#robbydon

[dorian-they-ao3]

[hucklenberries]

size difference go crazy!! but also, robby standing beside his new favourite while having a stare-off with his old favourite. the greed they talk about

[apricustar]

the thing about the 12 steps of recovery is that they aren’t a cure; completing the steps doesn’t mean you’ve crossed a finish line and are in the clear. it’s a cyclical framework—something you live with day in and day out. it is not a reset button.

the step frank is on—step 9—has been called his ‘apology tour,’ but that fundamentally misconstrues the purpose of this stage: in recovery, there is a huge distinction between an apology and making amends—the latter being the proper language of step 9. an apology is often just words; an amend is ownership of past harm, a willingness to repair, and, most importantly, respect for the other person’s readiness.

step 9 even includes an 'except' clause: you don't clear your conscience at the expense of someone else's wellbeing. you can't force someone to forgive you, nor can you force them to listen. this clause is the ultimate safety valve of the program.

in the rooftop scene, frank is seeking absolution, but the steps ask for restitution. by effectively cornering robby—who has been sidestepping him all day—frank is prioritizing his own relief over robby’s comfort. even sober, the pattern lingers: the impulse to shape the situation until it produces emotional relief. almost like he wants the ‘high’ of being forgiven—or at least to be acknowledged by robby, more than he has been this shift so far.

real amends require consent. if the other person isn’t ready, the ‘amend’ is to respect that boundary—even if that means distance or silence—not to force a confrontation. apologizing while they were on that roof—trapped by the arrival of a patient—turns accountability into pressure. robby physically couldn’t rush off, making the moment all about frank, negating the very purpose of an amend: to return agency to the person harmed, to center their needs. if frank were truly focused on making amends to the ER—to robby—he would realize the best way to 'make right' his past is to stay sober, focused, and dependable—letting his actions speak louder than his words, especially when robby has already turned his words away several times this shift. instead, he added to the emotional pressure, forcing robby to react on frank’s timeline rather than his own, and making the act of accountability feel like an ambush rather than a meaningful amend.

robby’s response is a perfectly healthy boundary. what frank did is more than a simple apology can fix. as the attending—the chief!—it is literally robby's job to be on top of things; he is in charge of—and responsible for—the residents, their work, and the safety of every patient.

for a man who believes he should be omnipresent and all-seeing, missing frank’s struggle must have felt like a massive personal failure. robby isn't in the mindset to hear frank out because he’s still metabolizing the betrayal. amongst other things! trust isn't something you regain just because you’ve stopped the behavior; it’s something you earn back through consistency. in a job that requires an extraordinary amount of having each other's backs, robby has every right to say that bridge is still down. that it may never fully be rebuilt.

moreover, frank is likely caught in a kind of 'recovery urgency'—the breathless need to make things right as quickly as possible. he's clouded by his own desperation, especially when it comes to someone like robby, who has not only been his mentor, but arguably the person he looked up to the most. that history intensifies the pressure: frank wants recognition, validation, some amount of closure, and he feels a limited window what with robby leaving for sabbatical. in his mind, time is running out to 'fix' things, and that sense of frantic necessity can override judgement, making him push forward even when the other person isn't ready. i don't think frank is being malicious—he's just being impatient, and self-focused—which isn't how the spirit of the steps work. he's so busy trying to feel forgiven, to ease his own conscience in some way, that he's completely disregarding the actual point of the amend: that it belongs to robby, not him. the reality of it is that robby doesn't even owe him a conversation.

step 9 isn’t a negotiation for forgiveness. it’s a statement of fact—(e.g.: 'i endangered our patients, i lied to you, what i did was wrong.')—followed by an acceptance of the consequences. if the consequence is never speaking to that person again, being kept at a professional distance, or accepting that you are no longer 'the favorite,' then that is the amend. the response belongs to robby in this case, not frank.

one of the hardest lessons of the 12 steps—and one frank hasn’t fully learned—is that accountability repairs the self; it does not entitle you to a place in someone else’s future, nor does it guarantee reconciliation, forgiveness, or access to another person's trust. recovery is internal first. relationships may follow, but only on the timeline of the person who was harmed.

[inogart]

a longing gaze

[rattusrattusx]

tantric lovers are back

[puppiegracie]

MICHAEL ROBINAVITCH IS A BISEXUAL WHORE!!!!

[soemotional]

langdon pursues whitaker once robby's off on his sabbatical. it starts off as an effort to get back at robby. frank fantasizes about the expression on their attending's face when he returned and put one and two together.

but after spending more time with whitaker, he realizes how massively he's fucked himself. frank learns how sad dennis is about doctor robby, one night over drinks, whitaker shares how left behind he feels. langdon knows the feeling. too well.

frank then finds himself seeking out whitaker more at work in the following weeks. and the lingering looks, well timed squeezes, strategic brushes, and lack of clarity from langdon are all too familiar to dennis.

and if dennis yells at frank in a storage closet that he's acting like robby !! and frank picks a fight because why tf would u say that to me !! then what !!

[errt-lat]

"I wen to rehab, all I saw was you"

Wtf noah...

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