#school venting

[wanderingmind867]

I think it says something about me that I teared up a little when the teacher scolded the class. I'm so sensitive that I couldn't even handle hearing the teacher upset. I empathized with him but also felt like I was being targeted (even though I wasn't), and those two things combined to make me tear up and feel angry at the other students. So this is the kind of stuff i talk about when i say i'm really sensitive.

[wanderingmind867]

I feel like the media always shows kids as eager to leave elementary or high school, but that's never been representative of me. I wish there was more media presence for kids who suffer panic attacks at the thought of leaving school. The fact that I have to worry I seem weird for feeling college is unfair and unnaturally unwelcoming (despite the kindness of the staff members I've met) is something that really bothers me. I feel like I legitimately have to be thankful some of the people on here and some of my high school teachers understood my perspective. Because it's easy to lose perspective when you're stressed and you don't have many friends (my only incredibly close friendship really being with my dad).

I wrote my first two sentences of this post hours ago, and I think that shows in the writing. But I'm still gonna post this anyways. Me and my dad had to order food out for dinner because we were out at the College until noon today, so if that ends up bothering my stomach...well, I want to be confident I'll get this posted before my stomach can dare to try flaring up again. Because I don't trust it not to do that. And it's still nice to get this posted, because I actually wrote those first couple sentences when I was at the college. So this post has been waiting to be made for a few hours.

[rewindingsaturnsxd]

Guys i hate my new school so fcking much

The french teachers keeps telling me to do my jacket off while the class is freezing asf

And my class keeps shipping me with almost everyone even tho am aroace,i dindt tell them that am aroace cause they would prob ignore that fact

Everyone is so damm small like am taller then all the girls and even then some of boys (i only got like 3-4) with like the same height as me) and my class keeps making a lot of noise when the teacher is away and they keep grabbed their thick book from their backpack and slam it on the desk and i have fckihg autism so that keeps ringing in my ears :(

[ssugarloaf]

TEMPORARY HIATUS FOR EXAM SEASON

Y'all probably won't see much of me until the middle of May (maybe before), but almost all of my lecturers have moved the deadline for our finals to be in the last weeks in April. So wish me luck ig

[ssugarloaf]

To think that the only time I begin to like Philosophy is when my teacher starts making sense

[dash-n-step]

Thinking about it, it's wild that the only time I can recall anywhere ever outright saying "yeah, I was bullied" was when I had to go back to my home highschool, and a random girl was sticking up for me.

I don't even remember the exact situation, but the way she was just like "hey don't be so hard on them, they were bullied" was just like

a weird combination of "wow holy shit, someone recognized that I was bullied" and "wow, was it really that obvious that I'm the way I am because I was bullied" and a little bit of "hey wait a minute, weren't you one of/with one of the people who bullied me?"

like

[mochafoams]

SCHOOL VENTING!!

Tw: venting, mentions of being/feeling trapped, naive writer, rejecting ones feelings, rejecting their own feelings, deep talk of hating school, mention of getting someone sick on purpose, cussing.

Written with microphone, so many grammar mistakes. Crappy mic..

Why do I hate school? That's a question that I ask myself, and I can never figure out why. I just have a feeling, a dreadful feeling every time when I walk into the building. I feel trapped because I am. People say that it's just a certain amount of days to stay there but it feels like an eternity. It's usually, like, 36 hours staying there for a whole week.

And I try to downplay it like everyone else does but it doesn't sit right with me because I don't want to be there. Teachers say "if you don't want to be here go home," but the government won't let our parents keep us there and our parents won't let us stay here. Of course it's difficult for parents or teachers to understand how kids really don't want to be at school and that their minds feel like they're trapped, even though they say, "oh yeah I used to go to school when I was younger," but this now the present.

You guys can't get mad at me when I feel like I do enough at school. Yeah all I do is homework and the school work that they give me, but that's what I'm going there for. I'm not going there for like an after-school program, I'm not going there to talk to a counselor for no reason, and I'm definitely not going there for no reason in general!

And I almost- I almost come home everyday with f****** math homework so I am doing enough! It's not like I don't have classwork to do, I always get my work done quickly because I don't want to have to sit at home and drag school into my home life. I don't care if you say homework is for home I'll do it whenever I get the chance. I will take my lunch break away from myself and do homework then because I will not bring it to the only place I have a little bit of comfort in.

And I try my best in school. I'm being serious I get- I have credit roll and I'm going for Honor Roll. I'm trying even though I hate school so much but I am trying to be the best student there possibly is! Well I wouldn't say that I want to go that far but I'm trying my best and you guys always just deny my feelings whenever I say something negative about school. My whole mood will change when you just say, "you have your stuff ready for school tomorrow?" Or, "remember you have school tomorrow?" I will never be the same after you say those words or something related to school it just messes me up that bad.

I don't get bullied or anything in school it's just a school air that brings negative energy to me. Just going to bed and knowing that I have to wake up at 7:40 a.m. in the morning to get up and go to school before 8:30 or 8:45 just puts me in a bad mood. And I know people have to wake up earlier for school or work and 7:40 doesn't sound that bad, and I really don't care about what time I need to get up and leave.

But if I try to get myself sick so I don't have to go to school, you should know how much I hate it.