#no decisions

[mxanigel]

The Moon Looks Beautiful Tonight is a free (!) sapphic sci-fi visual novel that is wonderfully queer and heartwrenching and heartwarming. It touches on love, regret, and grief as well as differences between surviving and living.

We took about 3 hours to read through it on PC. I enjoyed every minute.

Steam | itch.io

[psymachine]

i need to make something with my hands, but my brain is in idea mode only

[pdivaricata]

a week without decisions

When you get old enough, the "stuff" becomes less important. Instead, this week, liminal spacemas, OH has arranged to be home. My present to myself is the week without making decisions, of OH being the household caregiver.

[whentherewerebicycles]

okay well I got my fridge replaced (huge win for me—it got me to clear out my gross old one AND now I don’t have to scrub out the inside before I move), emailed my landlord (gulp), and scheduled 10 apartment viewings for this weekend. I have spent WAY more time on Zillow this week than is healthy my god. okay. okay. my actual move date is obviously still tbd but I made that crucial inner emotional shift today and am doing everything I can to depart as soon as possible. I think I have made peace with the fact that I may have to pay double rent for a couple months to secure a place I like. it’s not ideal, but since I have one more paycheck from UT coming plus my tax return, I think I can afford to (grimace) absorb that loss. god it’s so fucking nice to not be making big life decisions on grad student wages anymore. I can absorb an expense that would have catastrophic / year-wrecking just three years ago. unbelievable!!

I have sam’s wedding (hi sam) about a month from now and then I am tentatively going to spend a week (?) in charlottesville visiting hannah and having friend time with liz. depending on my move timeline the charlottesville portion of the trip might need to be postponed 😬 I think this would be my insanely ambitious plan (prob not feasible unless my complex is like Get Out Now):

go to campus tonight & tomorrow after dog walk (when it’s cool out!) and do two trips in and out of my office to move stuff back. I don’t have to do the big stuff yet but if I can assess the sitch and do a couple early hauls out it’ll make my life easier next week

tour a million places in seattle this week. hopefully I can find a place I like and make some decisions! or at least get a better sense of where I want to live.

spend the five days after I get back packing like crazy and scheduling the pod + movers if I have a new place. I think if I am focused I can get a LOT done (maybe even most of it).

start new job on 8/29 and spend my evenings packing packing packing. but also spend time with friends 😭😭 it’s okay I can come back!! I can always come back!! this place can still be one of the importance places I’ve called home!!!

be fully packed by 9/5 (ideal). in a dream world I’d get the pod out of here Labor Day weekend and drive that Monday but that doesn’t seem suuuper realistic. I wonder if I could drive the dogs & plants back to KS that weekend, then fly back with my mom to handle the rest of the move (movers, pod, cleaning out the apartment, doing the walkthrough etc). hmm more expensive but might be nice to not have the dogs to contend with during that process. ideally I’m out of my place by the weekend of 9/10.

then I can spend a week with my parents, leave the dogs with them for the wedding (and possibly the VA trip after if I do that), and then come back ready to fly the dogs to seattle (might have to leave ruthie and have my brother bring her later 😩). I guess depending on the VA trip I’d be in seattle by the week of the 19th or the week of the 26th. or if I find a place with a 10/1 move date I could stay with my parents until then.

PHEW

[boatcats]

Friends made the surprised pikachu face when I told them I was thinking of a master’s (in a couple years! after this crisis passes!)

But that is something to consider another time. We do not make decisions after major trauma. No we don’t! (No we donnnnnnn’t, Precious. Even though we wants the big decisions. We wants them.)

[scullayitsme]

making decisions is hard as fuck especially when they can be life changing

[eijereichero]

Real Post 141 - Destination? Unknown

Real Post 141 – Destination? Unknown

Today is just an ordinary day, like any other days I had before. A hot weather in November and pollutions everywhere – air, garbage and people, not to mention the traffic and sweaty skins. The thing though that makes this day different from any other days, is me. I did not make plans today, and so far, it feels amazing! It’s not that I just stay in bed and bored myself to death like I used to do…

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