Day Four: Do you struggle to accept compliments? Why do you think that is? Is there a specific one you struggle with the most?
I don’t struggle to accept compliments when it’s regarding my performance on the job or in an educational setting. I think this is because I know that I work hard to succeed in these particular areas of my life.
However, I do struggle to accept compliments regarding my physical appearence. Particularly, surrounding my body. I’ve always had body image issues. These began when I was younger, from my parents always joking that I was chubby or thick and that I needed to watch my wieght or eat healthy. I know they didn’t say this with malicious intent, but I’ve internalised those words which had been engraved in me for so long. For so long, that they began to change the perception that I had about myself and my beauty. I’ve never loved my body, not during highschool and not now. I’m always striving to loose those extra 20 pounds. But, it wasn’t until 3rd year when I gained 20 pounds after I had stopped competing as a varsity athlete that I really starting thinking about my self view. Looking back at photos, I seemed so small, so thin, so in shape, but in the moment I never felt like that. This made me realize that maybe it was never about what weight I was currently sitting at but rather the image that I had already prepared in my head. Nonetheless, these are things I am trying to work on. I’m trying to eat healthier, which has not gone well so far and have also tried to excersize more. Moving forward, I am going to try to better implement these things into my everday life.
