It's normal to genuinely want to be a floret, right?
It's normal to ugly cry because it or anything similar won't ever happen, right?
It's normal to not want to be a person because the positive parts of the human experience don't feel worth the bad parts, right?
It's normal to not want to have meaningful thoughts and emotions, right?
It's normal to not want any agency or have to form an identity of my own, right?
It's normal to want to have someone take control of me like a puppet, for that someone to take care of me, and be someone who can only love me because I don't have the capability or agency to do anything meaningful, including doing anything to wrong them, right?
It's normal to fantasize about being lobotomized, right?
It's normal to break down into tears when I think about having to be a human, and that I'll never get the chance to be anything else, anything... less, right?
It's normal to feel scared of and even a little disdain towards the idea of being independent, right?
right...?
r-right. . .
help...
