no need to feel obligated but i wonder if you'd share some of the weird and/or signs you didn't recognize as signs that you were plural?
Yeah why not. I'm a little brainfoggy right now but I can probably come up with some random unorganized list of things off the top of my head. um
A lot of things I related to without really knowing why like. Not necessarily literal plural-coded stuff, but things that depict experiences I didn't have the framework for why it felt familiar in a mundane sense. Would watch Jack Stauber's Opal or read Slaughterhouse-Five or watch Everything Everywhere All At Once and go "oh that's like me, that happened to me I do that" and then not be able to articulate to myself what the hell I even meant by that
Got like 5 different movies I would declare my favorite at any given time and not understand why I said it was one of the other 4 last time. Also applies to songs bands books etc etc
Sometimes I would go to type a post or send a message and it would not scan right to me in my own "usual" typing style, like I naturally wanted to type it in all lowercase, or I wanted to use uncharacteristic word order or emojis or something. Because some headmates can talk/write just slightly differently (Alias is the one who always does lowercase for reasons that are unknown but feel very normal when we're it)
10 billion abandoned projects and hobbies and interests but none of the typical adhd regret for things I actually still wanted to do. Because the person who did want to do that wasn't around to feel it
Distinct memory of how one time I came across a post from a blog I followed about bipolar that was talking about how OP's mania and depression feel like different realities, that oftentimes it seems like they become literally different people during manic or depressive episodes, and hit reblog thinking "holy shit that is so true how enlightening I feel like this exactly." Then like a few weeks later the OP said they got diagnosed with DID and I consciously decided not to think about that
Could never explain or fully understand the way time works for me or the way it's experienced both too fast and too slow and also out of order but I would jokingly say "oops I time traveled" when suddenly for some reason the clock was an hour behind the time I could've sworn it was last time I looked or it suddenly felt like I was literally the version of myself from 5 years ago and my new life circumstances were only vaguely familiar
One time I was just sitting on my computer in the living room and suddenly became aware that the person I ostensibly was, who ran this blog and had my friends, was not me, and I was perceiving and processing their presence/interactions as a third party, which unnerved me so suddenly and so much I just logged out and went to bed. And then I decided that didn't mean anything and it never happened
I guess most of these are us making the conscious decision to Never Mind All That














