#slimmingworldjourney

[simplyghoststu]

In from work and some boiled eggs for breakfast. #protein #eggs #slimming #slimmingworld #slimmingworlduk #slimmingworldjourney #slimmingworldfood #slimmingworldfamily #healthy #healthyfood #healthyeating #healthychoices (at Simply Ghost Nights)

[deiasilva10]

#Repost @mrs.sjwalker87 ・・・ Standard day in the Walker household. #superbaby #superman #wonderwoman #fancydress #family #marriage #love #heroes #slimmingworld #slimmingworldjourney #party #weekendvibes #l4l #cape #blue #stars

[franfromfattofit]

I have been getting lots of comments about how thin or skinny I look.I am really struggling to get my head around these comments.I do not see myself as skinny or thin,I guess 20 years spent being an obese person messes with your head?I never know what to say and just get all shy and awkward 😩😩

[losinghalfahuman-blog]

Hell hath no fury like a woman scorned... or does it?

5 weeks ago I would have caved if today occurred back then.

It’s amazing how so much can change in such a short space of time, when you recognise patterns in your behaviour, and consciously try to alter your thought process.

I am living proof this can happen.

Just 5 short weeks ago I was an utter mess, a girl who had zero hope of a future as all I could see was my impending death, if I didn’t change, and truth be told I thought it was going to end up the same as the other 900 times I’ve tried to change my life… but this isn’t the case anymore.

5 weeks later and 1 stone 4 lbs down I am walking better, I don’t feel like my legs are splitting in half anymore when I stand from a low seated position and I can climb the stairs without pulling myself up with the hand rail… and the best thing I have noticed is when walking down steps I am doing so without having to stop for a second before I can step down due to fear of missing it.

On Friday I walked from the bus station to my room booking without stopping once… two weeks ago I stopped twice and couldn’t get my breath by the time I got to the entrance of the building. (Ironically I had to lean on a wall next to a weight watchers advertisement ha ha!)

I can’t believe such a small amount of weight has made such a difference to my life. I am not cured, it still hurts, I still ache, I still struggle to walk, I am just walking longer than a few weeks ago… but this is all progress. It’s great seeing the lbs come off week by week, but I am at a point where the physical signs and symptoms of this weight loss are much greater than that, and this is what is pushing me on, because if one stone in I am seeing this much of a difference, where am I going to be by stone two, three and even FIVE?!

My dream is to run again. I used to love running. I used to run three miles regularly, sometimes six. When my emotions were reaching boiling point I would run until I felt my lungs were gonna burst, that way I would REALLY feel alive and my emotions would dissolve.

I have a friend who is pregnant at the moment who loves to run also, so one day I hope I can go on a run with her, somewhere nice. I know she would be so proud!

But on to the main purpose of this post; Today I found out someone in my family has been telling lies about me for their own personal gain, I don’t know what they hope to gain from it but hey ho? Not everyone has the standard of morals a genuine normal person likes to uphold do they…

This to me is betrayal, family is supposed to stick together, but I’m quickly learning most of my family has a less than adequate amount of stick and about as much tact as an exceptionally bad case of projectile vomit and the squirts.

I take character defamation as serious as treason and if you cross that line with me you are out (for some reason I’m really struggling not to write this post in Yorkshire slang - e.g. “Thas out” ) ha.

My natural reaction to stressful situations is food, and lots of it… but it never even entered my head??? Not until now, laid in bed reflecting on the day, have I realised I never once got the usual ‘fu*k it get the bread and cheese out’ run through my mind.

Slowly the volume of that negative voice inside is lowering and a much kinder version of it is filtering through the noise I have become so attuned to over the past 9 or so years.

So there we have it, a much more positive and hopeful me has so far been revealed whilst stripping away this 1 st 4lbs worth of layers.

I can’t wait to see where I am in another stones time… something which gives me so much hope and determination to make my future much brighter than the bleak one I was faced with and still am if I don’t keep this up, but that for me is out of the question.

I love life, genuinely & I have so much love to give the people I care for, that there’s no way I am giving up on this world and the people in it. I am fighting each day with everything I have to make it to the next in order to open up a new chapter for myself and loved ones.

I have nieces and nephews to make in to flower girls and Paige boys at my wedding one day - where I’ll be wearing my dream dress from a normal person shop, not a heff brides are us!

TBC…

[simplyghoststu]

Breakfast first thing this morning overnight oats and fruit with yoghurt. Overnight oats and yoghurt for a late breakfast/lunch today. #slimmingworldjourney #slimmingworld #slimmingworldmotivation #weightlossjourney ##slimming #dieting #diet #eating #eatinghealthy #healthybreakfast #healthyfood #healthy #healthylifestyle #healthyeating #yoghurt #mullerlight (at Doncaster)

[simplyghoststu]

Slimming world friendly salad to share with Rosey, salad, ham, cous cous and a couple of Babybels. #slimmingworldjourney #slimmingworld #slimming #salad #redemption #diet #dieting #eat #salad #eatingwell #healthyfood #healthylifestyle #healthyfood #healthy (at Edinburgh Club Site)

[simplyghoststu]

Firing up the Cadac for lunch for a healthy syn free meal. Food to be added soon. #cadac #bbq #grilling #grill #protein #slimmingworldjourney #slimmingworld #slimmingworldmotivation #weightlossjourney #slimmingworlduk #slimming #dieting #diet #eating #eatinghealthy #healthybreakfast #healthyfood #healthy #healthylifestyle (at Edinburgh Club Site)

[franfromfattofit]

Phew!cannot tell you how relieved I am with that result!