#soberalcoholic

[squidsinmysoda]

[ blorbos 2: electric boogaloo ]

70% of the coloring process was in grayscale, is this “emocore”

If you have any criticisms, tips, etc, feel free to hunt me down 👍👍

[sarahjacobsxo]

3 Months

It's been 3 months since I lost my best friend.

That may seem a bit over dramatic to someone who hasn’t had to deal with addiction, however that is the only way I can begin to explain the complete loss I feel in my soul. Over the I have been going through the stages of grief as though I have lost my legit best friend.

The past 3 months have been a process of mourning and learning how to live all over again. I am learning how (and who) I really am.

Learning how to just be in social situations without the alcohol making it bearable (and me, tolerable).

Learning how to acknowledge and accept emotions for what they are, instead of just ignoring everything until it goes away (because let's face it, nothing really ever 'goes away').

Learning how to be okay with being present, instead of just wishing (and drinking) the time away. Just plotting away at life with no real purpose or drive.

I never truly believed the people in AA who claimed after 6 - 12 months that they had a moment of clarity and it all felt worth it and started making sense (being sober). I don’t see it at the moment. There isn’t a day I don’t wake up believing it would be easier just to drink for the rest of my life, whatever little time that may have been if I continued at the rate I was going. Because that is, it would be so much fucking easier to drink.

I feel as though I have lived 29 years in the past 3 months. Never in my short 5-6 year drinking career have I ever been late to work, regardless of how hungover I was from the night before or even if I was still over the limit. However, since not drinking, I have been late to work more times then I can count. Because I can’t function without it.

I don’t know if I have a problem, if I am an addict or if it is just a result of the clinical depression and anxiety. However I do know alcohol doesn’t serve me and I refuse to let something have that much power over me, that I feel compelled or as though I am unable to control my own actions.

Forever taking it one day at a time.

This is where I would usually say, 'I'll drink to that', but I think that would be in poor taste lol .

[notyouraveragekendoll]

Celebrating 30 days sober today after being an alcoholic/addict for 10 years. I couldn’t be anymore proud of myself and thankful for my support system & my higher power.

[notyouraveragekendoll]

I have been choosing to exist in the dark for far too long. It feels incredible to finally live in the light.✨

[bjsrer]

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[bjsrer]

sometimes a lil self-reward is necessary... #truth #SoberIsSexyAF #SpiritualAF #NextLevel #FunInRecovery #ODAAT #LifeInRecovery #HopeAnchorsTheSoul #NamasteBitches #TheThirteenStepHouseInc #SoberMovement #InTheRooms #SoberGrid #SoberMode #MyStoryIsntOverYet #4thDimensionOfExistence #LiveLaughLearnLoveLife #Sobriety #RecoveryRocks #StayInTheTunnel #LivinWithMyself #CatchMeAtAMeetinBitches #Recovery #Addiction #SoberAlcoholic #JustForToday #RecoveryIsPossible #CleanAndSober #SpiritualAwareness #SoberLife #12Steps #RecoveryIsWorthIt #PeaceAndSerenity #Today #RightNow #Gratitude #Inspiration #BehaviorModification #GetOnTheGrid (at Starbucks)