#slef healing

[darlingzrofor]

not easy to love a person..who dosent exist

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[darlingzrofor]

inner pov

my inner child still lives here

i’ve been thinking a lot about my inner child lately. not in some deep therapeutic way, just... they shows up sometimes. unexpected. quiet, but loud in feeling.

like when something small hurts more than it should. or when i get excited about silly things and then immediately feel embarrassed. that’s them. they are still in here. watching. waiting. sometimes whispering

i don’t think i ever learned how to listen to them. when i was younger, i was told to grow up fast. don’t cry. don’t be dramatic. act normal. be strong. so i did. i shut them down. pushed theyre feelings somewhere far, somewhere i didn’t have to look.

but lately, i can feel them more. like they been knocking all this time, and i’m finally tired of ignoring it.

i see them when i’m anxious and don’t know why. i hear them when i feel small in a room full of people. i feel them when i want comfort but don’t know how to ask

theyre scared. confused. lonely sometimes. but also curious, joyful, full of wonder — when i let them speak.

so i’m trying now. not in a perfect way, but i’m trying. trying to give them space. to let them laugh at dumb stuff. to cry when they needs to. to play, rest, be held — even if it’s just me hugging a pillow in the dark.

healing isn’t pretty. it’s messy and awkward. but i think part of it is remembering the version of me that just wanted to be loved without conditions.