"Children encounter the world as something still revealing itself. While adults have been taught to encounter it as already settled, there's a reason toddlers are always wide-eyed and surveying their entire surroundings with a sense of awe.
Children have not yet fully learned how to suppress contradiction in order to maintain social stability. They still experience dissonance directly.
This is why they question injustices at 'inappropriate times' like 'mummy, why do you tell us not to give homeless people money' in front of a supermarket cashier.
As Marx said 'it is all the more clear what we have to accomplish at present: I am referring to ruthless criticism of all that exists, ruthless both in the sense of not being afraid of the results it arrives at and in the sense of being just as little afraid of conflict with the powers that be.'
My parents were hardly on the level of the capitalist class, but nonetheless my, and many other children's 'inappropriately timed' questions were like a proto-praxis. Just like my experience with the [unexpectedly heavy] rock, it was not just 'innocence' but a direct and real encounter with contradiction, and that's why their replies of 'because I said so' or 'that's just how it is' left me deeply unsatisfied.
As a child, when confronted with contradiction I would learn. If I had dropped the rock I would have still learned. As an adult however until I discovered Marxism, when I was confronted with contradiction – when I would drop a rock, or my phone wasn't fast enough – I would get irritated, or even angry. I would blame the rock, I would blame the phone. The annoyance is almost defensive as the world failed to conform to my expectation.
Marxism un-blocks that defensive reflex I was taught as an adult. Because dialectical thinking expects contradiction, contradiction stops being a failure of reality and starts being the engine. My phone isn't 'supposed' to be fast, and the rock isn't 'supposed' to be light. 'Supposed' is what happens when you attempt to freeze the world in place so you stop meeting it afresh. Curiosity is not simply a mood. It is a material posture, it is a way of holding your categories loosely enough that reality can break them.
This is why Lenin's 'Left-Wing Communism an infantile disorder' title misses the mark. Lenin argues that Leftcoms are extremely dogmatic. Dogmatic is the exact opposite of what a child typically is, we spend our early years with wide eyes always surveying around us precisely because we are not dogmatic about the world. A child watches, they test, they poke, ask, imitate, fail, they try again, they experience contradiction in an honest way. But most importantly they approach the world experimentally precisely because they do not yet fully understand it.
To call dogmatism 'infantile' is to misunderstand both children and materialism."
- Kaimataara, from "Marxism is childish." Kaimataara Substack, 9 May 2026.
Wrong. Matter and energy are never truly gone. Things made of them are gone all the time. Some things aren't even, materialistically speaking, things at all. A flame blown out totally ceases to exist. So does a wave. They're processes given names for convenience, not particular sets of particles.
You think I'm playing at some game? You think iron will keep you safe? Hear my words, manling. Do not mistake me for my mask. You see light dappling on the water and forget the deep, cold dark beneath. Listen. You cannot hurt me. You cannot run or hide. In this I will not be defied.
I swear by all the salt in me: if you run counter to my desire, the remainder of your brief mortal span will be an orchestra of misery.
I swear by stone and oak and elm: I'll make a game of you. I'll follow you unseen and smother any spark of joy you find. You'll never know a woman's touch, a breath of rest, a moment's peace of mind.
And I swear by the night sky and the ever-moving moon: if you lead my master to despair, I will slit you open and splash around like a child in a muddy puddle. I'll string a fiddle with your guts and make you play it while I dance. You are an educated man. You know there are no such things as demons. There is only my kind. You are not wise enough to fear me as I should be feared. You do not know the first note of the music that moves me.
The notes come from a podcast episode of “Culture Wars” when he was a guest on the “Joe and Joe from The Frontline” back in January of 2022.
2:25 - Atheism: 10 years ago 4(horseman) atheists based their argument on logical fantasy. Darwinism is the operating system of atheism. Prime philosophical ideology of today.
3:39 - Parmenides “that which is can’t come from that which isn’t”
4:14 - St. John’s gospel “in the beginning there was logos and logos was God”
4:41 - The atheists banned meta physics as an attack on God
4:54 - Darwinism says something can come from nothing. Every little step is the same as the step before it. This was their way to sell it and make it make sense.
6:31 - Atheism isn’t a philosophical problem, it’s a psychological problem.
6:40 - psychologist Paul Vince from NYU wrote a book on the relationship between atheism and father deprivation
8:26 - Q: Why has modern philosophy taken this route? A: Logos makes a rebound due to researches of Thomism (official philosophy of Catholic Church) Notre Dame adopts as official philosophy as well until ND hires 2 physicists to run philosophy department (Irish men hessburg and McMillan) Late 1960’s.
11:20 - Talk about how God revealed logos to the Greeks. Q: How did the Greeks accept logos after throwing around different philosophical ideas which led them to the discovery of logos. A: listen to audio below for EMJs reply.
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13:40 “Your thinking in physical terms with something that isn’t physical”
14:45 - God did not abandon people
15:16 - John wrote his gospel based on reason. (Greek) because he could not preach to the Jews anymore since he was kicked out. He said we needed a sound philosophical foundation.
17:30 - philosophy today, is based on science now. Physical science has become so powerful that everything has to model physics. Economics has become physics.
17:58 - Aristotle talks meta-physics (he calls it first philosophy) which he calls theology. “You can’t talk about the beginning and not talk about God.
18:02 - EMJ had this experience in India. 16 year old Hindu boy asks can you prove the existence of God? India you have hundreds of Gods and it doesn’t make sense to the boys.
21:09 - In India you have over a billion and half people in a confused state because there is no logos.
21:34 - India cosmology is that earth is a semi-circle sitting on 4 elephants that is standing on a turtle.
20:33 - It is mandatory for every rational creature to believe in God. You don’t have to believe Jesus rose from dead, you accept that by faith.
23:22 - “conform your desires to the truth or conform the truth to your desires”
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23:47 - fulfilling desires by questioning the order of the universe so you can do what you wanna do.
23:54 - Polytheism exists bc you want to do something against Gods will (ex: sexual desires) Another example is you want to sleep with your neighbors wife. You can’t pray to God about that so you pray to another god. You are praying to demons. This stuff leads to demon cultures. Wilhelm Schmidt said “all primitive cultures are monotheistic and polytheistic cultures are a sign of decadence”
Why does God exist? How have the three dominant monotheistic religions—Judaism, Christianity, and Islam—shaped and altered the conception of
24:59 - Are you willing to conform your life to logos?
25:35 - Host: One problem in America is everyone is looking for political solutions instead of moral solutions…. Looking in wrong places for solutions…. In particular political parties.
EMJ - Reason “pure and practical reason”
-Pure allows you to know the truth
-Practical allows you to achieve the good AKA morality. Conform life to practical reason.
EMJ says Founding Fathers understood this:
John Adams “we have no constitution that functions in the absence of a moral people”
If you can’t have people do this to their lives you won’t have a government that can do it.
Freedom became defined as doing what you want to do as opposed to doing what you ought to do.
Host: “Perverted concept of freedoms”
License became the substitute for freedom.
31:00 - Co-Host: “Science as Opposed to Religion (modern dialogue) which is a fallacy.
“What is the Trinity? How does this concept of God lead to science itself?”
EMJ: It goes back to the gospel of St. John. It begins with logos and logos was with God. Logos is God. This is the trinity.
Trinity, in Christian doctrine, the unity of Father, Son, and Holy Spirit as three persons in one Godhead. The doctrine of the Trinity is c
A meditation on that phrase and the word Son. 300 years of meditation on that phrase to come up with an understanding of God. The Trinity is God revealing himself to us.
Pythagorus: was preparation for the Trinity. Believed number was order of the universe.
1 + 2 = 3
1 is unity
2 is diversity
3 is the Trinity (unity and diversity at the same time)
Beauty
EMJ: Another characteristic of God “The true, the good, the beautiful”
Because of 20th century beauty gets lost as a result of the decline of art. Beauty is a manifestation of God. There is evidence of this Trinity throughout creation.
Relationship between Jesus Christ and God the Father
“The father, the son, and the Holy Spirit. Amen”
Aryas said “if the son comes after the father then there was a time when the son was not. If there was a time when the son was not, then the son was not God. Therefore Jesus Christ is not God” This is False
You can’t take the term son and applying it to an analogous way to God and it does not apply because all of 3 of those principals were co eternal and always existed in relationship to each other.
Muslims did not get this. Did not believe Jesus Christ was God. This is the main reason science did not develop in the Islamic world.
The universe is a manifestation of God.
Openness of Heart to Accepting Linear Truth
EMJ: Fundamental problem is basing life on satisfying irrational passions.
Aquinas “lust darkens the mind”
Dealing with people sunken in sin and have made a living with one of these ideologies.
Racism is an irrational ideology.
Lutheran church evaporated in Scandinavia and Iceland.
EMJ: Main problem in Middle Ages was collapse of Thomism and replaced with nominalism.
William of Ockham ended in Munich and died of Black Death. “no universals. Universals are all categories of the mind” (ex: Islam taking over catholic philosophy)
William of Ockham, fourteenth-century Scholastic philosopher and controversial writer, b. at or near the village of Ockham in Surrey, Englan
Martin Luther
Luther couldn’t control his passions. Violent guy, a drunk and didn’t pray. Finally broke from church and subjected to sexual temptation.
During this time the Lutherans were breaking into convents and raping nuns or pimping them out to priests to get them to join Luther.
Martin LutherFounder of Protestantism, b. at Eisleben, November 10, 1483; d. at Eisleben, February 18, 1546. Read more form the Catholic Enc
EMJ on pornography
“Pornography is a form of social control”
He once said this to a group of zoomers and they knew exactly what he meant because they were all enslaved to their passions.
To understand the occult conception of science, one must first establish a working definition for traditional science. The word “science” is derived from the Latin word scientia, which means “knowing” or “knowledge.” Thus, there is an epistemological dimension to science. After all, epistemology is etymologically derived from the Greek word episteme, which also means “knowing” or “knowledge.” In recent years, science has been couched in the epistemology of radical empiricism, the theory that all knowledge is derived from the senses. Within such epistemologically rigid parameters, the gaze of contemporary science has been firmly fixed upon the ontological confines of the physical universe. Whether the modern scientist realizes it or cares to admit it, radical empiricism is the epistemological nucleus of the occult conception of science.
Phillip D. Collins (The Faustian Face of Modern Science: Understanding the Epistemological Foundations of Scientific Totalitarianism, June 11th, 2009)
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