I’m pretty exhausted, I worked a night shift (saturday night to sunday morning) and then had church service an hour later and stayed up for over 24 hours. I finally got to rest and I’m grateful that I don’t have to go to work again until tomorrow🙏🏼
(v. 1) “How long, Lord? Will you forget me forever? How long will you hide your face from me?”
This psalm is one I go to a lot when I’m having a hard time, when I’m grieving, when my depression is getting the best of me. I know in the past I felt like this a lot, I felt that God didn’t care about me, that He couldn’t possibly love me, that He was staying far far away from me. I had to work through that (and if you relate to this, I encourage you to work through it as well and I’m here to offer assistance if you need it!) - I know now the Lord doesn’t forget me or hide from me (but sometimes our heart can deceive us and allow us to feel this way)
(v. 2) “How long must I wrestle with my thoughts and day after day have sorrow in my heart? How long will my enemy triumph over me?”
David must’ve had depression because this is definitely what it feels like. It’s as if you’re battling your own mind, that you’re being pinned down and don’t have the strength to get back up. Your soul feels heavy under the weight of all your grief and sorrow and sometimes it’s even painful to be emotionally hurting so much (and I should saw that sorrow can affect you physically - there’s such a phenomena called broken heart syndrome) - we can use it as a strength though, our weakness can be used to relate and being others to Christ
(v. 3) “Look on me and answer, Lord my God. Give light to my eyes, or I will sleep in death,”
I have felt this way before too. You can feel so empty and defeated and wish for God to speak to you clearly and directly (in times like that I encourage you to open your Bible for it is His way of speaking to us!)
(v. 5-6) “But I trust in your unfailing love; my heart rejoices in your salvation. I will sing the Lord’s praise, for he has been good to me.”
THIS is what we must focus on. Despite everything that David wrote beforehand, despite how powerful our emotions are, despite all the pain we are going through, we must trust in the Lord. He will never stop loving us and He loves us immensely, so much so that He wants to save us, that He gave us Jesus for that very reason, that despite all we suffer through (and being a disciple means that we will suffer) He will be good to us and we are meant to continually praise Him and be grateful to Him!
