a/n: shut up I’m so proud of this and I wrote it so fast I’m shocked
You and Soonyoung's relationship started when he made fun of the clothes on your dolls at one of the dinner parties your parents always dragged you along to. Later the relationship changed from innocent bickering, to not so innocent kisses shared behind the private school you both attended. The first time Soonyoung kissed you he had been thinking about it long before he had the courage to do so. He kissed you abruptly, a young and inexperienced thing. He apologized as soon as his lips pulled away from yours. ‘Sorry’ had barely left his throat before you were tugging at his tie wanting more.
Between secret nights spent in hotel rooms of foreign countries and days spent entirely on the sofa of your apartment in sweats. You and Soonyoung were best friends long before you were anything more. Soulmates, Soonyoung had told you, in more ways than one.
You called Soonyoung suddenly asking him to book a place for the night. A place for the two of you. You ended the call without further explanation. The rawness in your voice answered all the questions Soonyoung could've had.
He booked a place for that night and texted you the address.
Three shaky knocks on the door of the motel room, and Soonyoung opened the door to the pink of your nose and tint in your cheeks. You nearly fell into his arms clutching his dress shirt like your life depended on it.
“What's wrong?” Worry bleeded through Soonyoung’s voice as he pulled you into the room.
“Soonyoung I'm-” you hesitated, your swollen and red eyes becoming apparent to Soonyoung. Suddenly, the feeling of the band around your finger became impossible to ignore.
“I’m engaged.”
You spent the next hour and a half fighting about nearly everything. Why did you say yes, Soonyoung had fumed at you. You defended your actions with your parents. You told him about how they begged and pleaded for you to accept the proposal a week prior. A week, Soonyoung thought, you knew for a whole week and not once did you tell him. You told him about how they've never asked much of you, how they've only ever asked you to do this. Soonyoung wondered aloud if you were willing to give your entire life away for your parents. You answered with a strong and steady voice, yes but that your marriage was not your entire life. That's the problem with only children, Soonyoung thought to himself, they would do too much for their parents. In retrospect, it was so silly to have kept your relationship a secret. When he voiced his these thoughts, you told him that this would have happened whether your parents knew or not. That shut Soonyoung up, and for the next thirty minutes the two of you sat on opposite ends of the bed in complete and utter silence.
until
Soonyoung held out his hand.
You took it without question or hesitation.
“Dance with me,” he whispered into your neck, pulling you closer with a hand on the small of your back, “please,” he added.
You followed suit and put your hand on his shoulder. “But there's no music.” You stated more like an observation rather than a worry.
“Music is for amateurs,” Soonyoung told you. In normal circumstances you would've laughed, but this wasn't exactly normal was it?
The two of you swayed back and forth to the sound of sirens and tv from the neighboring room. He twirled you around a couple times and called you beautiful. He had a feeling you wished he hadn't. He watched you avoid his gaze instead focusing on the veins in his neck or maybe it was the collar of his shirt. He watched your bare face somehow bright in the low light of the cheap motel. He watched you and was filled more than ever before with the soul crushing thought that you were breathtakingly beautiful, but also that you were no longer his.
“I love you,” he muttered into your hair. You stopped swaying with Soonyoung then, and looked into his equally puffy eyes. You opened your mouth as if to say something, but no sound left the curves of your lips. It wasn't the first time he had said it, but he wished he could ignore the fact that it might be the last. His words hung in the air coiling tighter around his neck with each passing second of silence until you nodded.
You buried your face into his shoulder replacing his words with your arms around his neck. He wrapped his arms around your waist and somehow managed to pull you closer than you already were.
It didn't take long for his shoulder to be damp with your tears. Your nearly silent sobs and sniffles filling the motel room. He couldn't be sure whether you were crying for him or for yourself. Probably both.
“Soonyoung,” you whimpered lifting your head just slightly. “I-” you began looking for the right words in the darkness of his eyes.
“I know,” Soonyoung assured you tucking your head under his chin. You wrapped your arms tighter around his neck and leaned into his frame. Your sobs continued not as silently as they had before. And all of the previous memories Soonyoung shared with you gathered in his eyes and fell down the crevices of his face.
“Please don't cry Soonyoung” you muttered over your own cries.
“Hypocrite,” he whispered, only half joking.
“Please.”
“Okay,” Soonyoung said with ease. Truth is, Soonyoung would do anything you asked of him. He would carry the world on his shoulders just to see you smile. Your smile was brighter than the sun and made him happier than anything or anyone, he had told you once. Looking back he should have said it more.
The two of you stayed like that for the better part of that night. In each others arms. Neither of you said much but you both figured it was better that way, there wasn't much either of you could say anyways. Soonyoung wished there would be more nights that he could spend in the comfort of your arms and in the familiarity of your presence. Just one more night he could spend with you.
Not once that night did you say I love you back. If he had asked you, you would've said you were preparing to say it to someone else.
The next time Soonyoung heard from you was when your wedding invitation came in the mail. All he remembers from that night was the hum of your voice mail. Over and over again. The rest of the events of that night were drowned with vodka.
The next time Soonyoung saw you was at your own wedding. You looked impossibly beautiful, and Soonyoung made sure you knew. He sent you a toothy grin as you and your husband walked down the aisle together, and just for a second your smile faltered. Soonyoung made a face, and you laughed at him while being pulled farther away. Soonyoung decided to focus on how he made you laugh rather than anything else. At the reception, you came and sat next to him scolding him for still sitting down. Soonyoung complemented the venue and the ceremony and told you it was beautiful. Then he paused before saying how beautiful you looked voice barely above a whisper. Soonyoung pulled out a card and handed it to you. Wordlessly, you opened and read the card. He watched you read the card suddenly thinking that maybe it hadn't been a very good idea. You looked at him once you finished reading. Your face looked neither sad nor happy. Something closer to nostalgic Soonyoung thought.
You stood up and pulled Soonyoung into a tight hug with your chin resting on his shoulder. Soonyoung leaned into your touch savoring it one last time.
“ok well i guess that's it then,” you hummed into Soonyoung’s shoulder. He chose not to respond.
You released the hug then not wanting it to be too long. Soonyoung told you how beautiful you looked once more and committed every detail of your face to memory before you left to greet the other guests. This time, as Soonyoung left the reception hall, he decided to focus on the way you whispered ‘i love you’ one last time.
Seungcheol/S.coups: He’d be an aggressive cuddler constantly pulling you into tight hugs. When he gives you back hugs he’ll rest his chin on your shoulder, wrapping his arms around your waist and he’d pull you closer to his body. He’d always be willing to cuddle with you and would be very good at it.
Jeonghan: He’d be one to love having you close to his chest when you’re hugging him.He’d also be another to love back hugs and would give you lots of kisses on the cheeks when he does hug you. He’d love to hold your hand and intertwine your fingers together.
Jun: He would love wrapping his arms around you in a warm bear hug. He’d give you forehead kisses and little nose kisses. He’d want to give you surprise kisses all the time. Like, in the middle of you saying something or when he thinks you’re acting cute.
Hoshi: He would be a fun kind of cuddler. He’d love to pick you up and spin you in the air or tickle your sides when cuddling on the couch. You would be able to do things like run up to him and have him catch you so that you could wrap your legs around his waist.
Joshua: This sweetheart would be so sweet and gentle with you when cuddling. When he’s holding your hand he’d rub his thumb over your hand lightly. He’d love giving you warm hugs and just staying like that forever. When sleeping he’d make sure that his arm is always wrapped around your waist and your head would rest on his chest.
DK/Seokmin: He’d be another fun but sweet cuddler. He love to have you resting against his chest comfortably with both his arms wrapped around you. He’s love to tickle you when you least expect it and then kiss both your cheeks then your lips when he got close enough.
Wonwoo: He’d be such a nice cuddler. When you are spooning with him he wouldn’t want to let you go. He’d mumble for you to come back when you try and creep away. He’d also place his lips at the nape of your neck and when he talks to you and you’d feel his breath on your neck tickling you softly. But, that would only make you smile more because he wouldn’t even notice it. He’d always want to wrap you up in his arms especially when he’s wearing a big sweater.
Mingyu: He’d be one to wrap his whole body around you when cuddling. If you were lying down he’d tangle his legs in yours and keep his hand on your lower back. He’d want to be really close to you when cuddling and would constantly pull you closer to him. It would be hard to pull away from him when he’s cuddling you, especially when he’s sleeping.
Woozi: He’d love things like hugging you from behind or even having you hug him from behind. He’d give you small kisses when you’re laying next to each other. He’d be a little shy when it comes to skin ship at first but would love it.
The8/Minghao: He would be a soft cuddler. He’d love holding you close to him in a long warm hug. He’d love the moments when the two of you are laying side by side in a comfortable silence. He’d do things like caressing your cheek and then kissing your forehead.
Seungkwan: He’d always joke around when cuddling you. He’d love coming up behind you and covering your eyes so that he could ask ‘guess who?’ He’d be kind of a protective cuddler wanting to be the only one to hold you and kiss you.
Vernon/Hansol: He’d be one to always playfully tease you. He’d do things like telling you to kiss him on the cheek then turning his head at the last second so that you kiss his lips instead. He’d also do things like leaning in to kiss you but he never actually kisses you. You’d open your eyes and then he’d say something like “you thought that I was going to kiss you, didn’t you?” with a huge smile on his face.
Dino/Chan: He’d be a playful cuddler. He’d love to give you eskimo kisses or small kisses on the cheek every now and then. He’d be kind of a clingy cuddler, always wanting to hug you or have you close. But it'd be cute and you'd love it.
What would B.A.P.'s reaction be like if they would invite you to their house and introduce you to his parent's as his future wife, but their parents don't like you
I have returned! Finally, the lack of internet was so painful 3 Hope you like it ^.^
Yongguk: *drinks problem away*
.....*realizes one needs to face problems and not resort to alcohol*
Himchan.... well....that didn't go as planned...
Daehyun: Wait...what?
Jongup: I could NOT find good gifs of Jongup cause dude is almost always smiling and being adorably goofy gah!
Youngjae: And then we went for a walk on the beach and ..."We hate her"
Zelo: Parents tell him they don't like her and he is too immature to get married...*proves them wrong* ??