#science student

[mercurycyllene]

Not good enough at singing to be a singer

Not good enough at drawing to be an artist

Not good enough at writing to be an author

So instead now I'm here learning science while trying to vibrate out my skull.

[saheira-dreams]

Tuesday 14 July 2026

Have to grind bio before mocks the day after tmrw✨

Also recently got into this band called hrtz.wav and I love them 😭

But no one around me knows who they are 😐

So for now I'm just praying that the toxic kpop fans never get to them they're so precious😭🙏

[saheira-dreams]

Wednesday 08 July 2026

Bio alt to pract papers are so demonic I swear 😭🙏

Or maybe our teachers just convinced we have enough exposure and yet I still don't know how to answer most of these questions 😭😭

[saheira-dreams]

Sunday 05 July 2026 (11 48 pm 🙂)

Dying of cramps and failing to sleep.

I was thinking about university... And how, despite knowing how hard it would be to go abroad and study in a foreign country, all on my own, I still want to. I long for it.

Yes, I do want an escape from home. But that's not the only reason.

Going abroad feels like... a fresh start. There's just something so appealing about the concept of going to a place where no one knows who you are. No one who thinks "oh that's X's daughter" or "that's Y's older sister" -- instead, people would just see me and probably wouldn't even spare a thought. "Oh another student", "another foreigner".

I also like the concept of having that much independence. As a primarily sheltered kid, that's a lifestyle I've been wanting to have. Its funny because being at home means your parents still have that control over you... I find that each time I try to do something to benefit me, to improve myself, the minute my mom finds out about it, she tries to take control of it... And that leads me to be secretive of those things too. Even if I wasn't entirely raised to be able to, I think I'd be able to adapt to living on my own, managing my own money and studies and laundry and cooking and cleaning... I'll adapt. I'll survive. And Im confident I'll thrive.

I know I'll be homesick eventually, as everyone is, but I think one thing that would work to my advantage is my love for alone time. I genuinely enjoy spending time alone. I like keeping to myself, reading, watching shows, writing, studying... I like doing all those alone. I do enjoy my friends' presence but at a point I do get drained afterwards. (As you can tell, I'm a mega introvert haha) So spending time alone helps me recharge and reflect (and I can never get enough of it sadly😐✨)

Maybe I'm just complaining a lot..

But also, I do find myself in these spirals where I think about all the possibilities future me will be part of-- the future is full of unknown which is so scary yet exciting...

I think I'm just looking forward to exams being over... Just 4 more months and then it's over and I'll be free✨

Till then I shall work hard for those a stars ✨

T'was an odd rant.. idk if I should post these or if they're pointless... Let me know maybe?

And of course, if you stuck around till here, thank you buddy 🙂❤️ I hope my lil rant inspired you somehow.

If not, I hope my future rants will inspire you🙂

[imaguywithnoname]

Becoming a true science student is realizing that your results being accurate to the expected results is less important than knowing why they weren't. 'Cuz like, if it was perfect to the expected, we wouldn't need science, we could just do math.

[endlessnightskyshoutsback]

shout out to my textbook of quantum mechanics for including a little mousey in the margins for. emotional support i guess and he is never seen or mentioned again

[endlessnightskyshoutsback]

looking at a reference textbook and lowk fangirling abt seeing the Schrödinger eqn like. omg i know him 🥰🫵💥💥💥

[saheira-dreams]

12/05

Yesterday we started afternoon classes and I did NOT realise how tired I was until I came home, accidentally worked out for too long ate lunch and then did my physics homework.

I then tried to study chemistry since we started organic chemistry and I really want to study it everyday but I could I legit ended up falling asleep for a whole hour.

Fast forward to 10pm when I realised I had mech hw too ✨ I managed to finish it by 11 15 but I left two questions 🤷 oh well

I've been getting into geopolitics again ive been reading a history book and started watching professor jiangs series on game theory. It's so funnn