#possible did

[pluraluserboxcreator]

can i have some that say "this user is a questioning system", "this user has possible DID", and "this user has possible OSDD" thanks sm !! ^^

Hihi! So sorry for the late request but here you go !! I hope you like it!/gen

[autumnstar06]

So im gonna try to explain whats going on in my head purely so people in my blog know what i mean by i might be a system (in reality i dont think i am but i do have other people in my head and i have since i was a kid)

My name is Felix, i am i guess the host, im primary the one in control of the body and i was the original ig

i was defiantly dissociated up until grade 6 when quarantine hit

the headspace is called 'the server' as well as our group (-Cass and Uruki ill get to them in a sec)

the headspace is the place where the main character of the series i started when i was 8 yrs old, lives

and everyone in the server looks like the first/main character from my series they voice act (dont ask ;-;/lh)

I also look like mine but i can bounce from looking like Nathalie to looking like my sona Rex, whom i can draw

Nathalie is just easier to animate (in my head) because of how many years shes been what i look like in my mind (if you wanna know shes a brown dog with brown eyes (no markings))

The best way i can describe us is like a group of people (who are now friends) in a discord server, everyones on the vc together unless you choose to leave, so yes they do sleep and leave

Taro and Amythest know how to be there while sleeping, i dont know how but theyre always there unless they leave for something

in total theres me, Cass, Uruki and 19 others

Cassadrina and Uruki are different to the server as in, 1, they do not have bodies, and 2, they can take over me

this is my body, by technicality, Cass and Uruki don't have bodies, when they take over (switching) theyre taking over my body, usually theres communication when someones going to take over unless im being an asshole and probably not taking care of myself

Uruki is like the little of the system? hes a dog, Cass is a cat, neither of them voice act for my series and neither of them look like one of my characters

and also, the server are not my characters, i do i think maladaptive daydream, but i know the difference, and i didn't make the server intentionally like i do with my characters

from grade 1 to grade 6, more people got put into the server, we didn't choose to be paired up with each other and only a couple of us knew another who also joined

Cass is like the protecter, she helped me alot when i was going through things and shes always looking out for me (not to say everyone else doesn't)

And also random thing I'm not sure if others have this but Cass hates food, it's like werid, she can sometimes deal with water but she doesn't eat or drink, I do that, her and Uruki don't have to it's not necessary, but Uruki still eats cause he likes food

Amythest was the last one to join just before i ressociated

In reality i don't know when i first met Cass and Uruki, but Star, John and Pat were the first people from the server

With the ages most everyones an adult, Tree and Luna moon crystal are the oldest besing like 50 or near there im too lazy to check rn and Jessica and Jake being 2 years older than me? i cant math rn but they just turned 18 (im 16 btw)

the main thing im confused about is, they have bodies? or atleast it feels like it, they cannot take over me because they don't have to and can't, why? because they have bodies and lives, which is why theyre not all there 24/7 like Cass and Uruki are, everyone lives in austrlia according to what they tell me, aside from amythest who is british

my main problem with my thing is i dont function like how i see most systems function, and also from what i remember i dont think the trauma i got was bad enough to become a system

and also the server are not me split, they carry no personality traits nor memories other than what they know, Cass and Uruki are more split me, Cass being much older, responsible and quiet (like a cat -sleeping) and Uruki being much younger, thinking less, not having any social anxiety and being much more carefree

It might have been affected by my autism and therianthropy which I won't rly go into

I'm not going to explain the more inner workings cause um, there is more, but yeah this is basically the gist

if you have any questions feel free to ask

please tell me if you know wth is going on with me btw too ;-;

[thenightceleste]

What I've found helpful is offering an alter who has had a difficult day (even if doesn't seem like it to anyone outside the system) just offering them something poptarts or instant macaroni and cheese, it tends to help, even if just a bit.

Whether they've been struggling with a lot anxiety that day or anger or even just struggling to make it through the day, a bit of food is a good idea.

(this is probably just the older brother part of me that wants to help in some way)

[rockin-raine]

Welcome to another game of am I a system or is it the autism

[rayn-letterspace]

scrolling thru my own blog admiring how clever i am

nd being confused at sponsored posts b/c i dont remember reblogging them

[dillomancy]

To the tune of "You're not autistic you're just a little silly.."

"You don't have DID you're just a little silly! ... And you cry when you read anything about DID but that's unrelated"

[the-world-ender-lh]

Doing a lil intro <3

Hi! I'm Imogen! I've been questioninf if I might be a system for a couple years now, but I really started considering it a few days ago after a conversation with a (singlet) friend. I repurposed this blog from another I wasn't using as a place to talk about my experience.

From the research I've done, I'd say the description of P-DID is the closest to my experiences. But I *won't* self diagnose with any specific disorder!! I'm not the expert after all.

What I do know is that I don't have amnesia in the way that a lot of people describe it? As in, they say they blink and it's been a month and now their hair's blue. For me, I feel like I'm constantly fronting, and maybe someone else is co-fronting a lot of the time too. I'll look back on the week and remember very little of it.

Feel free to dm me if you wanna discuss anything! I am no expert so if there's anything youd like to educate me on, please do so!

[spaceoddity09]

Updated my pinned post (intro). I'd prefer endogenic and other system origins to not interact with my blog. I thought there was no harm in them but after my time on the internet I've realized that couldn't be further from the truth.

(Rant under cut)

Even living with possible DID myself it hurts seeing their posts. Creating systems and purposely "splitting alters" just because they feel like it. Wishing for dissociation. Watering down the symptoms. Making a caricature of a very serious and debilitating disorder.

I don't want to go and hate them because from what I've seen. A lot of endogenic "systems" seem to be delusional to some degree. (That's just a personal opinion and I'm not a mental health professional).

So I'd rather not see what they're doing and saying. My life is already bad enough