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If there is anything the schizoid individual is likely to believe in, it is his own destructiveness..... to be loved threatens the self. But his love is equally dangerous. His isolation is not entirely for his own sake but also for the sake of others.
R.D. Laing The Divided Self
Mermi girmemiş.Biz inandığımız şeyiz.Vay anasını, çok havalı! Var olduğumuza artık inanacaklar değil mi? İnanmak zorunda kalacaklar.Şimdi ne yapacağız? Ona güveneceğiz.Bizi koruyacak.Ne yapabildiğine baksanıza? Ne kadar güçlü olabileceğimizi tüm dünyaya göstersin.
Split / Parçalanmış
In a last resort [to keep both himself and others safe] he sets about murdering the 'self' but this is not as easily as cutting ones throat. He descends into a vortex of non being in order to avoid being, but also to preserve 'being' from his 'self'
R.D. Laing The Divided Self
She withdrew into unreality as an adult because she had already been driven into a schizoid state as a child. The result was derealization of her outer world and depersonalization of herself.
Harry Guntrip, Schizoid Phenomena, Object Relations and the Self.
Thereby he felt himself to be the master of a situation, in entire conscious control of his expressions and actions, calculating with precision their effects on others. To be spontanious was merely stupid. It was simply putting oneself at other people’s mercy.
R.D. Laing, The Divided Self
In the schizoid condition here described there is a persistant scission between the self and the body. What the individual regards as his true self is experienced as more or less disembodied, and bodily experience and actions are in turn felt to be part of a false self system.
R.D. Laing, The Divided Self
A firm sesnse of one's own autonomous identity is required in order that one may be related as one human being to another. Otherwise, any and every relationship threatens the individual with loss of identity.
R.D. Laing, The Divided Self
This is a Pink Floyd song that has stuck with me since I first heard it. As Pink Floyd songs go this one is average from an overall point if view. However the lyrics are very descriptive of broken, if not schizoid, condition. The main reason this song has stuck with me is because two sections are sung with two voices singing different lyrics at the same time. (in the above image this is where the black and purple words overlap) Sometimes when I experience more extreme fragmentation; I hear these lyrics just playing as if heard from the other end of a ghostly tunnel.
For reference, my definition of fragmentation when describing a mental state is when cognitive dissonance runs high and ambivalent feelings/opinions are held. I am also more likely to hear voices and experience other sensory hallucinations. It is as if the world has been broken into fragments and then I experience each fragment in a kind if isolation, I also feel more fragmented inside. I don’t experience my ‘self’ as a unified whole as most people do, I often feel ‘torn in all directions’ unable to make a decision, but not because I’m unable to make a decision, but because internally 2 or more voices all with conflicting opinions turn up and both of them feel like me so I can’t pick one over another. I usually have to resort to impersonal, logical methods to reach a decision which explains why I can come across as mechanical.
“No more than alive, I barely survived.”
I’m fairly certain Pink Floyd weren’t really writing music about Schizoid Personality Disorder, it’s more likely that they were writing about feeling broken, but these lyrics resonate with me for their descriptive qualities.
