I always thought id pick you in a busy room, but when the day came i couldn’t. and thats how i knew i didn't love you anymore, those big blue eyes were the only thing that got me and only after multiple looks. I dont know how long its been since the day i saw you for the first time in two years, but i didn't even recognise you. The person i was once so in love with a complete stranger unrecognisable. One metre away and still no idea why a “stranger” was intensively staring at me... until i realised that stranger was you. The person who taught me so many life lessons, bought me so many toxic memories as well as so many good ones. Seeing you was a bitter sweet moment, one that didn't feel the way i expect it too. The first moments of realising it was you was pure shock, then it turned into anxiety, then sadness . Sadness only because in that moment i realised that the person i always thought you were never existed, because in that moment i saw that you weren't the person i ever thought you were.
Trying now move past the way you treated me and the way you made me feel and meet someone else, its hard. Not because I still love you because the person i feel in love with wasn't you; but because trying to find someone who is worth the risk of going through potential heart break again.
