Jan 1
i hate when people are "smarter" than me but i also hate when people are stupider than me. oh well.
I feel you anon, I feel you.
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i hate when people are "smarter" than me but i also hate when people are stupider than me. oh well.
I feel you anon, I feel you.
The npd urge to become famous and Visibly Better Than Everyone™️ vs the stpd urge to move into the woods and never speak to a human person again.
ugh bf is dealing w hormones and is texting bout how they started crying and are feeling sensitive
and i have such an urge to say 'yeah i know you are' or to just completely ignore their texts for the rest of the night
It pisses me off so bad seeing other pwNPD (not talking about this blog) talking so openly about their sick fantasies, how they don't actually care about their friends, how they're so willing to hurt people and lie, etc. And I know it's just their disorder disordering, and my disorder disordering, but I still can't help but look at it all and think HAH, I'm so much better at this disorder than you. I get narc highs from posting art and successfully comforting my friends. I protect my reputation by being a genuinely kind and endearing person. I may care in a different way due to my lack of empathy, but I'm working to improve and I'm trying harder than any of those fucks. In fact, I'm working harder and doing better than the average empath. Get on my level
And to my fellow compassionate narcs on here, or just narcs who strive to do the right thing for any reason, you're fucking awesome and you ARE good people and I appreciate you
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Doing my own confession for once. I hate being a narc and an artist sometimes holy shit. I'm trying to improve my anatomy work by doing studies and every tutorial I watch makes me want to sob because mine isn't professional grade off the bat or looks all that good.
My own aspd/npd confession whoops:
I genuinely get so awkward when people vent to me, especially without like... asking first. Like, I cannot just pull sympathy out of my ass on a whim babe. I need a warning and at least five minutes of prep time. This needs to be an open book test. I gotta have my notes!!
i want to be loved by the entire world unconditionally. i want to be the center of the entire world without my needing to do anything and it makes me sick i even think this way
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Another confession of mine: I hate when people expect me to be grateful for objectively bad gifts. I hate clothing gifts, my interests have changed, I got a shirt pertaining to an old interest of mine and hiking and I hate both of those things now, literally one of the worst options I could've been given. My parents both got $50 gift cards from her while I got a fucking shirt. So no, I'm not gonna be grateful for every piece of trash I'm given. I'm better than that shit, I deserve the money that I can spend on shit I actually want. I don't care about the thought that's put into it when I'm just gonna throw it in the donation box. Normalize not shaming people for hating gifts or being disappointed in them istg