with strings, I just don't have a choice
What's the truth? What's a lie?
Help me, God, help me, Lord
Face your fears, dry your eyes
Grandma died, what's the point?
Lost the keys, lost my hope, lost my will, lost my joy
Lost a friend, lost my home, lost my faith, lost my voice
Standing back, watching my mansion burn to ash while I
Hold the gas can, asking God if He started this fire
Is this what You wanted? Is this what You wanted?
Make all my hopes and my dreams come to life just to lay them to rest
Is this what You wanted? Is this what You wanted?
Give me a false sense of peace just to show me what peace really is
On the verge, on the edge
(Is this what You wanted?)
Petrified, scared to death
(Is this what You wanted?)
Prayin' to God, desperate
(Is this what You wanted, what You wanted?)
(Is this what You wanted?)
(Is this what You wanted?)
Empty heart, nothin' left
(Is this what You wanted?)
(Is this what You wanted, what You wanted?)
(Is this what You wanted?)
Standing back (is this what You wanted?)
Watching my mansion (is this what You wanted?)
Burn to ash (is this what You wanted?) While I (oh, oh, oh)
(What You wanted, is this what You wanted?)
Hold the gas (is this what You wanted?) Can
Asking God if (is this what You wanted?)
He started this fire (is this what You wanted, what You wanted?)”