#questioning identity

[lunalillian]

I'm kindof doubting my beliefs and religion right now

As som of you may know, I am a member or the church of Jesus Christ of latter day saints. Most know this church as Mormons.

Recently, I was called to serve as a young women's 2nd counselor in the class presidency. I have to plan and create activities, and help older leaders with lessons during Sunday school.

I was asked on Wednesday to help teach a lesson on marriage....

As you may know... Im pansexual, demisexual, and questioning what I am pretty heavily.

My parents are iffy on it. Reasonably so, it goes against almost all their beliefs.

I was looking through the topic and discovered several articles saying that any form of same sex attraction or LGTBQ+ is a sin, and that those who identify with this should speak with their Bishop and leaders to fix it.

I'm scared. I was planning on coming out to my group of young women soon, I trust all of them. But now in not so sure.

Thankfully, I sent a message saying something along the lines of "I'm uncomfortable teaching this lesson" to the leader I work with. She said it's fine and thanks for the heads up.

What they don't know is the reason why.

I need advice or something. I'm not sure. Just like, tips on how to deal with it

[queerpride]

"Don't spend so much time trying to fit into a box or figure out a label due to outside pressures. It's okay to just exist knowing you're queer in some way, but still taking the time you need to figure out what that means for you."

— Anonymous, Pride 2024: Who We Are 🌈(survey)

[meltedsoggycrayons]

Quoting myself here from my last post:

Don’t spend so much time figuring yourself out, don’t obsess over it like I have. Don’t despair if you’re wrong or it changes. Things change and they will naturally over time. It is a phase. That is beautiful. You may want to figure it out and distress over your identity labels. Guess what?

“It doesn’t matter as much as joy. Be joyful.”

- Me

[anigitli]

hi guys UM. so im questioning being intersex, specifically some form of CAH. i have always felt different from both girls and boys throughout my life (which i originally attributed to being trans or something) and i think this could be why.

i had to see an endocrinologist around puberty age (i was referred for trans reasons) and they did hormone testing on me, they decided NOT to put me on any gender affirming hormones, and would keep delaying giving me gender affirming care by saying "yeah we will next year!!" (for 4 years)... despite them not giving me any gender affirming care, theyd still check my hormone levels regularly. in my early teens (13-14ish) theyd start doing physical exams too. at one point they wanted to do a surgical procedure on me?? but i cant remember what it was, and i was probably lied to about it anyways. insurance wouldnt cover it, though, so they didnt. they told me i will be short as an adult, and that i may have bone density issues... (which both seem to line up with CAS, from what ive read!) they also gave me a birth control medication known for feminization effects that is often used in transfem gender affirming healthcare, when i specifically told them i did not want to be feminized. i looked it up at one point at like 14 and its some progestin medication, i felt really sad that my doctor lied to me. they would also stress that i might become infertile and need to freeze my eggs, which i would repeatedly say no to, and theyd keep asking.

before i was born, all forms of hormonal screenings showed that i would be born male. my mom has told me this, she said she had boys names picked out for me because doctors predicted id be born male. they were surprised when i wasnt. i dont know if this is including ultrasounds or not??? but i know that based on my hormonal levels before birth and development, they predicted id be born male and were surprised when i wasnt. i also know my puberty wasnt ""normal"", my periods have always been irregular and ive had more body hair than most girls... there is more stuff, too, but id rather not talk about my genitals on the internet LOL

does anyone have any advice here?? what should i do?? im scared to seek a diagnosis currently with trumps ongoing bullshittery... but i dont know if im "allowed" to use the label without a diagnosis. am i allowed to call myself intersex or should i avoid it? should i seek a diagnosis even with the current legal stuff ongoing? any input would be greatly appreciated, thank you!

[loser-pet]

man I hate my meat suit so much sometimes. it’s so clumsy, it’s legs get so sore sometimes, it’s lungs can’t handle long strenuous exercise or even a brisk run/jog, it’s senses are both too strong and too weak… it doesn’t even look like how I’m supposed to look. it’s got boobs (no hate to boobs I’m just not supposed to have them (plus trans dysphoria goes brrrr)), it has the wrong ears, it has no fur or feathers or scales, it has the wrong shape and size… ugh.

is this what physical alterhumans think of when they think of their human body (talking specifically about non delusional physical alterhumans (no hate to them, I just don’t experience delusions so I can’t relate to them))?? I’m thinking I may be a physical nonhuman, but I know I have a human body, I just don’t identify with it at all, not on any level shape or form. it’s like having to wear a costume all the time—it’s not who I am, even though it’s how I appear to others. idk though!! physical alterhumans, please help! /nf

[stonerdoggyy]

GULP

so… I think I’m genuinely tweaking. I’ve always been a very “woke” person, especially considering queer people, like myself, because I’m very queer, like.. I’m not out out yet, but I honestly I think I have a xenogender identity, but I’ve also been coming to the terms that I like girls how a girl likes girls, I like dudes and nb people how a man/genderless person likes them, and I’m not sure what the fuck you call that

[shoujogrief]

nneew INTRO

Kasper or yui for names

they/it/oneself/he prns pls, any are fine I jst prefer those spec

transgender nonbinary omnisexual..mainly w/ a pref of men thank you

Yuri lover (if you couldn't tell)

Massive crossover shipper i luv crossover ships <3

Yumeshipper too!!!

I use leetspeech or leetspeak alot, only mainly e , i, t and O.

Hi I like vocaloid cookie run Dandys world necrojimbo forsaken behind the shelf why me project diva and alot of other shit

fav songs or whatevs

Fav characters frm fandoms heh.

dandys world : flutter scraps bassie eggson n shely!!! dude i love them sm heeellp.

blocktales : kyoko blue noob banished knight n griefr!!!!!!!! been a griefer fan since and blue noob is so ssilly I LOVE HER!!!! /p i would adopt her ngl with red..griefer is my husband and wife apparently

objectified : fuzzball fossil painkiller n sunny!!!!!!!! ^_^ nothin much to say bout em heh i rlly liek silly characters if fuzzball feels so me core and painkiller (>_<)

madoka magica : KYOKO!!!!! ive never watched madoka sadly :::((((( she seems cool tho :3

nso : ame!!! shes so me core fr.

vocaloid : SAKINE MEIKO SAKINE MEIKO IIII LOOOVEEE YOUUUU MY BBG!!!! i also liek seeu, elenoar, gumi, meiko, miku, and haku!!!!!!

tptm : def refraction girl or whatever her name was,,, ,,,,,, i als o like jordyn 2 :3333

regetevator : GUPPY, SCAG, STAT, SPLIT AND PILBY!!!! also prototypw and dr retro too I have so many favs it's not that funny anymkre HELP

crk : nutmeg tiger, cream ferret, silent salt, rye cookie, mozzarella cookie, stormbringer, the chap 7 bosses of crisipiea or whaeer the fuck it's called I forgor...uhuhuUHHHH...dsrk cacoa, hollyberry, eternal sugar,,,, that's it oh my fucking god that's so many

yeah that's it SHOO