#ooc talks

[first-sinner-of-hell]

// HAPPY PRIDE MONTH

While I am eagerly waiting to rp with Lilith in Pride Month (and believe, those will come until you are sick of them), I really wanted to make the first post of the day a very personal one.

First of all, I want to say thank you to all of my mutuals and in general all of the people I have roleplayed with over the course of these months. This community is so great and open with LGTBQ+ topic, I feel it's part of why I feel so comfortable being here. You guys are all great :)

In real life, people who are practically my "soul brothers" (as in, very very close friends) are trans, and I have good friends that are nonbinary, other polyamorous... Although most of my experiences are second-hand, I still have seen a lot of scary shit during my almost-30s life to say that in this house we don't fuck with those topics. In character rp I don't mind it if it's to kick somebody's butt harder, but if I catch someone saying those kind of things for real, I don't care how close we are, you are getting capital B Blocked.

I identify myself as aroace, and that has taken a lot of time to figure myself out and has carried also some problems (though nowhere as bad as the things my peers have faced). When I was a teenager, I really felt like an alien, not being able to feel love even when I forced myself to do so. I felt like I was made wrongly, somehow. It took a lot of time to face myself in the mirror and proudly say that no, I'm not wrong, I'm not broken, I am just someone who doesn't feel romantic love and that is perfectly okay. If you are aroace and reading this, feel a virtual hug from a mutual :D

In the end, what I really want to express in this long as fuck post is that I want this blog to be a safe space for everyone reading. RP is to have fun :]. Spread platonic love and joy ~.

Stay safe , Stay proud , Stay happy ~

[red-angel-of-prevent1ng-harm]

[A human girl with short, fiery orange hair and glasses that look similar to Donnie's wanders into the lair, seeming lost but also not? She wears a red hoodie, and seems kinda exhausted. She kind of just stands there for a bit]

( @charred-ember )

{Raph was busy freaking out, so it took him a moment to notice the girl; but once he did, he perked up- more in confusion than anything.}

Uh, hey.... How did-

{Raph was going to ask how she got down here and where she came from, but something was pulling Raph in a different direction. So he does his best to calm himself down inside because the girl seems like she needs someone right now.}

You alright?

[You better believe he's using the same tone he does with his brothers. It's that, "Hey, I'm worried about you. Wanna talk to your big bro Raph about it? And don't worry, everything will be okay." tone. Idk why I explained it. It's The Tone. There's no explanation needed for that-]

[moriko-oc]

A portal opens and Aster comes out. He grabs his things and quickly searches for Moriko.

@master-of-d1saster

{The burrow is completely empty, no sign of Moriko or the kids. But there are bullet shells around the area.}

[I was not notified of this! I only saw it because I clicked on Moriko's account to see if anything was around! 😭]

[commander-mint]

[OOC

It's kind of amazing how we all don't know each other at all, or how we didn't even saw eachother irl yet we talk here doing silly little roleplays and sharing our little stories. I love u guys

[terrasdiary]

Casually found five unmarked graves next to Joseph's church at the compound, can't interact with them and there is no name on them either.

Couldn't find any information on who the graves belong to, but I have a suspicion that it symbolises Jospeh and the heralds - perhaps the fifth grave is for Rook? 🤔

Anyway, in my Far Cry-world the fifth one is for Terra.

[the-party-dude]

A text from Chiisai:

"Good news: Found Aster. Bad news: He attacc."

@pancake-at-midnight

{Mikey chirps quietly as he stirs, rubbing his face before checking his T-phone.}

"Wdym 'He attacc'? Why?"

[What? I've been distracted for 3 days? Idk what you're talking about. 😒]

[02xart]

ooc: I really need to kick myself in the ass and reach out to people. I yearn for rps

[henrytownshendtryinghisbest]

The In Water Ending

In a way, if you really pay attention to what James says right before he kills himself, ignoring the fact that people may think that he killing himself is the righteous punishment for what he did, the In Water Ending is more selfish than the Leave Ending could ever be, and another time James runs from taking responsability for anything.

What he says before offing himself is not about feeling guilt and requiring further punishment for what he did to Mary.

When James says:

"Without you, Mary, I have nothing."

This is about him being unable or, better, unwilling to (re)build his life and create (new) connections by himself again.

Yes, he misses her deeply and it is not something someone can control or should be ashamed of, but doing it this way, saying those words, it is still James responsabilizing his dead wife for his happiness or lack thereof.

It is (co)dependency; it is placing the burden on others for your well-being! It's massively selfish! Having to control someone else's moods is insanely difficult, exhausting, and abusive.

In another way, it is him finishing his punishment earlier, too.

Living (furthermore) with what he did, while we know that he felt guilty to the point of showing up in Silent Hill, is a much more expressive punishment and, at the same time, it is him taking responsibility in living without sucking other people's will to live, it is him taking responsibility for his own happiness too.